Sad love/depressing suicide poems contest

ok here is where you can enter either some sort of sad love poem...or a depresing poem.
here are the rules

1)sad love/depressing poems only (explicit is allowed)
2)must be your own!!
3)please put title before poem.
4)ONE poem per person.

prizes
1st place-10 comments 5 votes and add to fav
2nd place-5 comments 5 votes
3rd place- 2 comments 5 votes

i will comment 1 poem for each person that enters.

this contest will end after 20 poems have been posted.
HAVE FUN!!!!!

Truth is...
by J. Lau

I used to think
That I can control,
The feelings I had for you
And the thoughts of being with you.

I kept my distance,
I held my stance.
I treasure the friendships,
And I wished you both happiness.

I knew that it will not
Be an easy path,
But it turns out to be much rougher
Then I could ever imagine.
Cause deep down,
It hurts like crazy.

Truth is...
I cannot hold my feelings back
And ignore its existence.
I cannot pretend l am not jealous,
That I'm not the one by your side.

Truth is...
I cannot ignore the pain anymore,
When comforting you when you fall.
I cannot stand seeing you being hurt over and over again,
And there's nothing more I can do.

Truth is...
I'm not being truthful and fair to myself,
Cause it hurts so much inside each time you cry.
I cannot leave this wound open,
And not distance myself to let it heal.

Truth is...
I had feelings for you ever since the day we met,
And it only grew deeper as time past.
I know that I should not feel this way,
But I can't help myself thinking of you each day.

Truth is...
I was sure that you were the one,
ever since we met again that day,
Around the end of June.

I don't know what to do anymore,
My logic is overwhemled by my emotions.
I still wish that everything will work out,
Between you and him.
But if one day in the years to come,
That fate finally grant me the chance.
I wish that we will be together,
Forever less a day...

For that is the day,
I wanted you to know...
How I truly felt ... about YOU.

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Let you go
by "-"ciñdy"-"

I know that we're over
And things are falling apart
I'm still in my dream realm
I should of known it from the start

But a reality start to overwhelm
I wish it won't happen like this
I can't make things happen my way
I can't reminisce

Things are unexpected
I know I soon will have to let go
And someday i'll let you know
How I feel and what I feel

I feel so lonely and felt so sad
I'm sorry I lost the love i had
I know that i'm not dreaming
I know it's real

I know every feeling
That me, myself revealed
I didn't know myself in reality
Because I couldn't face the real me

Now I only want you to know
Is that I don't need you anymore
Now I'll have to let you go
And find a love I've never had before

Photograph
by Alyson

Look at the girl
How she sits so still
Motionless in her depression
Not knowing her will

Silently watching
Eyes open wide
Never does she blink
So her feelings she doesn't hide

Shes looking through the glass
At the people that surround her
How they stare at her helplessly
Wishing she was there

But she just sits there silently
With the smile upon her face
To bad that its a mask
And she holds it firmly in place

That was in the past
As the scene sadly shows
In the photograph she will sit forever
With the sadness nobody knows

Treasure

Tears stream down my cheek
I watch you fly away
To a kingdom unknown
A paradise of better days

A place of love is your stay
Emotions haunt nevermore
Sin is not a fear here
Surroundings so pure

Lies are no longer an issue
The truth is what you find
No more rage and hatred
Peace too complicated for the human mind

So comforting for me now
The memories we shared
Close to my heart they stay
Forget them I wouldn't dare

To the end of my days
I'll mourn you forever
You were my only love
My only true treasure

