I need a bit of help...

ok well last year i starting cutting and i stopped going to school because of it. After awhile I was expelled because i wasn't at school enough to be able to pass that year. I went back this year to repeat, But i was having problems with an old friend. So now ive changed schools. And it's a great school, it's college and you don't have to wear uniform and i can smoke there (i smoke btw), But the problem is, im still upset, And i think i have depression. I don't go out with friends much anymore. I've stopped dancing. I still cut from time to time. I try not to though, But the problem is, I just don't want to be around people. So i don't want to be at school. My dad has been asking me why i dont want to, But i keep telling him "I just dont want to". He knows theres more to it then that. My dad is also a Youth Worker, But i want to tell him what is really going on, And tell him i have been cutting. I just dont know how to say it. Ive tried to tell him, But i cant get the words out.

Thanx, I might do that, Since im already going out with my best friend tonight. Im just not sure what he'll think..

I find writing letters and putting it in their car helps so when they go to work they see it and they have time to understand or process it in their heads. Keep ur head high and all will be ok
~Juls~

Its a hard thing to do. I used to be a cutter. Then it got really bad i realized i needed help. I went to my doctor and she told me to go to the hospital because i would be able to see a theripist asap . They ended up putting me in a mental hospital for 3 nights and 4 days. i didnt need to be there, but after that i realized that im a lot better off than some of these people, and that sometimes it can be better to talk about things. needless to say they told my mom about the cutting, she was disappointed and still doesnt understand, not many people do, even the people who say they "cut" but they just think its cool cuz people are doing it. anyway...im glad she knows now. mostly because i found the more people i told that i didnt want to know the more people i would be trying to hide it from when i promised i wouldnt do it anymore and then do it so i stopped and the feeling of putting a smile on someones face or a tear in my moms eyes every time she looks at my arm and sees the scars but doesnt see anything new makes me feel guilty cuz the scars but a sence of accomplishment becuz people are proud of me. i still deal with depression and suicidal thoughts and stuff but cutting isnt the answer...it actually just brings more stress on you because if you were anything like me u wear long sleeve shirts or sweatshirts (Even when ur hot) you hide it from everyone and sometimes you just cant take it anymore its like ur living one big lie and u feel so damn guilty. just try to get help and maybe ur dad shouldnt be the first person you go to ...another adult or theripist, ur dad cant make u tell him why u need to talk to someone... he can just be there for you... i hope this helped in someway. and i know you can stop and make a better life for yourself...ive i can, you can ( ive stoped cutting for 6 months now) and its still hard....its an addiction and you dont know what else to do. but with time. youll get through it.

corrections : ive should be changed to if....and you should check out my poem " the marks that lay upon me" and some others in there , they are about everything it sounds like ur feeling.

Thanx so much, I might Just talk to my best friends mum, Do you think that might help?

if you trust her and your best friend enough with this, because it is very serious, yes i do.