did you think bout after your death?

  • Gizmo
    18 years ago

    my conversation with my 10 year old sister!

    jill-why did you want to leave?
    me-because i didnt want to stay.
    jill-does it hurt when your dieing?
    me-no.
    jill-would you be my guardian angel if you had off died that time?
    me-yes
    jill- amy, is it my fault?
    me- no
    jill- im sorry!

    this was the conversation my sister had with me in hospital the 3 days after an overdose.
    right, think about it, what would you say in my case? the people who want to die. never ever actually think about there loved ones, they only think they do.

    try explaining to a relative, why you wanted to kill yourself? could you do it? if you pulled though!

  • limp
    18 years ago

    Why do you WANT to kill yourself? Yes, this always upset people that care for you. So committing suicide is immature and selfish. But no, I've never tried to commit suicide so I don't know what I'd say if they asked why.x

    Their*
    Dying*
    Sorry.x

  • Ashes of a Black Rose aka Night Child
    18 years ago

    i wouldnt be able to say anything at all. i would be so shocked at to the innocent life standing before me which i almost destroyed.

    i wanted to die once, but then i realized that i was doing this out of weakness, that icouldnt stand it anymore and i was giving up. dont EVER give up. suicide is a cowards way out. you can be strong, just take life a day at a time.

    and if i had to tell them, i would say,
    " i wanted to die because my life was no longer a life. all my mistakes had made it become a glimpse into hell, and i couldnt stand this hell that i hate created."

  • Eibutsina
    18 years ago

    I think the conversation you had with your young sis should be enough of a reason to want to stay.
    YOu dont have to tell her anything except perhaps that you made a terrible mistake you would never do again because all your pain is worth seeing her beautiful face each day and being there to support her growing up.

    You should be the one whos sorry...

  • Avrii Monrielle
    18 years ago

    they'd miss me... my loved ones love me... and it hurts..

    but i kno how u feel... my younger cousin would probably suffer from childhood pain if i died...

  • Gizmo
    18 years ago

    i just want to add one thing, it was 2 years ago, i have stopped self harming after that conversation with jill, i would never do that ever again. and i am not sorry for doing it, not becasue i am selfish, but three things came out off it, 1/ my parents finally got to no the real me and got me help. 2/ i relised i was loved and 3/ i wouldnt have met the love of my life who i am now engaged to.
    i posted this to make people to think twice.
    thanks amy