I am sorry I have not been perfect,
During my eighteen years of life.
I am sorry you think I am anorexic,
And that I live life by a knife.
I am sorry I am not the same little girl,
That I was a short time ago.
I am sorry that I feel so much pain inside,
And that you have yet to see me grow.
I am sorry you must look into these cold eyes,
And that I have no confidence left to spare.
I am sorry that I like being away from you,
And that you hate the clothes I wear.
I am sorry for keeping things from you,
And for all my self-destruction.
I am sorry for making you yell at me,
And for causing you have that reaction.
I am sorry for all the times I have sided with Dad,
And for not feeling a bit of guilt.
I am sorry for being the reason you damaged,
The relationship we could have built.
I am sorry for using your best kitchen knife,
To slit my wrist for the first time.
I am sorry for making time spent with me,
Have to feel like a crime.
I am sorry for not giving you hugs when you want them,
And I am sorry for resenting you.
I am sorry for not having the same beliefs,
And for always making you argue.
I am sorry I do not like you,
And that I cannot forget things you have said.
I am sorry that each and every day,
Those words go through my head.
I am sorry for never calling,
And that I do not miss you at all.
I am sorry you had to see me at my worst,
Sorry you had to see me fall.
I am sorry I am not the perfect daughter,
And that I am not who you thought I would be.
I am sorry, mother, for letting you down,
I am so sorry for being me.

This is not goodbye
by Tabby

Crying by his bedside my tears flow endlessly
I held his hand so tightly never wanting to let go
Trying to not think about what is about to be
I look up at him trying to not let my sadness show

His eyes are closed his breathing is slow and heavy
I run my hands through his thick, dark, brown hair
His handsome face is so pale with the color gray
That I begin to cry even harder thinking it isn't fair

Sickness is taking my true love away from me
Draining away his energy happiness and light
But not stealing our love away from each other
That is the one thing that he was able to fight

His eyes slowly open and he turns toward me
He smiles a weak smile and touches my cheek
I feel myself breakdown and burst into sobs
trying to say don't die but I could no longer speak

he grabs my hand and pulls me to him
reaching for my face he brings me into a kiss
then he hugs me with such a weak embrace
I hug him so tight never wanting to end this

Suddenly he lets go I pull myself slowly up
He looks at me with such sadness in his eyes
"I love you sweetheart"he says to me
"I love you but there will be no goodbyes"

"I love you to" I sob into his shoulder
I lay on his chest hearing his heart as I cry
I feel his breathing slowly fade away
As i sob to myself I say "its ok this is not goodbye".....

End of my Love Story
By: ~*Who Cares?*~

Love may be just a 4-letter word,
Before love comes in, your free as a bird.
But this word can lead to eternal sadness,
As your heart begins to beat less and less.

What ever happened to "We Belong Together?"
You said we'd be together, but nothing lasts forever.
"You wanna be my lady, I'm thinking more like my wife"
Is what you sang to me, but you ended my love life.

Now I call you, and I get your machine,
Knowing your sitting there, hearing it ring,
"Hi, this is Jesse, leave a message after the beep"
Is what I always get, yet in my heart a place you keep.

Saying goodbye to a guy like you,
Is something that I never wanted to do.
I thought I'd never have to worry, about my 2nd kiss,
Because on the 1st I nearly missed.

Yet you didn't care, because you said you loved me,
And you wouldn't rush me about anything, you took it easy,
Because you knew that I'm not ready for too much,
So you said that enough was just getting a touch-

From my hand. One kiss and I never saw you again,
We continued to talk, every now and then.
Now we barely talk, today was the first time in months,
Yet I've dreamed about your face in the billions.

I dream of our single kiss we had,
Under the stars, but now it makes me so sad.
I keep listening to our song, as I cry,
I can't let go of you, but I don't know why.

You were my single love, and I'll love you always,
As minutes turn to hours, and hours to days.
No matter who I end up marrying and having children with,
You'll always be in my mind, this isn't a myth.

I still love you Jesse.

