A hating love

I miss him but at the same time i wish that i would never have to see him again in my life. But i miss him and theres nothing that i can really do to help myself. I despise him for putting me through hell i hate him for the suffering that came because of him. I want him to come back but at the same time i never want to see him again. Who is this guy who stole from me beat me and caused me so much sorrow... He is my father

Awww you poor thing :-( I don't know what to say... When I first read this, I thought the answer was obvious. I thought well of course you should leave and never see this man again... But it isn't as easy as that when it's your father is it? I really don't know what to say, I am in a similar situation and don't know what to do... I guess, just go with your instincts and let the people around you help you... I really hope things work out for you
Polly

lsn't that an oxymoron...

Leave the man...

but how can you leave your own father? what would happen if something happened to him? What terrible guilt would you have to go through?

Even so...

If someone causes his own child pain. He is no father.

I suppose you are right, I just feel that people should be forgiven no matter how hard it is to do so... But my elder sister didnt speak to her father for years and years, he never hit her or anything, but was a very useless father. He died last year, and she felt very bad for never forgiving him... I know how hard it must be, but think about it...

i believe its hard to forgive people but i dont think you should hate anyone no matter what....b/c no matter what happens to you or the person espesially your own parents you would fell bad...i mean after all he did put you on this earth