Tabbys contest

VOTES ARE IN!!!!

Prizes
1st- 10 comments and votes and put on my favorites
2nd-5 comments and votes
3rd-3 comments and votes
4th-1 comment and vote

have fun contest ends on 6th of August so you have 3 days so make me proud!!!!!

Upon a lovers ideal

Lame beauty withering slowly
Against the precious life forms' arm.
A kiss planted so gently
Upon a lovers palm.

Sweet teardrops of the sunlight
Bathe them in a reclusive glow
A shadow falls intently
Upon a lovers plateau.

Alas! It seems pure nature
Has followed in appeal,
So calm, the world is living
Upon a lovers ideal.

My Dreams

In my dreams I see you, you are always there,
You tell me that you love me, as you play with my hair.
You tell me of our future, how we'll be one forever,
But then I wake up and realize, we'll never be together.

Don't know why, these dreams won't go away,
I can't help but dream of you everyday.
Dreaming how one day, you and I can be,
But your true feelings I can finally see.

I realize what you feel for me inside,
I know how little you care, that you make me cry.
I don't know what I did, but I'm sorry,
But can't you leave a place in your heart...for me?

So my dreams are my safe place, because I know,
That in them I can see you as our love grows.
So be it if only in my dreams, I'm quite used to this,
I love you, but me you'll never miss..

~*Who Cares?*~

Sinking
By:Jacob

All I feel is pain
Every moment
And tears fall like rain
Just to torment

It all goes dark
As I take the knife
And make another mark
To try and end my life

As the blood flows free
And drips to the floor
I sit and plea
To not feel this pain anymore

Spending day after day
With no one listening
To what I have to say
My eyes are always glistening

I don't know why I have to feel this way
Why I just can't have fun
Everyone else seems to play
While all I can do is yell mayday

Sinking in my own despair
Drowning way to fast
Fighting for every breath of air
Forced to relive the mistakes I've made in the past

Everything I do is never enough
To ever please you
And you think you've got it tough
Try being forced to hate everything you do

good good very good keep them coming people!!!

Bloodless

I stay in the darkness, where i belong.
away from the human's where everything's wrong.
i used to be human, or so i thought.
but despite all my disguises, it all was for naught.

one cannot run from oneself, i am my own enemy.
i can't change who i am, i am what you see.
a creature made only of flesh and bone.
there is nothing more, than this which is shone.

if i deny the truth, only pain will i find.
if i lie to myself, i only kill my mind.
i cut you, you bleed, cut me, there's nothing.
i am but a vessel, a non circled ring.

i do not exist, nor should i be with breath.
i live with no purpose. a life without death.
no heart to be broken, no mind to expand.
but still i can feel it, like a wandering sand.

will i fade away, turn into a memory.
what else am i good for, at least a story.
shall i be remembered, shall i finally walk free?
shall i finally laugh happily? shall i finally be?

Oscar

Quite a long read, but I think its worth it
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"Daughter of a freak"
by Wings of an Angel

Her hair so awful, her skin so pale,
She always wondered, where did she fail?
Born by a freak, raised as a slave,
No one to guide her, to tell her how to behave.
Years of working, years so dark,
She has never seen light, it has left its mark.
Shut in a room, just going out to clean,
It's the most horrifying thing they'd ever seen.
A key to lock her bedroom door,
Nothing on the walls, nothing on the floor.
No pillow, no bed, no good memories to hold,
No warmth, no love, nothing but cold.
Her mother locked the door, threw away the key,
The girl keeps asking herself "Whats so wrong with me"
Sitting in her room, hearing her mother go out,
She tries to scream, she tries to shout.
Her mother left her behind, in this room to die,
Now she's sitting there, trying not to cry.
She lays down, on the cold hard ground,
Trying to pray, hearing no sound.
Laying there for a couple of days,
in darkness and sadness, down she layes.
She will never raise again, never see the light,
She finally gives up, she will no longer fight.
Her eyes cry of sorrow, her eyes cry of tears,
Suddenly she sees something, an angel appears.
"Come with me, darling, come to the light,
"We will love you, you don't have to fight"
The angel smiles and reaches out her hand,
Where did this come from, she doesn't understand.
The girl reaches out her hand, suddenly starts to soar,
"Don't worry little darling, they won't hurt you anymore"

very good so far 2 days left!!!!!