Can't
can't do this no more
can't live this lie
i can't fall asleep and
can't bare to cry

can't run away
can't live my life
i can't stop this pain and
can't stop this knife

can't find myself
can't be in the norm
i can't find a safe place and
can't hide from your storm

can't hold up my head
but i can't live this way
i can't be your friend
can't handle the pain

can't let this happen
but can't let it end
you can't break my heart
cause you know it can't mend

can't say I'm sorry
can't tell the truth
i can't say i love someone and
can't say that its you

can't see you again
can't tell you goodbye
can't let you hug me
cause you can't see me cry

The Girl

The girl is walking down a path
with shadows of death above
covering the light that
she never seems to see

Her life is black
along with her heart
She learns to live with the black
She seems to know nothing else

She walks down that path
with signs of death above
Happieness in her mind
is a joke so she frowns

She thinks about death
the thought of suicde is fun
Sliting her wrists
and shoting that gun

I never loved
I never saw the light
I never was happy
I am such a fright
Nobody will cry
So tonight Im going to shot this gun under my chin and say one last goodbye

These were her last words
she wrote to everyone that
has walking in and out of her life

She took that gun
her hands so still
and said a final goodbye
and went for the kill

She shot a bullet
right up her head
as that girl
falls down on the ground

Her twin finds the body
and the note that lye with
she reads the note as
she crys to herself

She says to her died sister
"Im not a twin without you
so the other should die too"

So she took a knife
and slit her wrists
till the life of the other girl
could no longer exsist

JUST FOR LOVE

Father's sitting in the chair
Being questioned by the police
Little brother's crying hysterically
Cousin shocked
For he could not believe
The brutality of the scene
Drops of blood on the floor
Trailing from the kitchen
To the bathroom
Laid with her eyes wide open
Red from crying
Was her body in the tub
Filled with water
Mixed with her blood
On the sink
A letter laid
Written on it
Was her reasons why
She had finally given up on life

"I died for you,
I died for my friends
I died for my family
And finally
I died for the truth to be revealed:
That I NEVER got the love I wanted and needed!!
I was tired of being neglected
Tired of being misunderstood
I was just tired of EVERYTHING!!!
AND THEN
He came into my life
Uncried every single tear that I cried
And gave me all the security that I needed
He brought warmth and sunshine into my dark
Frigid
Lonely world
HE
Showed me what true love really means
He told me that he loved me
And of course I believed
For I never felt this way
Until he came into my life
As time went by
Little by little
He began to change
My world began to get cold
It wasn't warm any more
The warmth was gone
HIS warmth was gone
So I decided to confront him
I told him I felt his love slipping away
And that I wanted to know
WHERE DID IT GO?
He looked at me with eyes filled with sorrow
Eyes begging for forgiveness
And told me there and then
THE TRUTH
That there was ...
Somebody new
The minute I hears those words
I was blinded with tears
My heart stopped beating
Darkness overcame my world
I couldn't breathe
Could this really be happening to me?
Suddenly
I was back where I started
Lonely
Cold
And lost
But also afraid
My heart was shattered
I never felt this before
How can one live without a heart?
How can I live without a heart?
I can't
NO ONE CAN
I tried so hard to do it
But it isn't possible
I just cannot live without my heart
I craved for my heart back
I craved for love
But love
I did not receive
So look at me now
There in the tub
And you will see
I died because he broke my heart
I died for love
Love from him
Love from my family
Love from you
Love
just for me
I died for the love
I DID NOT RECEIVE!!!
But just in case
You didn't know
I loved him I loved my friends
I loved my family
And last but not least
I loved you
Now take this into consideration
Until the day we meet again
Did YOU
Ever love me?
Did you my friend?

