people are fighting to live and you are fighting to die

hey sweet sorry i havent been on lately so i just read ur posts today. wow, u finally broke me! i havent been able to cry for only god knows how long and reading what u said made me, so now i know im alive, thnx! ; )

I didn't write it in a bad way... I sed that... I'm sorry... And it's ok to cry sometimes... I sed i was sorry a bunch of times in the post... so again I'm sorry... I hope you can forgive me... I'm not sure if you were really saying thank you or not... because... for me... It's better to cry than do something stupid... sorry again.

I hope you really did mean thank you... If not i understand... and um... anybody else feel free to comment about anything

LoL, I don't really know what to say. Her reaction was surprising.

But like you said, it's better to let all out (cause eventually it will) than keeping it bottled up.

hey guys... I'm not gonna be able to post for awhile... So please keep this thread going... I think it could help some people

Thank you so MUCH! It means a lot.

Remember to be there for people going through a tough time... Because w.e you think of it... You no you wish people were there for you when you were in the dumps

~peace+love~

God bless

Amen

its good to see everyone doing alright! ^_^

This is a really good thread. It makes me sick hearing about teens committing suicide or thinking about it because there are so many people fighting cancer, Alzheimer’s , or dementia, like my grandpa. They want to fight to live, to do things they have wanted to do their entire lives. Then there are these young people who have so much time left to fulfill their dreams, and all they think about is death. Just because life gets tough, doesn't mean you should give up.

hey punk:
realize im not attacking u but ive gotta say sumthin. not only 2 u but evry1 readin tis. suicide comes from depression which is a chemical imbalance(srry bout spellin). i kno, i have it & its nothin i can control... its hard sumtimes...
especially since my lil cuz acused me of cuttin @ church & he never knew i used 2.it just once u get the thought n ur head, its not the easiest 2 get rid of.i kno bout fightin 2 live i lost many fam. 2 dease(? srry bout spellin again?) but yea, things happen.

i no things happen... I've gone thro that whole thing to... I was put in a hospital for suicidle thoughts... This thread was supposed to give people that were thinking of suicide hope... I've noticed that some people were taking it the wrong way... I'm sorry... i realized i should've worded it better... But i sware to you...I understand wut your goign through... This is just how i feel in the after math of it all... strong than ever... I no if your going thro depression you probably feel like you can't control things right now... Cuz it's stuk in your head... That's wut i told my therapists and all that shit... I couldn't stop cutting i was addicted... i couldn't get these thoughts out of my head... i was addicted... But honestly i had to try and get them out... I couldn't bow down to them... Guys I'm talking form experience OK? I'm not saying a bunch of bullshit... i no your all trying... I believe you.. i though i was to... until i look at myself now... and then...

I can't explain it... if you say theres no way for me to help you... Your just given in to this chemical imbalance... If yo u call it a chemical imbalance your believing that you'll always live with depression... and i refussed to believe that... I no its wut the doctors say... I no theres a million ways you could fight back at me... But... I'm living proof that someone can survive all this shit... So don't tell me you can't... Cuz thats just a big contradiction...

IF you wanna email me abotu anything I'm much better at working one on one Motor_mouth1991@yahoo.com

~peace~

^^ I agree completely.

ms.understood- I'm sure punk didn't mean to insult u... This whole thread is about helping... Unless, all of you have msunderstood...

i kno punk wasnt tryin 2 insult me... i believe i said that b4. if not i meant 2.

sorry if you felt attacked...

Anyhow... I hope things go well with u... sorry about the conflicts with u thro out this post... U seem like a good person jsut trying to over come something and put ur point of veiw into this post... And we should all except this... This post is about suicide... If we can't listen to a thread form someone who is suicidle (I think thats true... If not sorry)..... then wuts the point... Sorry If I've seemed... however I've seemed...

I'm dealing with a little bit of depression now myself... so I might be saying the wrong things

~peace love god bless~

Awww. A happy Ending after all

no big sweet its just i lost a VERY close friend 2 suicide & me & another one of my friends have been fighting it 4 awhile...
1 question though...
my lil cuzn dont kno that i think like this... (bout suicide) and he said i cut at church. the fact that he said that and that ive been tryin 2 get that thought outta my mind about 2or 3 wks now & that he doesnt kno that i do/did that scared me & i accidently went off on him cuz my pastors daughter thought he said the truth... i dont kno how 2 deal w/ that, any advice, plz?

Ms.Understood- i used to go off on people real easily... if they'd mention cutting even if it wasn't directed to me.. I just assumed.. That they didn't no wut they were talking about... And I'd get mad... Some times i was write.. Most of the time i was completely wrong.

My advice is... To go with it. I don't no how old ur little cousin is... But obviously he's old enough to even no wut cutting is. Maybe he just wants to help.. Maybe the pastors daughter jsut wants to help... Let them help you. And if you don't want them to help you. Let someone else help you. And tell them that someone is giving you help. I'm sure that they'll be happy to here that your trying to do something abotu this all. Even if they dont have ot here every detail. I used to think that people would b all nosy and try to get in my business... But honestly... Everyone in my skool found out.. ANd they don't care... If you walk around kidna thinking " this is how i am. This is who i am. If you can't deal with these scars... Then you can't deal with me." Then they will respect you. I no that sounds like a hard thing... But it worked for me... I don't no if it works for everyone.. In the beginning of telling people, be picky... But once your over cutting and suicide and stuff... you'll Notice that people don't care, that they've probably been in a bad place themselve too..

I've noticed since I've overcome this... People actually talk to me more because honestly more people can relate to me.. People i barely no come up and cry on my shoulder cuz they'll no I'll listen...

I no it sounds hard rite now..But i do believe that your little cousin and pastors daughter are jsut here to help. They might be confused over the situation. And they might not understand why someone would feel this way. But they'll listen. Sometimes all you need is someone that will listen...

~good luk and god bless~

but see the thing is i make sure that there are no scars in sight and they never knew before so it just kinda freaked me out. i dunno what im really tryin 2 say though, so yea, peace.

I agree hun!! I didn't read any of the posts but yours... powerfull stuff!! I'm with you 100% of the way!