Deal with it

Why are you saying that you can't deal
When emotions are running so you can barely feel
Soft, smooth wrists that should be kissed with love
Come out bleeding and broken, a battle that seems won

Tell me now, why do you do the things you do?
Whisked far from reality to a place that's never true
Crying from pain, your eyes turning gray
There will never be a "normal" day

If only you could realize
Someone -does- hear your outburst cries
Don't lose hope, because if you do
You will not win, you'll give in and lose

I am a person with a deadly disease
Like an invisible cancer trying to kill me
It's the monster many have complained about
Depression is what makes us shout

But should we give in
And let it win?
Or stay and fight
To live another night?

~*~"They Haven't Watched Me Fall"~*~

I don't think people would know
Who I really am inside
I don't think people really know
Maybe because I sometimes hide

If you asked me I would tell you
What I love and what I hate
If you asked me I would show you
Why I am this way

I keep myself hidden well
With many layers under my skin
All my secrets are silently brewing
Beneath my masks within

I 'm forced to live this lie
I'm scared of what people would say
No one would ever know
That I have went astray

They all think I am funny
I always make them laugh
But they never see my anger
And they never see my wrath

They don't know that I am sad
They don't understand me at all
They don't know that I'm in pain
And they haven't watched me fall

Copyright (C): Rhianna

Self Esteem-

you bring me down,
when you're around
so far i cant breath
its like I'm beneath
a pile of lies,
and deceit.
i no have
no more self esteem
cause
you've broken me

tell me I'm fat,
tell me I'm fake
tell it to my ugly face
everyday sunny i wake

now the sun hides,
in your clouded skies,
i don't realize
the pain's caused by lies

lies you've told me
that I've believed
but i have no relief
for I've been deceived,
and now my fragile esteem
has been destroyed,
you've torn me,
after you've sworn to me
that you'd never hurt me..
but now

you've broken me into
nothing without you
all the lies must be true,
cause I'm truly nothing
with out you
by my side
for me to hide
behind.
for me to cover
what i truley am inside.

everyone else should look away
don't look at my sullen face
and don't you know
every night i pray
for tomorrow to bring a
sunny day

I'm broken,
torn
shattered inside
my self esteem has died,
all because you lied,
i truly never knew
that those lies you said
weren't true
and i never knew
that because of you
I've died
inside,
where it matters,

my heart is shattered.
the ripped pieces
are scattered
among ruins of pain
and my soul is washed
away by the rain,
i will never be the same
you've caused me to be changed
my llife-rearranged.

it's insane,
the things you've put me through,
what you always seemed to do,
to think- i never doubted you
but now, i know the truth

Hum De Dum. =]

xLaurenx

x special not special needs x

A strange unique world,
Full of nonsense and fun,
An autistic boy,
Amazed by everyone,

An adorer of life,
Never neglecting one thing,
people fighting around him,
While he happily sings.

This boy is amazing,
With incredible knowledge,
At the age of ten,
Brighter than some at college.

This boy is my brother
And forever hell be,
He is the only person i talk to,
Because he understands me.

I feel as if were all special needs,
And he is a normal boy,
Completely level headed,
With life he don't toy.

He captures every moment
And lives life to the full,
There is nothing about Daniel
Id change at all.

for my baby boi Danny xxx

if you read this could you comment on my other poems please xxx alex xxx

Remembering...

By Tormented

Looking up at the sky
Remembering our first converstion
On a dark lonely path,
Stars were there to shine the way
Where you and me once walked
Hand in hand, we smiled

Now there are no stars
The path is dark
i walk alone.
With gleaming tears in my eyes
I wonder what happened to us?
We dont even know...

Hope you like it!

~Everlasting Mirth~

When I die, I will not be placed beside my pen,
nor will my soul dwindle on this petty earth.
Both will rise, one in glory, the other in fame,
and all will share in my everlasting mirth.