The letter was closed
With the tears she had cried
The tears she will forever shed
Even though she is no longer alive
She will continue to weep
For she is lonely
She is cold
Pale
Drained of all her blood
Drained of all her love
The one thing in the world she could have gotten from anybody
She did not obtain
How could this be?
Look at her now
Weeping endlessly
Freezing
Surrounded by darkness
Sightless due to the tears she have cried
With no heart to call her own
With no one to call her own
With no love to call her own
But yet for love
She has died

Dwelling in the pain you left behind
By Ipsita Bose

I carry on with my life,
even after our relation has broken
The memories live on,
as I carry the golden token

I don't want to look in your eyes
because i can not afford to listen to all the things they have to say
It's too late, you've taken too long
and now it's going to end this way

Your smile is still trying to win something,
but it no longer melts my heart
That one dream of us uniting is now over,
It's about time we must depart

There's pain in love
and you never realized
You set out to buy my heart
but it was never priced

We never watched a sunrise
We never enjoyed the midnight breeze
Counting money every step of your life,
that's why you never knew how it felt to count raindrops sitting under trees

Now, I'm not looking for anything
There's nothing I want to find
I'm just dwelling here
In the pain you left behind

Valentine's Day
by Even roses have thorns

They sit together
on the lover's holiday
cuddling, and smiling
acting lovey dovey
he knows she wants to die sometimes
she thinks there might be someone else
they part in their ways
he goes to the one he loves
she to the one that loves her
she holds the cold metal, his photo
crying why couldn't you love me
like the way you love her
she holds the blade closer
thinking "walk the sidewalk"
she gets closer to her want
he now feels her pain
leaving his lover
he runs down the road
now she is thinking "no turning back"
the blade "walks the sidewalk"
now turning, it "crosses the street"
he reaches her house
tears running down their eyes
she clutches the note
he clutches the nob
just a second too late
she lays there motionless
kneeling beside her
he reads the note
"we both can't get what we want"
he knows, though no one else does.
he now belongs to her
she got her wish
but he shall not
that was her happy ending
but his sorrowful beginning

If... By Meaghen

If cutting myself will release my pain

Then ill never stop slicing my veins

If shooting myself will make me forget

Then id shoot myself a million times without regret

If hanging myself will take away my tears

Then ill do it holding back no fears

If drowning myself will make everything go away

Then id do it every single night and day

If taking a pill will make everything stop

then ill take them until i drop

But none of This will ever truly take away your pain

No matter what it will always remain..

"Just a little blood"

She sits and thinks about the meaning of life,
She can't even feel her wrist touching the knife.
"Just a little blood" she thinks in her mind,
As the blood poars, pain and tears are combined.
"This pain is better than any other pain",
she says to herself when it shoots through every vein.
She grabbes a towel and puts it over the voom,
This is her end, this is her doom.
Her sight is weakened, she going blind,
As she thinks to herself, she doesn't really mind.
Her death is unimportant, no one will care,
"They won't even notice, I was never even there",
A wet and shiny tear falls down her cheek,
As everything goes black, some words she tries to speak.
She forces the words forward as her final last breath,
"Just a little blood" she says, "will lead to my death"

Pain

Whenever we're like this,
when life seems like hell,
everything seems to go so wrong,
I wonder if things will ever get well.

But even when everything seems fine,
behind those eyes is where your pain lies,
it hurts so much to see them,
but I pretend its OK and try to make time fly.

Whenever I think about you,
and all that you go through,
I remember how useless i am,
since I can't do anything to make you feel less blue.

Maybe my surface means nothing,
it shows nothing like what is underneath,
but I know it'll all just going to cause us all more heartbreak,
if i show any weakness, our pain will only be a time thief.

All your friends think I don't care,
sometimes i wonder if I am wrong again,
but I know things will only be worst if I did not stay strong,
I hope that you will never ever see my pain.

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Merci, Madame Moiselle.

Dreaming

She perches on a bridge arms stretched high
Ignoring the murmurings of passers by
She leaps into space as if she can fly
And she falls

She dives down deep into the blue sea
She swims deeper though burning her lungs may be
Down and down she swims, gliding smooth and free
And she drowns

She lights a burning pyre, and the flames touch the sky
She watches the smoke spiralling up on high
She steps up onto the fuel, brittle and dry
And she burns

She murmurs and rustles in her heavy sleep
A scarred arm slides out under the white sheet
In her mind are sky, flames and water deep
And she dreams

Not Mine

I was your voice when
you couldn't speak.

