i lost my dad and i dont no what to do

I lost my dad back in January and it is so hard. I have no one to talk to and it just seems like no one cares. I just don't get why god took him away. I have hardly any support from my friends and everyone expects me to be okay and that i shouldn't be upset anymore. but, the longer it is the more harder it gets. I cry all the time because i miss him so much and i dont get why hes gone. I just want my life to end because i dont have anything to look foreward without him hear. I really just need someone to talk to who knows what I am going through.

im sorry to hear about your uncle and grandfather.

alot of people have told me to spend time with my family. but that can be hard because i hate to see them upset. also, people have told me to talk to my family because they get what I am going through. but it is so hard to talk to them because, i am scared it will upset them when i talk about it. so i choose to hide my feeling in more and just not talk about it.

THATS GREAT ADVICE! NOT THATS HORRIBLE ITS THEIR DAD HAVE SUM FEELINGS

Maggie, sorry to hear that you lost your dad at such a young age. My father died a year ago January and the pain does ease. Bereavement is a strange one because it affects each person differently. There is no time scale attached to it, no matter what your friends might expect of you. If you have a counsellor in school then go that route. It often helps to talk things through. I don't know what's avaliable in the states but here there's an organisation called cruse which offers bereavement counselling.
Go well, and know that the pain does ease.
love and light

Im sorry for your loss, I lost my mum two year ago, not saying I know what your going through but I know how tuff it is to lose someone as close as that. I know it's easier said than done but stay strong and hang in their hun.

Take care Sarah x

awww babe I am so sorry for your loss..I really want to PM you about this becuase I know the feeling...

One of my close friends lost her dad last December, and she is still having a hard time with it so I let her know I am there for her. Pick one of your friends, the closest one, and tell her everything, give her a change to really understand you. Now that I get my friend Kelsey and how she is feeling, I try really hard to be supportive for her. I am sure a lot of your friends would care if the understood really how you were feeling. Also, please tell your family, if your struggling the would want to know. You important to them, and death is not something that can be dealt with alone. Hugs.

-Tainted Mikochan

thank you all so much for caring and taking the time to help! All of you have helped. It really helps to know that there are actually people out there who do care.