Deep Depression.

Has anyone been in deep depression? I have been experiencing deep depression due to many things that have been unexpected and changing my life - family friends or should I say losing them.

This has been going on for more then a month now and there are very few good days that I can count.

Everything seems pointless, I have no interest in anything, have lost weight [more then 15 pounds], can't sleep.

Seems like life is just a waste of time.

aw im sorry ive been through that b4..omg it makes me sick just thinking about stuff like that. but life isnt pointless. i promise you that..depression isnt something thats gonna go away fast tho. i duno really what to say. i got out of depression throug therapy...yuck lol but it helped. ask someone fur help. cuz you can do it alone.

Thanks Cherry, I'm getting therapy but it seems very slow indeed. I just need to rant and let off steam and thought this might be the forum to do it in.

It's got so bad that I dread each day when I wake up.

Well truthfully, I've been going through that for months on end, but I still don't believe I'm going to be going to therapy any time soon.
So I guess I'm not exactly the person you should take advice from, but I've found that the only thing that can really 'fix' depression is alot of patience. Waiting out the bad times until you find some reason to be happy again...I don't think talkin' to some therapist about what makes you sad and why it makes you sad, or about how you don't know why your sad...well it just doesn't seem to make sense to me - I mean you're just dwelling on your pain with someone there to watch you do it. Does it really help that much?
I guess you gotta judge that question for yourself. Anyway I mainly only wanted to come here and tell you that I'm sure you can get lots of free councelling (or whatever) right here on this site. I'm sure the majority of us have read your poems (wonderful by the way) or seen you around the posts and shtuff, so we're all here for you - whether we're 'strangers' or not. Good luck with everything, and I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. Things will get better...Here's to hoping anyway. -Stefhy

Thanks Stefhy, I am also wondering if the Shrink actually helps, just thinking about what I have to pay him is in itself depressing.

Uh oh, it seems my blabbing about my disliking and disbelief in that whole therapy thing has actually made you think about it... lol.
Don't make any rash decisions about that, I mean maybe it does help some people. I can be rather pesimistic sometimes. And I guess it wouldn't really help with me because I dont' know how to talk about those things. There's been so many times where people have approached me and tried to get me to spill it. But no matter how hard I tried it was just easier to smile and let things be... I've even been sent to school councellors but they gave up on me lol. But anyway, if you think it helps or feel that it has, then don't take anything I said too close to heart - I'd hate to change a good thing. -Though, me being the cheapskate I am, I can see how those bills would be a downer. Yikes lol.

Well ive never gotten professional help for how I feel so don't know if it's deep depression, or even depression at all so I don't know how to help properly. What I can say tgough is find somebody you trust (fully), talk about your problems (i know it's hard but it helps) and go see a doctor/councillor. All I can suggest really.

therapy can help but not for all people. all you really need is someone to talk to...you wanna talk to us go ahead well listen. but theres probably a different easier way to fix this

Hmm.. Well ive been going through the same thing kind of. I don`t know if i have depression, But i think i do. Ive never gone to talk to anyone, I just can`t do it, Feels like something just holds me back. I don`t really know what good i am for advice on this. Cept maby just try and stay strong! And i hope all goes well for you!

love natalie x-x-x

Steven:

I never knew you felt that way, I read that you were depressed but not deeply so.

And to get advice from teenagers. C'mon Steven you know better than that.

Life is filled with unexpected heartaches and pitfalls. It is perfectly alright to sit there and soak the "what just happened" all in. My suggestion is that you take some time off and see a therapist. To let go of that anger and sadness bottled up inside you.

Everyone, especially Sunny wants to see you alright and back happy again. Hope you do that soon.

Ismail, thanks for the 2 cents, but did it ever cross your mind that I am not soliciting advice from teenagers but wanting a way to vent and just talk???

I am not trying to be defensive and thank you deeply for your advice. I am talking to a therapist, but I think just generally talking here will also let me loose some of the pressure bottled in.

Thank you Britt, I'm not arguing with Ismail, just wanted to clear a point with him.

Thanks for trying to cheer me up, but as you so rightly said, it will take time and it is painfully slow.

But I think that just being able to vent and talk generally is a great help and can help me take my mind off of things.

Britt, believe me I have more then faced and dealt with issues head on, spent more then a month now just sifting and sorting out the problems. The problems I would say are now over, this is the fallout, the painful aftermath that I am going throw.

Or if you like to call it the painful healing process after the surgery.

Steven, do whatever makes you feel better, I have been through deep depression and am still going through it, it is hard and does make life seem pointless but there is always a point, vent on here definitely sometimes it can really help!
love katie!
xxx

Thank you Katie, I think you can understand where I am coming from as you have the same experience first hand.

Everyday just seems a constant struggle, everything is a struggle, to get out of bed, to work, to eat, to sleep. I cannot find interest in anything and everything just seems grey.

But I still carry on and have my visits to the therapist, Now there's a word we should break down - the-rapist!

read this book called "the monk who sold his ferrari"
it changed my life, im sure it will change yours...

Do you have the author's name and the ISBN no.?