To my dirge, pen strokes will do a final dance,
words that kept me afloat, will no longer wade.
Writes left unpublished will be known to my askance,
yet I will be forgotten, as the ink eventually fades.

The portrait of my life, painted with caliginous words,
will be placed upon my headstone, in a grassy heap.
Forever I'll lay somber, where I've been interred,
for what in life I sowed, shall be eternally reaped.

Blenching pages will not outlive this web I've woven,
within these forums my heart is willingly expelled.
Never will fame surmount the ties of this poetic brethren,
nor will death seperate me from the bonds I've withheld.

~Sean Dohr~

Heart Move
by ♪↑Musicians Finest♪↑

Ever Feel like
theres only one girl
to complete you
Complete your world?

Ever feel like
Seeing that face
changes the beat
of your own heart pace

I feel it all the time....

The beat goes on and so do I
never to quit, theres no goodbye
Before I quit, id cut out my eye
Admitting I love her, Its no lie
Falling down, still giving it a try
No matter my tears, or if i cry
even though its known, she'll deny
My every offer, I've become dry
heres the gun..watch me die
light me up, like the 4th of July
cause I'm not special I'm just a guy
well i got something.heres my reply

Don't think I'm just another man
I got a heart, just understand
worth more then booty and Hands
just let me spit, my mind expand
listen to the words and my command
I snap back at you like a rubber band
I cant get enough, but its me you cant stand
I'm on the ground just give me your hand

Love is what i got for you
i get a feeling you feel it too
just let it be..just us two
ill give u a hint..give you clue
show you a sign, that i still love you
watch out for it, let it come through
feel the love, and then i will prove
we meant to be, don't let your heart move.

Prisoner
by Mr_blueknight

Remember the first time we've met
When you say hi I melt
And I'm Ashamed when your there
Freeze when you are near

You are like a valley flower
In the depths of snow in winter
Strongly standing and fighting
Waiting for the season of spring

You captured me with your smile
I felt love at first time
You fill the emptiness in my heart
And for you Ill ride like a knight

Just for you I will die
Because my heart is in your hand
And I am a prisoner of your heart
Jailed in the thorns of your love

Flying Across The Dance Floor
by ♥ Jєѕѕу ♥

He grabs my hand, pulling me towards him
My heart is pounding and my cheeks are glowing
We cling to each other and move as one
Flying across the dance floor we seem to be flowing..

Feeling his hot breath on my face makes me shiver
My waist shaking to the rhythm, my hands in his
Twirling and spinning, our eyes are connected
A scene of lust and hunger it surely is..

Our bodies start to rub, becoming a part of the music
His face moves closer and kisses my tender lips
I desperately try to get closer, wanting so much more
But the dance suddenly ends, leaving his hands on my hips..

good job 1 day left!!!!!!!!!!!

(You havent read this one yet Tabby)

Hospital Bed
by Tara-Kay

Lying awake alone in this hospital bed,
There are a million thoughts in my head,
I can hear footsteps creeping around,
I feel weak, I'm falling to the ground.

The rustling of the curtains scares me,
The shadows on the wall, I can see,
It is a frosty, cold winters night,
My body is shaking with fright.

I hear a whistling coming from outside,
Under the duvet covers, I will hide,
The walls seem to be slowly closing in,
It is a dark night, the light is only dim.

Being beaten until I'm black and blue,
Seeing the terrifying face that is you,
Lying in the hospital, I am in pain,
I don't want this to happen, ever again.

The shadows seem to be leaping out,
Can't I cry, scream or even shout?
My bones are all broken, I am hurt,
Lying all alone in this night shirt.

You cruel, crackling laugh is on my mind,
The fright I felt as you crept up behind,
Everything's back to normal, I look around,
No more shadows, footsteps on the ground.

I slowly begin to close my tired little eyes,
I can no longer here my desperate cries,
Lying here alone in this hospital bed,
I am just lucky that I am not dead.

