Why DOES it always rain on me?

I guess I need to vent
*sigh*
I haven't been myself lately.
The joy and bubbly 'me' seems to have died.

Things have happened and I guess it's affecting me.

Like a previous post about my mum hitting me, for no good reason and my dog dying and things like that.

But it just seems I've been forgotten or abandoned.
Maybe it's myself but i guess i'll never know.

My dad and mum always yell at me and tell me I'm pathetic and not good enough and all these things.
They seem small but build up.

I have an image problem too, I have this rash thing all over my body and I try to hide all of it and when i cant im really depressed.

i want to see a counsellor but he's a male and I've had my fair share of experiences with males and dont feel comfortable around them.

I dont know how to get myself back.
I've been thinking of anti-deppressants but my parents would never put me on drugs.

I hate life at the moment but I dont want to and dont really want to die but it filters through my mind sometimes.

If any of you think I'm 'Emo' I guess you may be right but the thing is I dont care.

I am an emotional person because of past and present experiences.

hope you could help me
~Emah
;(

Well, if you think you really are depressed, you should go see a doctor and get diagnosed. But keep in mind, that it could just be hormones, especially if you're going through puberty. Maybe your parents are just trying to push you to succeed and are going a little over board? They just want what's best for you, right? And about the, not wanting you on drugs, have a discussion with your doctor about it, and if he/she decides it's best for you, he/she will have a talk with your parents. Anyway, i hope it all works out for you.

Good luck.

You should do a little research on counsellors and try and find a female one, i know I would be uncomfortable around a male counsellor thats why I go to a private counsellor in my town very close to my house.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. But I think you should try and find a female consellor to talk to, if you want to talk to a consellor. And make sure you can trust them. If you want you could also try talking to your parents about things, or your doctor to see if you really are depressed and can get diagnosed for it. And if you are depressed then you could ask your doctor to talk to your parents. And tell them how you feel as well. If you need someone to talk to you could talk to me if you wanted. Just private message me anytime.

I'm so sorry you are going through such a miserable time in your life. I remember going through a lot in my life with my parents and I hated my life so much. I'm surprised your parents don't let you have anti depressants. But then I dont' know if that was on doctor advice or not. Try to find a female counselor who can help you through this difficult time. Talking to friends or people you trust helps a lot too!! Hang in there!

Geez, depression sucks. I am sorry you are feeling this way. It could be a lot of things. Depression hits us all, but when it gets to the point where it is effecting you to much you need to take action.
I have bipolar disorder, so I know how it feels to get depressed over small things, and also big things. Some people might push you away and say that some people have it worse then you, but depression hurts a person pretty bad, and it makes you over exaggerate.
I take medication for my depression. You should do some research on depression along with bipolar disorder. Then discuss it with your parents.
Also, consellers aren't always the best thing, although they are nice to talk to. I feel uncomfortable around men too, but if you think you can, you should give that guy consellor a chance. But else you should try to find a female somewhere too.
It is also nice to discuss what you feel to a friend or someone that you can trust and who will listen. That is something I do. Sometimes it is better to have someone the you can lean on, and cry with. Hope I helped, and I hope things get better. -Shauni

Well, I get pimpled on my back and forearms, and when I can't cover them up, I get depressed too. But I hang in there. I don't like people to judge me because of my clothes, my skin, my hair, my shoes, my feet, my body, or any of the other things that aren't quite right.

//T.L.//