Heh, what a way to leave for war huh.

  • Poetically Speaking
    18 years ago

    I left to bootcamp with a love, and came back different. My heart had changed in the 6 months I was gone. And when I returned I felt inferior to my girlfriend because she was in college. And me being the grunt I am, couldn't handle it. So I broke it up with her. And yes, typically speaking I came back, crawling on my knees, to her.

    Last week my dad had a heart attack and she came to meet me near base in a shady hotel room. I needed comfort, an ear, and a warm body to lay next to. She told me the things she knew I wanted to hear. As I cried knowing my dad was in the hospital, she told me she loved me. I fell back in love. After the night was over and morning came, our goodbyes were said and she left. She didn't call me this week. And finally, after trying to get a hold of her, she tells me she still cares, but doesn't want to be back with me.

    I wouldn't be so angry if she had not lead me on like she did. And now, as I sit heart broken, ready to deploy for the first time... I have no one. And she doesn't seem to grasp the magnitude of how much I regret breaking her heart in the first place. But I am in a situation where my heart and soul is fragile. A soldiers life is a lonely one - I wish the brouchure had told me to expect that when I donned this uniform. I am here to let it be known that love, in my eyes, is something everyone should aspire to have, but none should seek. Because when you look for love, all you find is temporary pleasure.

  • Kaylee
    18 years ago

    I respect you for joining the military. I learned to appreciate people who did ever since I became friends with a guy in the national guard. I know I'll never know what it's like to be in your boots and I know I'm offering no advice, but I just wanted to say thank you for what you will do for this country. ^-^

  • Han84
    18 years ago

    yeah u did break her heart in the first place and i think ok maybe she did lead u on abit but at end of day it wasnt the right time for her to tell u tht she didnt really wanna get back with you!! um she told u the tihng u NEEDED to hear!!!
    um i understand tht it hurts eps as ur dad had heartack.. i lost my grandad by one 3 yrs ago nearly and um it werent nice at all.. n i had someone do a ver simular thing to me.. a it does hurt but thing is we kinda only wanted to be back with them coz they were there wen we truely needed them!!!

    i say if u cant have them then set them free if u love them.. its beta to have a lil piece of them with u still if its friendship than not have them at all....
    dnt do the mistake where i bloody went mental at him n now we dont tlakat all n it kills wen i see him coz i dnt love him at all ne more but he was still big big big part o my life...

    take care yeah n jus sometimes u have to ride out the bad time to get to the good times again!
    and some ppl are only an experience not for life...
    maybe thats all she was and experience take care

  • Megann Lee
    18 years ago

    Ahh...The same thing happend to me, with Jarrad..(My Once again Boyfriend) But anyway...He lives two hours away so it is really hard sometimes, and I hadn't heard from him in two weeks and thinking he ditched me and what not I left him, but about a week after I finally saw him, Aye...heart broken he was, he didn't know how much it hurt me when I had left him..

    Soo..both of us attempted to forget how much we each loved each other we tried ignoring and pushing each other away..Whichi didn't help at all. I got more depressed and could only think of him and how much I needed him....

    Soo I talked to him one night for a good 4hrs and I told him some of what I was feeling and that I loved him still and I wanted to be with him..and I needed him, he then told me the same, and after the talk we were dating again..I slowly started becoming slightly happier, still depressed though, but that's alright...

    NOW as for what you should do it talk to her tell her how you feel, and you know you made a mistake, but also maybe. She doesn't want to be with you again cause you are leaving and she is afraid something bad will happen..maybe she is afraid if she takes you back, and something happens when you are gone, she might be hurt more...

    Hope I helped slightly, Love; Kina

  • Bubbles
    18 years ago

    you broke her heart. She doesn't want to cry over you anymore. It's bad enough to go through it once, the thought of going through it again is absolutely terrifing(sp?). Give her time and space, and if she does still care, she'll realize what she's missing. It is really sweet that you have taken the time and trouble to get this girl back, but if you do ever get her back, don't confirm her fears and hurt her again!!! Thank you for keeping us safe soldier-man!

  • sean
    18 years ago

    im leaving for the militarty to. and i broke up with my gf, only to come crawling back. but she would not take me back, she said it hurt to much. but i think its for the better. there is going to be hard times out there and missing some one is only going to make it harder. only time will heal and just try to have fun. everything happens for a reason. good luck!

    and what boot camp was 6 months?