what is it

i hav just gotten my first b/f i love him so much but wenever he gets cose to me i pull bak, he asked if i was ok coz i have it pretty hard at home, n he thought my dad might be abuseing me or something coz thats the way i act. i cant remeber anything like that happening but it is my gut telling me that i might get hurt again, nothing has ever happened to me in that way, i dont no wat it is. plz help

It could just be that subconsciously you're worried you'll get hurt, maybe just because you know that not everything works out. Or maybe you're instincts are telling you there's something not right about this guy. It could be any number of things. You could just not be ready to get close to him yet. Or it could just be that you don't find it easy to trust people. If you're worried, tell him you want to take everything slowly, just one step at a time. Never do anything you're not ready to do.

Yeah i agree, take it slowly, if he really cares about you he will understand. Have a talk with him about it.