Im feeling pain again!?!?

Okay here it goes. I lost a ex 4 months ago to Susicide which was the most painful thing to me. Not only did i date him, he took my virginity and i so was not over him yet. I was trying to get over him and i wish i dident becasue maybe if i was not being so stubborn then i would still have him today. I made the choice to not go back out with him becasue he hurt me but everyone deserves a second chance right? BUt now that he is gone i cant give that second chance and i just feel like crap. I miss him so much and i loved him to death. I spoke at his funeral and his mom loves me to death because she said i was the stongest girl she has ever met and my big heart will take me many places in life. I am just down in the slumps and need some people to talk to. Please and thanks and oh i have a couple of poems i wrote about my ex. They are names Dreaming and Ryan David Cameron. Please vote and comment.
Nichole

That's horrible. Losing someone you care deeply about is difficult. If you need someone to talk to, you can always email me.

I'm sorry to hear about your lose. I don't really know what to say because the only person I lost was my brother and it was natural causes...not an ex boyfriend by suicide. That's got to be hard.

And I agree....it's great that you can put your feelings into words but I do find it a little....wrong for you to ask for comments about them. Just let others read them when they want. Ya know? Just a thought.

Again....I'm sorry to hear about your lose.

I NEVER even thought about using my ex who shot his self to get votes and comments on my poems. I just thought you know since i wrote a couple of poems about him that it would go good with this topic and i was letting people know so if they wanted to read them they could and comment IF they wanted. I HATE when people make things seem what they are not. That is wrong and I would NEVER use the person i loved to get something so small, NEVER!!! I am not that kind of person. But anyhow thanks to the people who said they would talk to me whenever i needed to because i am just in an emotional down. I thought i was you feeling better about the whole thing but latley since he is soposed to be graduating and his graduation is on Friday, i have been feeling kind of down. It just hurts not seeing him up there with his class and starting his life in the real world ya know.