This is hard for me

Hun, I didn't reach the point of reality my grandpa died until two years later after his death. I sat there thinking, why didn't I cry at the funeral, and then I just thought, I'm never gonna hear "EmmaLou" or get to go fishing with him, or sit on his lap in the big blue chair.

The worse part of death hitting you, is that you never know when, and you can't force yourself on you when you expect it.

Okay right now it hasn'et hit you that they died, you could be in a sort of shock start or also a point of denial where you really don't want to know what happend so your pusshing it from your mind and you don't know it. But one day, when you wont expect it, it will hit you that they are truly gone it could take a while, it could be tomorrow every person is different. But my blessing to you, i hope you the best hun.

My Grandmother died 5 years ago. I still havn't grieved. Or cried.

kim that kinda makes you seem un-loving but uh ok....