Marlena
18 years ago
I'm really not sure why I'm writting this... But currently I fighting really hard to keep back tears. I feel so left out of my life.... Everyone in my school is extreamly sexualy active... and it's all they talk about, that and drinking. Thats all I ever hear about and I'm so sick of it and yet I feel so left out because I refuse to go straddle some guy and make-out in front of a bunch of other people... Today I went to my friends party.... a friend whom I always had feelings for but never really thought he returned it... altho he did always cuddle me and we had fun... He's definatly a follower and does whatever his friends do... Well I mett his friends today and they're SSOOOOOOOO trashy... and no one thinks anything of it... like all they talked about the whole day was sex and taking random showers together... And he started acting like them... it hurts really bad to just see him be trashy with all those other girls and not really give a damn... I pretty much just want to kill those girls for turning him into this but at the same time i envy them... they flirt fearlessly and they're the ones who are actually recieving his love because he basicly ignored me the whole night and i felt like a total party pooper... I'm not sure if this post has a point but i'm now just crying and shaking and feeling so dumb... Does anyone have any advice? PLEASE |
Brigitte
18 years ago
I agree with sluvious.... Don't sit around worrying about what they're doing with their lives and concentrate on how you’re running your OWN life. It's this age where you need to sit down and sort out your goals in life. Do you want to have a lot of sex and when you finally find someone you love and they'll be like.... Wow used good????? Do you want to drink all the time and never really LIVE your life? I suggest you take some time to find out who YOU are! Not who everyone else is, and NOT who everyone else thinks you should be. This is your life to live so don't let scummy girls try and take your views away from the gold. I know it's hard to stand out in a group... But maybe standing out is what will get you farthest in life..... And a word of advice, the guy you like MAY like those girls now because they might be fun and sexy.... But that’s not the kind of girls he'll want to settle down with... |
Once an Angel
18 years ago
These girls and guys in highschool are having their high point of life in highschool, but if you keep out of all that crap you will go on the enjoy the rest of your life. I mean, what are the sluts and pervs going to do after highschool, if the haven't already killed themselves by drinking too much. You were very sad that this boy you liked sunk down to their level, so don't you make the same mistake. You are luck to have a persective that helps you see how moronic your school mates are being, so let that me a strength to you. Perhaps the guys and girls at your highschool are easy, but that shows how little they care about themselves and their body. You are better than that, so don't you dare scarifice that or compromise that, because those qualities will help you get a guy in the future who is worth your time, and will help you become a person that is worth while in your own future. Ask those girls some time if they like who they are, who they have become and even if they say yes now, wait a few years and ask them again and I can garentee their answer will be different. You are doing so well to stand out for them, keep those values and standards around you and you will go so much farther and have such a happier life than those people in your school who only have their few moments of lustful pleasure. |