Old feelings coming back

Well, i was with a guy(ben) in grade 8(2004) and i was with him for 9 months, then we broke up... but kept getting back with him, we ended up going out 7 times. i called off the 7th time and its been about 1 year and a half since i was with him. I've been with 3 guys since then, and the 3rd guy im still with, Ben is with someone else now too. But recently i found myself writing "i love ben" instead of "i love peter" (which was my ex, 2nd guy), i didnt pay much attention to it, but yesterday i wrote "I love ben" instead of "i love christian" (my current bf now)! .. I dont know what to do! i still love him. Today he told me that i might be able to get him back within 2 weeks, because ben's girlfriend's Nan said she might have to break up with him, but i love christian.. he'd never hurt me, he's a commitment guy and trusting, which i've been looking for, for a long time. Ben cheated on me 2 times with my old friend melissa, and broke up with me 5 times for my old best friend kiara. ... i cant help but like ben still...! help!!

i know exactly how you feel. this guy has hurt me several times in the past year and im still in love with him. im not sure getting back with ben is the best thing. when he told you that you might be able to get back with him in 2 weeks because his girlfriend might break up with him..uhm that makes me feel kinda funny. cause if he really wanted to be with you, he'd break up with her now. and also christian sounds like a lot better guy than ben. i know you still have feelings for ben, but if he's hurt you that many times, do you really believe he's not gonna do it again?