My not-so-wonderful life...

I picture my life as a waterfall. When you first look, all you see is the beauty of it falling gracefully like angel's wings. You notice the mist and how it makes a rainbow of all colors. You notice the beautiful scenery, like from a painting. Then you look down and you find that the rainbow ends, and how the water crashes onto the sharp rocks below with a cruching force to kill whatever has the misfortune to fall... That is my life. People see me as a waterfall. Not that I think I'm beautiful. On the contrary, actually. I hate myself. But people see the fact that I have five horses, I have friends, a big house, my own room, and every material thing a girl could want, right down to a loving imediate family.
But if they dig deeper they discover that I am not very popular at school, my dad has deserted me to live with a women who I think is a whole lot of bad words that I'd better not say on this site, over half of my family thinks i'm a liar because i've finally told someone that my uncle and my brother-in-law molested and almost raped me. I've kept that secret for a little more than 7 years. I have chronic nightmares and night terrors. I have post-traumatic stress disorder, and I fight with my mom. (and all that is just the beginning)
Anyway, I'm sure some of you feel the same, so tell me what you think.
*Laura*

Why don't you go see a therapist?

Sure you've been through some tough times but you can get through them, you have obviously managed to so far...

My advice, go see a therapist, they can help you out... And just go to the police about your uncle and brother in law...

I suggest you go see someone for help or something...

sometime's getting psychiatric help will only complicate things. now, i'm not condemning the idea, and probably that isn't a bad idea. but! try to go through things by yourself and with friends. i definitely know what you're talking about, my life is NOT GOOD!! here's a few of the things: my parents are divorced, and my mom remarried to a man who is now trying to get her locked up in an insane asylum, even though it's obvious to everyone else, including the hospitals, that she is perfectly sane. (maybe he's the one who should be locked up?) not a single day goes by that me and my mom don't fight, i spend most of my time in my room to avoid people in general. my step-dad's side of the family hates me; i'm not exactly sure why, but they make it very clear. after years of not allowing anyone into my heart and life, i finally started dating a guy who treated me like a queen. until he got tired of me after a month and told me he never loved me. my aunt, who took care of me when i was young and taught me almost everything i know, including writing, commited suicide. i could go into more, but i think you get the point. the main thing that keeps me through is my music (piano), my poetry, and my God. so from my experience, writing is ThE BEST possible thing to do when you're feeling sad or angry, and if you write metaphorical and stuff, it comes out really really good too. but it's a good release.

All I can say is I agree with everyone else, either deal with it, or seek professional help.

No hard feelings...

And life was never supposed to be easy...

STOP bringing back old threads!

all i can say is that i've gone through very similar things. and you know what my anwser to it is? this:

life sucks. we just have to get over it. pardon me, but F ur family if they are calling you a lier. its their fault if they loose a person like you. you arn't the one who has the problem, they do, they don't want to accept it.

so you know what. just wait till youre old enough to get out of there, and show them that they were wrong and never change your story. because it was the truth.

...truth be told, no ones life is perfect. And professional help ruined my life. So i don't suggest it. But i always had my friends. And without them I wouldn't have a life. Now about your family. Just refuse to care what they think. You know what happened. You know the truth. Don't let their misguided hearts get in the way of jjustice fjor your pain.

That's all I got.