confused, happy, and heartbroken... too many feelings

well, yes most of my poems are about my breakup and this guy i like and the whole situation i'm in... i liked this guy a lot while i was going out with my ex, and i thought it would just go away after a while, so i stayed with my ex for 2 months... then it got to b too much, i snapped, and well here i am almost 3 months later after we have broken up (i broke up with him) and this other guy is like my best friend... we talk every single day, usually more than once... right now he's gone for 2 weeks so that wont happen for a little while =(... but he has a gf, and it always seems like he's flirting with me... i know he flirts with everyone, but it's like he's different with me... we're best friends and he tells me everything, and vice versa... last night, b4 he left, he was just in a really flirty mood and he even admitted it... but he made this one statement that has stuck in my mind all day today... he said "everytime i get online, and don't tell anyone else this, but i always look for your name first, even b4 i got together with brittany(his girlfriend)"... it's just made me really happy... and he knew i liked him a lot but i just told him a few weeks ago that i didn't anymore, lying of course, just so that that little bit of pressure might break... but the one thing i love about him is how open-minded he is about everything and he never let my feelings for him stand in the way for us... but he is just like always gives me huge hugs, always tells me he'll miss me, and b4 he left last night he said "i'm gonna miss you A LOT" and kept on writing lot... and so then when we were talking about me liking him he said that i "like" him and i said "correction liked*" so then we kept talking and he goes "well i liked* you too so now we're even" which i had already known, it was just a little weird last night i guess... anyone at all give me some input!!i was basically just getting my thoughts and feelings out there tonight... now that he's gone for a little while i have time to think about me and my life and what i'm gonna do about everything... i just wanna make sure that if we were to get together after he broke up with his gf, that he wasn't using me as a rebound or just using me as someone to fall back on... i dunno... if anyone is interested in helping with my lovely little thought proccess here, i'd be more than happy to give you more information on the whole thing!! thanks for listening!