Trapped being numb

Yeah, so shoot me for another complaining thread, honestly I don't care anymore. That's just it, in general I honestly don't give a crap about life or anything. I am just there, just numb. Nothing seems to matter to me, I feel nothing, as if I have figuratively lost my soul. It has been this way for a while, and I don't know what to do. It would be nice to enjoy life again, but I can't and I have tried every mind talking stratagy I know, but nothing has worked. I even went as far as to tell my parents, or rather they asked what was wrong with me. I mean I am turning sixteen in less than two weeks, but when I think about it, it is all blah just like everything else. I am sick of being blah and empty, does that make any sense? If anyone had felt like this I would love to know how you snapped yourself out of it, because I am all out of ideas. Thanks.

-Tainted

Couldn't have said that last line better myself.

I may not know how you feel to that extent, but I know what its like to feel numb. And in all honesty its a very scary feeling, or unfeeling for this matter. During the summer and most of this year I felt like a hollow shell. It felt as if nothing in life mattered anymore, anything that happened, just happened, whatever.

I still feel that way time to time, but a lot of people do, i believe. Anyways, i'm not a hundred percent sure how I snapped myself out of it. I guess I just got thinking. And thought, why should I give the satisfaction to others to know you've finally broke me? So in a way I rebelled. I was determined on making myself feel again. I do random crazy things just to get a feeling. Go to a party, try and have a good time.

I don't know if any of these suggestions will help but here goes:
--Take a long hot shower every night.
--Music, its the best therepy.
--Dance (To me it seems that to dance you need to put emotions into it otherwise, your just moving, and anyone can do that)
-- Try to talk to a friend (on msn of person) once a day.
--Help other's with their problems, give good adive.
-- Go for walks (this helped me a lot) I thought it was cheesy and stupid at first but it helped me clear my mind a lot and focus on some issues.
-- Basically I decieded to get back in with my friends, instead of being anti-social. Decided to voice my opinions and of they didn't like it, well thats not my prob.

Hmmm... thats about all I can think of right now. But right now I feel as if, I'm getting somewhere, i don't feel as numb anymore. I think that once I got past some things pushing me down, I felt lighter. Pfft. I'm rambling and totally off topic, meh. Well i'm here if you'd every like to talk.

P.S. Happy early 16th b'day. woot.

~Luvz~
~Angie~
xoxo

Had no idea, but honestly I am ready to try any healthy way of feeling because I hate being empty.

-Tainted

Angie- thanks for your comment and your advice, I basically do a lot of that stuff already, and as far as friends go, I don't really have any at this stage in my life so I can't really do that. Maybe this will all just blow over, and maybe not, I wish I knew.

-Tainted

i sorta know what you mean. i mean, i felt really bad before so i worked really hard to block it out, and now i have to work really hard to feel. if you come up with anything good, will you tell me or something?

cheers.

Forsaken Redeemer
xXx

"Take a long hot shower every night.
^did you know that hot showers can actually enhance depression?"

Lol, for some reason that made me laugh so much...

I know how you're feeling, but have no idea as to what the answer is... As other people have suggested try things like putting on your fave music and relaxing. I don't know much about you, but I have been reading a book all about this sort of thing, and it says:
'The mind and body are so bound up together that what affects one affects the other. It's a vicious circle!'
In other words, before you can 'snap out of' this feeling you need to check you eating enough food and you are getting enough sleep. By simply changing your lifestyle a bit it may really make you feel better. I know it helped me =D

I don't know what else to suggest. Stay strong and take care

- Polly x

As a general medicine to those with depression, I can give you this. You're a teen, unrenouncible fact. Try to make it past this stage, don't concentrate on your depression, think occasional happy thoughts and you'll be fine.

Thank you for you kind words. I guess all I can do is keep on plugging away with life, althought that's not the answer I was hoping for.

-Tainted

Well i feel the same exact way you do babe..I feel nothing in this world..Everything is numb to me now, honestly i cant tell you how to feel b/c im trying to figure that part out myself..as for not caring i can tell you this..alot of my friends have noticed i stopped caring about everything, and all it has done is hurt them even more!! Trust me on this one try to start caring..even tho you may not alot of ppl around you surely do!!! you mite not think so or wonna believe it, but they do...Try to do things that you used to do to make you smile..open up more let ppl in and let them try to help you...but try not to just not care, in the end you will regret it, i assure you! You have helped me, im gonna be here to help you!! If you need me, you know where to find me!!!

xox Nelle

Nelle thanks for the comments, you are a sweetheart. Let me know how things work out for you, okay?

-Tainted