Okay, you know when you watch a movie and the girl is dating this guy who constantly hurts her mentally, and you're screaming at the T.V "Leave him!" Well, I am that person being yelled at.
I have been dating this guy for 3 and 1/2 years, and he is wonderful. He will do anything for me. We live two hours apart and he drives up every weekend to see me, and we go out, and he buys me so much stuff. Like, he is amazing like that. He will think of me, calls me just to say he loves me, all the stuff.
But...
There is also another side of it. The first 1 and 1/2 was terrible. I have no idea why I didn't end it. He did so much sh!t to me. As in, lie (about everything), talk dirty to his ex, walk around holding drunk girls hands, check out his ex's, flirt with other girls right in front of me, tell me he likes one of his ex's, without realizing it's actually hurting me, hits me, etc. So much stuff that I have really learned to block out. And he never listens, he is so immature for me. He has literally suck my soul out. Maybe me worry constantly about everything. Like when he goes to his friends, I worry about what I'll be crying about later.
It has gotten so out of control. I broke up with him. But I normal do do that. And we're usually together the next day again, me giving him one more chance.
Well, I am really stuck now. He has not done anything to me in a while. A good while. But then again, maybe I just haven't found out yet. Because one time he lied to me about something, and I found out a year later by a girl i never met. So, I don't know if I am over reacting about the past, and try to move forward with him. Or end it now, FOR GOOD.
What do you guys think?
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