Please tell me what's wrong with me

My life feels messed up. I wouldn't say I want to die but I just don't want to be around anymore. Somedays I don't eat and then I do eat and sick it all back up again but the weirdest thing is I get a thrill out of it and I don't know why. I've tried to overdose the last 3 thursdays and tried to suffocate my self in my chemistry lesson I think about getting myself run over all thet time.I don't know what's wrong with me. My family are messed up and its sometimes like I've got nobody and all the people I do have just wouldn't understand. Sometimes its as if I hear voices in my head and then I realise its just me talking to myself. Practicing conversations with other people. I'm mesed up and I know it but I need help and don't know who to turn to.

Please help

I pratice conversations with people in my head but I doubt there's anything wrong with me. It's probably just you trying to reach out to people who you know may never listen to you.

You've got a great talent, Sondos, one not too many people have and I'd hate for it to go wasted if you hurt yourself.

You should try and work out why you feel this way. That might seem pretty obvious but think about something that might have triggered a sudden dislike of your life; have you fallen out with a boyfriend, friend, family member? been bullied? think about it if you can find out where things went wrong it will be much easier to sort out.
I know that you feel as though you have nobody but surely you have at least one good friend or a family member you can confide in? Talk about it, if you voice your worries you might find they seem less terrible as you originally thought.
Alternatively write a list of things you'd like to improve in your life, stuff that you might feel self concious about, make up with people you fell out with, get a better education. Then work out how to do it. I'm here if you need any help/advice/someone to talk too.
Charl xoxoxox

You don't want to die, yet you've tried to overdose 3 times? So tell me, how does that work? Was it just for attention?

I doubt attention. Did you ever think that not everyone who tries actually wants to die?

So if they didn't want attention, and didn't want to die, why try to overdose?

I can't explain it, I just know that it's true. And this is not a debate thread.

Ok fine. Well we'll see what the original poster has to say about it.

i know how the poster feels. sometimes i just want to make myself pass out by not breathing for a little while. but then i can't do it because i am so weak. for the debate above. i do sometimes want to die. but i don't really want to die. and it's not for attention because i don't tell any of my friends. it's just a feeling.

yeah not really wanting to die..but trying anyway- hard one to explain i agree, but i've been there so i know it's possible. and i'm really sick of the whole "they just do it for attention" thing. if thats what you think just shut up because you havn't been in that persons shoes you don't know what they're going through and while yes some may be suicidal or cut etc..for attention. but only because they NEED it. not because they think it's fun. they're crying out in pain for help and if all you have to say is "oh they just want attention" then just say nothing because 1-your wasting you time! 2-they need someone to talk to not to criticize them. and 3- you can't just throw everyone who has those problems into one category "attention seekers" because were all different and not everyone just wants attention. or are you just jealous because your not the one getting attention? boohoo...
and to sondos- i agree with the person who said meybe you should get professional help, i've been through alot and when it came to the point where my mom made me get help, i didn't want to because i didn't want to admit i was that messed up. but it's ok to do...and if you let it, things may get better. just remember though, the only person who can really help you is you, they only help you help yourself.

you're a teenager.

tht was haaaarsh=(

no, just over-simplified.

when in the throws of problems, I know it is often easy to forget or not know that everyone else, your peers, the ones you admire most, the ones you despise, are probably, or have gone through something similar.

over-simplifications rarely do much help. but they do add a sense of objectivity and clarity. others had already provided their own stories. so I felt it was time to be a bit more objective.

as for the 'hearing voices' thing, I'm not a psychologist, so I can't say for sure whether it is true 'schizophrenia.' I've heard some psychologists say that some people fake it for attention or other desperate reasons. to me, your situation, doesn't sound at all different from how any other creative person behaves. of course, creativity / insanity is a very fine line. you should probably consult a doctor if it's a serious problem. and by serious I mean, interupting how you live your life in a significant way.

You're just a bit attention/love deprived. I know the feeling of having friends that just wouldn't understand... I've been in that situation in a very bad time : I was so depressed and the one friend that would understand was no where nearby.

If u need a friend, u can email me... I'll listen. I might be 13, but I'll still listen.

"voices in my head..." that reminds me of this song.

"Unwell" by Matchbox 20 (Lead singer: Rob Thomas). Please listen to it; it's good.

Try to keep a diary, let it out... don't keep it bottled up inside or some bad health problems could occur (such as OD). So if u need someone to talk to and you're not sure about me, please try anyway. I'll try my best to help; if that's not enough I'll try harder.

sondos, whatever happens, do NOT let life get you down!! There are so many pretty things and good stuff that will happen to you! After everything bad there is always something good... Sorry that I'm being so cliché, but I'm trying to be optimistic. Don't try to commit suicide... You are talented, kaylee was right. I'm here for you ;) pm me if u need me, k?
What I do lately when I feel totally messed up, is that I try to find a good side on everything. And yes, I often don't find anything optimistic,but when I do, it makes me smile right away.. Give it a go, life has so much to offer you ;)
Don't give up.

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