Why does it hurt??

I don't know whats wrong with me!! I was reading a topic I posted on here a few weeks ago entitled I'm gonna kill myself...so many people told me not to do it, even that little boy Zanthonie, the one who passed away not too long ago he was only eight years old and he passed away! (may he rest in peace) I wish I could appreciate life. It's not that I don't, I just hurt. Reading everyones posts to me telling me it's not worth it, that hurts too! Knowing that people do listen and yet, it just hurts more. Literally, I swear I can feel this pain inside and it hurts and I have tears coming down my face right now I won't lie. Everything makes me hurt..why does it hurt? When will it stop? I have felt this way for 2 years. I can't handle it. I can't, I'm gonna drive myself crazy I swear. What am I supposed to do? Just keep forcing smiles?........

listen, I know how you feel.
I know alot of people have told you not to kill yourself, and im no different. Dont do it.
And for not the reason of "not worth it" I know you hurt, lots of people hurt too.
but killing yourself would be selfish ya know!
selfish to the people around you, your family, or freinds
that would get them all depressed too and they would question their existance- and it would happen over and over again.
you see even if you deny it- you doo make a difference in the world
if not a face on the street, or a close freind- YOU make a difference in other peoples lives.
another thing is,
WE should not play God like that- it is not our decision- we are to die when we are to die- and if we remain alive- that means that we arent finished with our life yet- there is something we are supposed to do still- or some one to influence. I had questioned my existance before- but I got over it by reasoning.

- I know that my opinion doesent really matter, but I just thought you might be interested in my thoughts.

putting pain into something creative is a good idea and killing yourself shouldnt be an option no matter how much pain you in. speaking from experience it does help to do creative things. its a way to let out whatever your feeling and you can appreciate it later or you can hate it and then do something with what you've produced but to do nothing and just feel pain and then talk about killing yourself is a really bad choice. i suggest trying to do something creative or something you love to do.

I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes i feel like life is just a waste of my time. I have tried to kill myself before, and when i made it through all of that stuff. i saw how much pain i had put into people just by trying to commit suicide. Even though i know it's going to hurt people, sometimes i still think about it. I don't know what your going threw, but know that no matter how har dlife is, there is always a reason why you are living. Don't give up. It's hard but you killing yourself is not worth you hurting you family or/and you loved ones. What I don't understand is why does life and people only pick on some people? Why should anyone have to hurt and go threw pain anyways? Sometimes i wish that everything, all the hurt, all the depression, i wish it would just go away. But i know it's not.

well put ur pain on papper write poems paint....talk walks to clear ur head...play music too.......i know how u feel and thts wat i do when im feelin pain...except for the paint part..i cant
paint or draw haha