Not my words.

I was your strength
when you stood to bleed.

Not my hurt.

You needed support
and you know I was there.

Not my fight.

Your hand was guilty
of an unforgivable crime.

Not my touch.

You were
struggling to breathe.

I held you.

Not my breath.

You were dying from
your own shame.

I watched.

Not my death.

You were missing
your moments alive.

I heard.

Not my life.

Begging for sunshine
in this prison cell.

Your world not mine.

I'm everything you needed
but nothing that I wanted.

-Things Change

Sitting on her window sill
Reflecting on years past
She just can't help but laugh
As she watches the children play in the street
She remembers the days when she was one of them
But things change, nothing ever remains the same

Once upon a time
Her life was filled with make believe and lies
Like a fairy tale right out of a book
She once had a father and a caring mother
They were once a very happy family
But things change, nothing ever remains the same

She used to believe she was a princess
And that nothing could ever harm her
That the people she loved would live forever
Never to leave her side
That she'd always be daddy's little girl
But things change, nothing ever remains the same

She stopped believing all of these lies
The day her father died
No longer were her days filled with happiness and laughter
They were replaced with sadness and tears
She soon turned to the knife to help solve her problems
Things change, nothing ever remains the same

Her mother began drinking more
And by the end of every day she lay passed out on the floor
Leaving her little girl to care for herself
And showing her no love
So the girl cried herself to sleep every night
Things change, nothing ever remains the same

The little girl grew up wishing on a star
Hoping and praying things would get better
Weeks turned into months and months turned into years
The little girl's prayers continued to go unanswered
And she still cries herself to sleep every night
Things change, nothing ever remains the same

This little girl turns and looks into the mirror
And to her surprise the reflection she sees is me
I'm the girl with no father and an alcoholic for a mother
I'm the one dealing with depression
And the one who has a very deadly obsession
I'm the one praying my suffering ends

But each and every day my prayers go unanswered

-xlovelostx-

Valentine's Day
by Even roses have thorns

They sit together
on the lover's holiday
cuddling, and smiling
acting lovey dovey
he knows she wants to die sometimes
she thinks there might be someone else
they part in their ways
he goes to the one he loves
she to the one that loves her
she holds the cold metal, his photo
crying why couldn't you love me
like the way you love her
she holds the blade closer
thinking "walk the sidewalk"
she gets closer to her want
he now feels her pain
leaving his lover
he runs down the road
now she is thinking "no turning back"
the blade "walks the sidewalk"
now turning, it "crosses the street"
he reaches her house
tears running down their eyes
she clutches the note
he clutches the nob
just a second too late
she lays there motionless
kneeling beside her
he reads the note
"we both can't get what we want"
he knows, though no one else does.
he now belongs to her
she got her wish
but he shall not
that was her happy ending
but his sorrowful beginning

alright contest over!!!!....ill judge and results will come in tommorrow..thx for entering

ALRIGHT EVERY ONE i have the results for you. you all did very well..and it was really hard to choose..i read all of them very carefully...and here are the winners.

1st place!!! This is not good bye: by Tabby
exelent job I loved it!!!!

2nd place!!! Dwelling in the pain you left behind: by Ipsita Bose
very nice...i understood it very well and could actually relate to some parts...i liked it alot.

and 3rd place!!! I'm sorry: by tiffany
i liked this poem and the message it gave....i took deep thought into this one..great job.

you all did very well and i thank you so very much for entering my contest....and for the winners...you shall get your prizes very soon i promise....again thx

take care
David

Congrats to the winners

wow... second place... i can't believe it...
thanks a bunch...

much love,
Ipsita

WOW DAVID THANKS A BILLION TIMES AND OVER 1ST PLACE!! YAY

CONGRATS TO THE OTHERS
LOVE YOU GUYS
TABBY

Yay!! =)

Unbelievable. Literally took the words out of my mouth. I don't know really much more to say. I just hate life.