So maybe i need some help

Ok hey everybody Im Tracy. And i really just need someone to talk to. It seems like everything has been a battle for me and i just dont know how to handle it anymore. My parents got seperated and that made me a little upset and then about a week later my ex boyfriend of three years left me for my sister. Now normaly i can handle depression but i just fell like everything has gone over the top. Im not one of those people who cut. I have already been down that street im really hoping I dont get lost on that road agian. I just want to know does everyone go through this or is it just me?

Um, go through what exactly? I mean, I've never been close to the sort of situation you're in currently... but I'm sure that you'll be able to get out of it with enough support. I think you should get a councillor as soon as possible, before you start doing things you might regret.

my parents divorced when i was 7, im 23 now and now look back and know they made the right descision, i'd rather have my parents happy, than staying together arguing all the time.
you'l find strength to able you to cope, talking to someone will help, your not alone, PM me if you need someone to talk to.
take care much luv lynne

Ok. First of all. You shouldn't worry about the seperation, because you know your parents will always love you.

Your sister going out with your boyfriend of 3 years is not very nice. She is not what I would consider a sister.

People go through a hell of a lot more then that. It seems depressing, but it is just sad. Some people just have to heart and think of no one but themselves. Like, did your sister even consider that you'd be hurt. It isn't right. But think about, do you really think they will be together in 3 years time? Probably not. I bet you any money he will come crawling back. And if he does, I hope you kick him in the balls. :P You deserve better then that!!! I find leaving someone for their sis is kinda pathetic. But, thats just me.

Hi Tracy

1. Understandably your parents separation must be hard on you but dont blame yourself. Keep the communication lines between you and both your parents open and discuss your feelings towards the situation with them so you are able to deal with it better, and with there help. If need be seek counselling or professional help.
2. Some boyfriend! What an a s s hole seriously...I would be so mad at my sister and you should be and have every right to be. Im actually a lil disgusted at that whole thing and my heart goes out to you! You should know you deserve better than him, and if he did it to you no doubt he'll leave your foolish and heartless sister in apool of heartache to.
3. Dont cut again, youve been there and done that your bigger and better than that and there are much better and more effective ways of dealing with your problems Im glad you dont wanna go down that road again - instead you can email me if you wanna talk or vent instead of picking back up that bad habit again. Try exercising, walking and running is great but i personally perfer smacking the crap outta punching bag to release my stress - you should try it...
4. No everyone doesnt go through this everyone is different, but everyone does feel down like you do right now so its completely normal. Remember its not how we fall, but how we rise from that fall that counts Tracy...GOODLUCK xxoo

maybe you should try some thearpy, im not sure

Yea thank you. Im just so lost and its not like i live at home or anything i live with my bitch ass sister. I took her in when our parents kicked her out. But im just so lost. And it kills me to see them together i mean i want to kick her out but i dont have the heart to do it. So i just told her to pretty much never to bring him around me and then we would be good. But it still hurts to know that that used to be me. But thank you for listening to my problems. This has helped. I really dont have anybody to talk to anymore because pretty much all of my friends wanted to take my ex's side. Some friends right? Well thank you agian and if there is anything you need help with just tell me. Im a great listener.

Hi Tracy...
I know it must be going hard on you...so many problems all coming down together...sometimes life just sucks. and then again there are those times...when all the bad things fade into oblivion...everything starts going right again...and life puts itself on the right track...without even trying. Thats gonna happen really soon...trust me.

Dont cut. How does that help you solve ANYTHING? If you believe in god, pray. It is VERY therepeutic. If you dont...feel good about yourself. really good. be proud that lifes shooting paintballs at you...and youre dodgin every single one of them. Smile. Breathe Deeply. Now. And before you know it...the gray color of the world will fade to a beautiful rainbow...and all will be well again. trust me. :) lets practice...lol...smile....keep doing it...and oh...doesnt that smile just MAKE MY DAY? oh yes. it SO does. :)
Take care, email me if you ever need help okay...i love helping...give me a chance to do so.
Bye Sweetie...Dhaval

Yeah I've been through something close to it. I've cut and I've been close to suicide. If it wasn't for my sister I wouldnt be here. I hope you have someone close to you like a best friend or family member that you can rely on when you get depressed. Just dont take it as far as I did and lean toward suicide, cz it doesnt help the people around you be happy, cz all most of them trys to do is make you feel better instead of depressed. Just hang in there, but if you need anymore help you can email me. My email address is on my poem site. I hope everything works out.
Take Care
~DyingBlackRose~

alright tracy i kinda know what you are going through my parents are not serperated but i can imagine what that would be like but my ex girlfriend left me for my best friend after my best friend promised he would never do it so i kinda lost both of them.. i really don't know how to tell ya to get over this i'm sorry except for well move on yes it's hard but you have to realize if somebody would do that to you(not your parents because they always will love you) then well they are not worth it yeah it hurts to think about but they aren't worth it and well i have something to tell ya also never cut.. because well just think of it this way to you want to eventually have kids and have your kids ask "what are those scars on your wrist" or something like that? trust me it's not worth it i'm not sayng you are somebody who would do that but anyways just don't do it and well that is really all the advice i can give sorry if i wasn't any help

Ok, hun..i dont really know about the parents situation b/c mine are still together..when my dad is home anyways...but about the cutting, i am a cutter..and i know its hard but you need to try, really try not to go back down that road again! Things get hard..that's life, but strong people pull through, and it seems to me that you are strong, or else you wouldn't be here now asking for advice, you would have already killed yourself! You have made it this far..If you need help with anyhting at all you can email me, its on my profile!! keep your head up hun.. xoxo

As I've said before, mostly what you need is a someone to hold you, give you a shoulder to cry on, someone to whisper in your ear, and someone to listen to your silent prayers.

When you look at them, your ex and sister, I'm assuming you feel as if someone just punctured your mental heart and a sense of helplessness. Your mind held onto the thoughts of how good he made you feel when he was with you instead of the ill things, w/e they may be, therefore your mind can't let go of that very touch.

For one, you shouldn't exclude yourself, maybe you'll find a very nice person. Interact with other people, there are other people out there, that will love the way you think, the feel of your touch, etc.

Common sense plays a big factor into suicide. Sometimes you think as if the aching tension and pain is too much and you think that if you died, no one would care, no one would cry, no one would remember you, or no one will love you. But there's that thread of common sense that tells you to live, live for that little spark of a reason you have left.

Pain is not something to be cured, it just needs to feel a warm touch and a pinch of hope.