hurt and confused..

i am a kid who has grown up with the world on my shoulders. Ihave a drinking roblem and i smoke alot of pot and ashamed about it...
i am to scared to tell anyone why because it hurts to bring it all up...
i feel dirty alone and depressed... ever since i was 7 i learnt not to trust anyone...or get close to them....when i was younger one of the thigns was...my mum use to abuse me and she use to say what ever doesnt kill me will make me stronger...
what should i do about this

Try to stop drinking & smoking pot, I think those are some of the first things you could do.. What happened in the past is not to be erased anymore, but you can always try to live with it, or to search help, and I know, that it sounds stupid, but you could give it a go..
good luck

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This is definately a tough situation. I haven't been in this situation, but my advice to you is to do whatever you can to quit drinking and smoking pot. My cousin used to do that stuff. He doesn't anymore, but that's only because he's in jail...I know it's tough to quit, but if you want something badly enough you can do it!

Good Luck,,,Stay Strong!

"if you want something badly enough you can do it!" isn't that the thinking that got you into smoking pot and drinking in the first place?

you're going to do what you do, you probably shouldn't be drinking though, or smoking pot, because you're missing out on the innocence of your childhood...stop trying to escape from life and instead take time to appreciate things.

Dont ever be ashamed of who you are or what you do...merely identify the issues and committ yourself to changing them for the better!

Well firstly, you shouldn't be here typing down all of your horrible problems; Get help, a therapist, someone you can sit down&talk to. Basically find another hobby, keep yourself busy&do things that make you happy. That's all you can do other than resort to alcohol&drugs to keep you happy. ..Sorry, that advice was rather crap.x

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~ Don't dwell on the past. You have the strength inside of you to break the addiction and to do the right thing. It's obvious that you really want this. Turn to God. Put your trust in him and he will help you through this...I promise. If you're comfortable with it, get to a church and I will guarentee that the people there will accept you and help you through this. If you aren't comfortable with doing that, just read your Bible at home and get closer to God on your own. It's totally possible, and I wish you all the luck in the world. God Bless!

Every teenager in this world thinks the world is on their shoulders. Though your life may be rough...though you're childhood may have been terrible...and as much as you think life sucks, REMEMBER that there a million people who have it ten times worse. REMEMBER that you ARE breathing!! REMEMBER that your heart is still beating!! REMEMBER that there are people who love and care about you!! Stop sulking in your woes and find something to smile about. The fact that your are on a poetry site should mean that you have a love for something (writing I would assume) so embrace that and put all your emotion in to it. This is an outlet...make some good use of it!! Stop bathing in this pool of self pity and get out and do something!!