BREAK UPS - Broken Hearted

It was just before her birthday that she wanted to break it off. She used the excuse that she "wasn't ready for a relationship" and that maybe someday we might be back together. I beleived her for a while, but then found out that she was dating another guy and just left me hanging on to false hope. In that time though, I mostly stayed on the computer, talking with my best friends Steveo and Pefy. They kept me going through alot of it, along with my mom. The bad part was though that my sister liked hanging out with my ex, so I had to take her to my ex's house every once in a while, not fun for me. I put my feelings down to paper and started writing again, noting that I hadn't written a poem in months. I still don't know that I'm totally over it. Every day when I go to school and see her, I still miss her, but the love I thought I had has almost seemed to vanish. I got word recently that her new boyfriend she was seeing was only there for the summer and now shes all alone again. Im beginning to wonder now because shes been asking me to do stuff recently like going to dances with her. I'm just sorta starting to wonder if she was just going out with him and when he left she was going to try to get back with me. I don't know, I thought I knew how to predict her, but I was wrong I guess...

--Bryce~

,y boyfriend broke up with me because he didnt want to be in a relationship nemor which in itself meant that he was stringing me along till he found sum otha lasses to flirt with. i was really angery at first but then later that evening i got really upset. i started really crying and my friend cuddled me to make it better, thats wen my ex bf decided to cuddle me and i was so uncomfertable and asked him to get off me, i just kept screaming i wana go home, and every1 could see i was really upset, he told me he still cared but it wasnt enough. that night i spent about 2hours straight crying by the toilet i drank a pint of salted water to throw up all his remains inside of me. the lasses he was flirtin wid was really skinny so i dont eat much nemor and has lost alot of weight, i wouldnt say i had an eating disorder yet i needed to lose the weight neway! i am still friends wid my ex and its still hard to see him everyday. i hang around wid him still and i watch him flrit wid otha lasses. he'll never know hw much he hurt me but at the end of the day i know ive gota move on.

I have had several relationships come to an end. When I realized they were not ever going to be happy and fulfilling relationships, it was time to bail out and cut the losses. Under those circumstances at least there was some comfort in knowing that breaking off was for the best.

By far the most painful ending was when my husband's young life was cut short. I was totally devastated. Fortunately I was then able to take my two young kids and move back into my parents' home while I was grieving and adjusting to the loss. There were a couple of books I found to be really helpful in dealing with grief and the loss of a love. It was a year and a half before even I started putting my life back together and moving on. I found a different life for myself and made new friends. That helped to obscure the memory but I really don't know if you ever recover altogether from this kind of loss.