Does depression seem addictive?

It seems that if I am down for a few weeks, then I start to feel better for a few days, I look for reasons to be sad. It's like I can't stand being depressed, but I hate being happy, it confuses me. Anyone else noticed this in their life? It's almost like my lifes not in order unless something is wrong...

Yeah i know what you are saying. Its kinda of freaky lol. But I don't know why this is.....

Sadly but true...It just seems you can live a happy day without being sad at some point...It does frustrate me a lot...

yea so weird seems like everytime im happy i have to find a reason to be sad like im not alowed to ever be happy

It gets addictive because after a while it is all you know

^^^True.

yes i also agree with unforgiven and well it is addicitve but maybe out there there is something that will be even more addictive that will make you happy so have hope =)

I do notice this somewhat-i know for me I feel guilty if I'm happy because I know other people aren't ( I know-weird) so then I get ''down'' again because of the guilt and the cycle starts all over again- so it is kind of addicting in an emotional kind of way

ps. I totally agree with Unforgiven Retniap doolb

It can get that way. Just have to plug along through the bad times.

I understand what you mean....I was depressed for about two years on and off...and I just felt like I didn't want to be happy. I prefered being sad I preferred putting myself down constantly....luckily I grew out of it. I dunno why it is I think that when you are happy somethings can go wrong....with me I think that my brain just prefered me to be sad so dissappointment didn't occur so often. I mean if you are happy then you can eailsy get dragged down again but if you are sad you are already there so it doesn't matter what happens. I got to the point where I would make stuff up like twist situations to make them worse than they seemed so I could be sad. I used to just be alone so I could complain that no one liked spending time with me and stuff. I just realised one day that my friends will not always be there to support me and stand by my stupid mistakes. I had to change my life before I did something stupid and here I am now a changed person. lol

Random outburst but who cares.

Alex
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We all need a reason to complain...right?

Weirdly and sadly, yes.

I'm going through the exact same thing. I completely understand. It's like you can't be happy without finding something to be depressed about. It gets frusterating after a while.