it's like she still can't forgive me..

Me and R. had been very close for 2 years now when shit got messed up in my house, and between me and my mom, R. knew about this and she helped me to get through it, jjust like a good friend should act, but then one weekend things got really bad, and in the same weekend she had a funeral of a boy from her class, I got so caught up in my own problems, desperatly searching for a way out, that I forgot about the funeral,
and I wasn't any help for her.. after that she was mad. a couple of days later I approached her and we had a short talk, she was till mad, a week or something later we talked things out, and she sayd she understoud me.
but now it is lik she is still mad, she acts differently towards me, doesn't wanna hang out or anything.
If I call her and ask her to come over she does come over, but I am always the one who has to call her, start talking to her, or ask her something..
It is not like I have never been there for her even though she was there for me, she had some problems before the funeral and I was there for her then, just not with the funeral.
I don't want to loose her
I care a lot about her, somebody any advice what to do?

have u tried talking to her? and telling her all that? and tell her you feel like it isnt the same between you two and however you feel..

Shes obviously hurt and bitter about the past which you seem to understand. Truth is though friendship is a selfless gift, one should never EXPECT anything back for the kind deeds they perform throughout a friendship - it defeats the purpose really dont you think? I think you should either talk to her, or write her a letter expressing your feelings and reasons for acting the way you did in the hope that she can yet again understand and hopefully move on in life as your friend. It might never be the same sort of friendship but at least you will know you tried and you will have those emotions off your chest as well - then the ball is in her court...Good luck :o)