Feeling down 24/7

I just don't care anymore, my life isn't worth living. I'm feeling suicidal most of the time at home and sometimes at school .My friends thinks im a good person, but they don't know anything about me, I have known someone my friends all my life but that doesn't mean they know everything about me.

I need someone's advice

Please help me

Okay, well, I don't know you, so I can't say you've always been a good person. In fact, if you're having these regrets, I can assume that you were not. That's what regret is. Knowing you have done wrong. But you're starting to realize that you aren't, so that's remorse, and that shows that you atleast care enough to change. Remember, all you are is not only all you've been.

If you're worried about people not knowing you, short answer, all you have to do is open up more to them. You don't have to give your life story all at once, but baby steps, finesse a little bit. Pour it out in drags, keep them lingering, true friends will stick around, wanting to know more, wanting to help.

People on a poetry site can sympathize/empathize, but professional help would be much better, and all the feedback you recieve here still probably isn't worth 1 session with a real doctor.

you'll be ok. u know urself that you are a good person, ur just making it hard to believe in urself because of the the negative thinking in your head. so just calm down and realax try not to thin about everything at once. email me if you need anything at really_special_yuri@yahoo.com (soundz concided but my friend did it).

"It's called depression."

^NO! I would NOT call this depression...I would call this being fifteen. Most (note: I DID say MOST) teenagers go through phases such as this. It's the self pity, my life is so horrible phase. You said you had some friends so...if you have a roof over your head, clothes on your back, and food in your belly...quit your bitchin'!

I'm sorry this isn't being a teen.. on the verge of killing urself, isn't just being a teen...

My friend drank a whole bottle of bleach to try and kill herself, she's a teen, but it's not just a teen thing...

If she was an adult and felt this way natalie... if she was 40 years old and sed i feel like killing myself and im really depressed would u say... "o its just a middle age thing"

no natalie it's feelings... and whether it is a TEEN THING! or not, her feelings need to be delt with... because she really does feel like shit...yah she did make a mistake by coming on this stupid site which really does make u more depressed... but she still feels this way and maybe she came on because she has no one else to talk to... maybe her life really does suk... ever think of wut it could be? maybe she lived in New Orleans? Or maybe she was raped? or beaten?

Natalie u dont no.. and before u make fun of someone or wutever u want to call it... show them the facts.. realize that u DONT know where they go home at nite and u DONT understand... u dont know this girl so u don't have the rite so things so harshly.....

All your doing is making her feel more bad about herself.. when u could say it alittle nicer... i think u were trying to get at this point

TO WHOEVER POSTED:
I hope your life is going ok rite now.. and maybe you should realize that life isn't that bad... life is worth living... ment to be enjoyed... so why sit there complaining about whats happening next or whats happening in the past... when the past is already over and the future is your to make...

SO NATALIE:
maybe just word things alittle nicer next time

~sorry if this offended u~
~please don't message back and start a fite~

EVERYONE:
if she does DONT ANSWER because I'm not... this site was ment to help whoever posted this.. not to start a fite ...

PEACE AND LOVE MWAH!

(sorry Tony i forgot ur name while i was typing the last message)

I really hope everything goes ok and i hope u feel better soon...

really the advice i typed in the note above was honest...

i used to feel like u... i was put in a hospital and shit... but i sware life isn't as bad as u think...

i really don't no wut i can say to change ur mind u no?

It's hard to just get someone out of that mind set... but maybe jsut tell ur mom u? or ur dad? whoever watches u.. because they can really help... if u have a friend that u think would understand talk to them... honestly anything is better than this site...(writing poems is good tho here just not the discussion ive come to notice)

Maybe some help from a doctor could be good.... but idk... i don't really no u, so i couldn't say...

ur a good kid... people love u...

LIVE LIFE!!

maggie

Thxs guys, its good to know someone knows what im going through right now :) Like omg Natalie84, you don't have to be such a rude person its just a forum, go read the forum rules. Like if you can't say something nice, don't say it at all.

No offence man, its just I hate my life enough and I don't need you to make it worst :)

Srry if this is kinda mean, but im just stateing the truth

Thxs to everyone else though :D

Sweetsolitude: Again it's a teenage thing...it will pass. I don't know where he goes home at night. You're right...but he's on the damn computer so it couldn't be that bad. But again...slicing and dicing and being "DEPRESSED" is YOUR thing...so carry one.

Tony: I was answering a question ....NOT being mean.

Thxs everyone got sending me an email, I very appreiated. It makes me feel a lot better and my self-esteem when up quite a bit reading them knowing somewhere out there someone really does care.

Thxs everyone :D

well I'm happy ur feeling better tony... stay strong : )

choose one of them to talk to... someone who's loyal.

yeah... keep living... hang on, one day you'll be out of that tight spot and free on your own!

Okay you might not care anymore but I guarantee theres alot of people that care about you tony. Life isnt worth living you claim, if thats the case you would have never been put on earth in the first place. Your suicidal most of the time? Well seek professional help perhaps medication to help balance your hormones.
You statement about "My friends think Im a good person but they dont know me" well buddy at least you have friends, friends who care enough to let you know that your a good person, if they dont know the real you you can only blame yourself for being so negative and shutting people out let them even in, even just the slightest you might be pleasantly suprised if you open yourself to such possibilities.
No one will ever know everything about you, no one knows everything about anything...deal with your angst and turn it around into a positive energy to help heal and improve your life.
Peace
Eirisa

Sweet Solitude as for your uneducated comments, its very much a teen thing and if its not its a medical condition that needs appropriate attention (not attention seeking)

Thanks

Yea I feel suicidal most of the time when im at home because I have parent problems and in school im happy most of the time :)

I found your major problem in the first sentence. You say your friends don't know. When you bottle your emotions it'll captivate you until one day you explode and you're not here again. You HAVE to talk to someone about it. It can be anyone!! your parents, your best friend, just talk to someone. a counselor even. Just get with someone you're comftorable with and talk. the more you bottle your emotions the MORE you'll feel down. If you get your shoulder to cry on the LESS you'll be down until the point where you're happy again.

Ive seen the councellor for 2 days now and I don't see how its helping, I actually feel even worst. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. Dying right now to me seems like the only solution I have left.