i question my own sanity..

alot of times i end up listening to myself question my own sanity..i mean realy i start to feel sick and have these thoughts -"would anybody miss me if i just disipeared"-"that rasor looks so tempting, but i cut my leg insted" and ill just sit there and start asking myself "whats wrong with me..?""why do i think like this?why dose my family have to all split up?" i just wanna cry but only when im alone. i cant open up to the ppl around me a fake a smile say im all right when i know i am not. i hide that piece of glass..i hide how i feel. i lie..yes i lie about how i feel, about my life at school..omg i am surprised no one has figured it out..i mean my family is so f***** up and i manage to hide it all. and ppl wonder what i think about when they say im acting 'out-of-it' i just say stuff and shake it off but most the time im asking myself is there some thing wrong with me?? why do hide this? why cant i just open up? but no..i cant it is to hard and i am losing my mind..

woww..i kinda feel tha same way at times..& ask myself the same things..=/

I feel the exact same, I can't really open up to people, Like when im alone and thinking about it, I'll cry so much, But when ever someone asks me about it face to face, I cant cry or tell them, I just smile and say "aw nah everythings awesome!"

I don't really know what to give as advice since im in the same situation, But all i can say is just to try and keep your head up, I know how hard it is, I try so hard, And sometimes i feel like giving up, But you can't!

- luv natz x0x....And if you ever need to talk just email me k x-x

yup i agree with what she says. you can NEVER give up!!!

Agree with all of what's said above theree.