wishing i was dead...

i hate my life. i wish i could just cry it all away or end it. why should i live? i'm scared of dying, i'm scared of thinking what would happen if i commited suicide. it's been a while since someone told me they love me...

yeah, this is me... i feel sick and i can't breathe and i hate my life. i've given so many advice to people about suicide and i'm the one thinking about it now. does anyone even care out there???

hey killing yourself is not the answer and i have been there. i care and i am here for u if u want to talk so e mail me so i can talk to u, i want to help.
luv britt
xoxoxoxox
brittany_broome@hotmail.com

Hey life has its ups and downs... Im sure the thought of suicide jumps in the mind at least once in everyone's life... but of cause, its not the way to go :) we are all here for you, have hope :) email me if you would like someone to talk to :) randomnlost@yahoo.com.au , I wish you well, and remember, people do care about you :)

knowing that there are people here for me makes me cry:( but i just can't sit down and talk about it with my parents... i hate it... you guys don't even know me. i'm not like this if you went to my school. i hate hiding it all inside. i don't know. i'm so confused!!!

Im also on msn but just use my private message thingy if u wanna tlk, i also do the whole cover-up thing, with plastic smiles, but as i have found out death is not the way out of this, you have many experiances and many things left to do. so anyway email me if u want if u dont remember that theyre are people out here who care for you and never kill yourself.

i'm here at my lowest. obviously i need to know what people think or i wouldn't have done this. now i'm staring at the screen and i can't think of any good memories of me and my friends.

i'm in the internet waiting if people who i don't even know care about me. i sound snobbish and rude. yet, i know they are trying to tell me they're here for me. i've done so for other people but i can't tell myself this. i'm writing what i'm thinking. does it help? yes. now, i'll be known in this site as a psycho who was just laughing a minute ago and thinking of the sweetest thing a guy has ever done to me to a depressed girl who constantly checks if "wishing i was dead" has more posts. just great.
am i insane? i'm still writing? people won't want to read my poems now. i'm stupid and depressed. congratulations, this is a turning poing of my life.

thanks for all the help... i'll need to think by myself plus everything you guys have said. if there's still tomorrow, i'll try to e-mail everyone in here.

feel free to write, maybe i'll change my mind and see that people really care. now i feel like i'm threatening you, advertising myself. i'm pathetic. now i'm whining. yeah, take care:)

lol, be happy Victoria, not may people can do poem talk, you can't just that those great talent of yours go to waste :) stay strong and have faith, read some funny poems... they always make me happier :D

yeah, thanks everyone. i've locked myself in the bathroom and thought everything through. well, maybe not exactly everything but enough to make me look at my life differently.

thanks for all your help. now can anyone tell me how to delete this post i made? i wanna erase this stage of my life. i know i learned from this but i'm so ashamed of even thinking of suicide.

thanks and take care:)

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Love from Victoria

No need to be ashamed Victoria, I too have been there, I too have learnt, if you ever happen to look back, be proud of the person you are now and be proud you stayed alive :) We are always here for you.
...as for deleting post... maybe GoldenKnight would have the power :) Take care

:D

(if i only knew how to make that smile wider, i'd post it here)

thanks!!!
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Deja vu..? heard the same line again...? who doesnt wishes to die? well i, myself want to do. That's reality because life sux. it does. so hold on because someone will come to make your life worthwhile...trust me XD

Nessa

i know i know! this has long been OVER. but i thank you guys big time for telling me all this. i'm still here!!! :) *hugs 'n kisses*

i dont think so...you have to write Haunted Soul
part II first!!!! i am serious..