lost, ignored, and feel like running

i'm in 9th grade this year. the school yr. started fine. then i lost all my friends. i made 4 new ones but now only one of them slightly listens to me. the poem i wrote titled DISCONNECTED explains the basic form of my school life. they say they care alot aboutme but they sure don't act like it. i asked them seriously "if i were to be in the hospital in serious condition what would you do?" they replied that they would come visit me every day but i just don't believe them because they ignore me everyday at school. this is not all that ppl do to me. this is just a basic synopsis. SOMEONE PLZ HELP.

no one can actually help you, because this sounds like a trust issue. and if they said they would visit you seriously, and they are your friends, then they probably meant it. just because they ignore you doesn't mean they don't like you. maybe they're having problems too? but i can't say much because i don't know your exact situation. and if you feel that they don't treat you like a friend should, then they're not worth your time. and if you ever do 'disconnect' with them, you might learn to realize that you are WAY better off without them and their actions. don't let anyone make you feel like you're nothing or that you're worthless, because everyone is special in their own way.
sorry for sounding cheesy or rude. and i hope i helped, maybe?
good luck,
lauren

Asking what they would do if you were in hospital is probably scaring them! They are likely to think you are weird and stuff. Sorry for sounding blunt but that's just the way it goes.

Well, it's a way on how you act.. A lot of people at my school think I'm a druggie, which I'm not.. but they all insult me about it..

Your friends would have a reason, I'm sure.. just ask them.