© Tara-Kay Randall 16th July 2006

girlie goo you need to put a title up so ill know the name of the poem

1 day left keep them coming

Why?
by ღ»Lσιѕ«ღ

The pain and suffering that burns through my heart
I just cant take it when were apart
When you told me that we were threw
I knew then there was nothing that I could do

It tore my heart into a million pieces
This feeling that your heart releases
I cant take it anymore I want to die
I raise the knife as I start to cry

The knife is sharp against my wrist
I know now that I wont be missed
As blood from my veins start to burst
I think about how you were my first

I sat your picture next to the letter
That says how things just couldnt get better
One more slice and all my veins are cut
Here it goes now my eyes are shut

When they found me in the puddle of red
They knew then that I was dead!

*Hope this is what you wanted!!!*

They Seem To Be Happy

Barking Dogs,
Laughter,
People smiling and talking.
They are happy, or so they
Seem to be.

Under her jacket sleeves
Lie scars from times
When the razor blade took
over her thoughts, controlling
the feelings she left unsaid,
Or unheard.

He hides a secret past beneath
the Cheshire-like Grin...
A rape, a drink, a needle or two
from the drugs he needs
to keep this smile,

Within the heart of the loving
father lies a beast,
a man wanting to touch
the 7 year old he holds in
his arms (In a way he should
never think of)
as he kisses the
resulting scrape from a fall.

And in the young child herself,
although time has yet to
show this monster, a cutter,
a homicidal maniac,
and finally, a suicidal.

All the smiling faces are merely
Masks, Happy Masks hiding the
final result of the one thing
yet to come in each of their
oh-so-un-perfect little lives.

Not Sure Of A Title

A shattered cough,
Lost breath,
Broken skin,
I am Death.

A single look,
A glance above,
A glimmering eye,
I am Love.

A touch that lied,
Broken Trust,
Lost Love,
I am Lust.

Wondering alone,
Lost Fate,
Never Love,
I am Hate.

A gracious smile,
A golden key,
A gate of Trust,
I am Destiny.

Unbroken lies,
Not left in dust,
An open arch,
I am Trust.

A broken smile,
I do defy,
What is truth?
I am a Lie.

A happy time,
Everyone's strife,
You'll never forget,
That I am Life.

xDarkSuicidex

good so far

With Closed Eyes She Sleeps
by Twisted Heart

A lost and lonely girl here sleeps
Upon the dusty floor she lays
Curled up within herself she weeps
And grieves the death of better days.

Her hair is tangled from neglect
With dirty face and dirty hands
Tattered clothes in which she's dressed
Cover bruises, cuts, and bloody bands.

The wind comes through the open door
It blows her hair across her face
It pushes at her on the floor
And makes her shiver in cold's embrace.

The screams of pain inside her rage
A sound her heart has come to know
She should be dreaming at this age
But innocence was lost long ago.

Now distant are her dreams escape
For night has drifted in so fast
She wills herself to find a place
To hide from hands of anger's grasp.

She hears him coming up the stairs
She seals herself inside her tomb
He'll try to hurt her, but she swears
He'll not find her in this room.

She hears his steps they grow in sound
He's almost here outside her door
She takes the razor and cuts a round
And watches blood drops on the floor.

The door is open to her fate
This man no longer has the power
Her heart and soul safe from his rape
Just a shell of her left in this tower.

No longer does she feel the pain
Or hear the screams inside her mind
All is quiet but the red blood rain
That whisks away this little child.

Now she's feeling comfort's warmth
She's safe and free from his reach
As he kicks the lifeless form
With closed eyes, she finally sleeps

yay, it's going to be judged today!! I can barely wait, I'm alomst falling out of my chair of antisipation:P

yay, it's going to be judged today!! I can barely wait, I'm alomst falling out of my chair of antisipation:P

Secrets From My Past
by Lucy

Never wanted you to know
never really trusted you
never thought of telling you
the secrets of my past

never wanted you to know
why every day i have new scars
never trusted you enough
to tell you of my horrid fears
the secrets of my past

but you found out
and laughed out loud
when some one told you
all my inner scars
the secrets of my past

you told me face to face
that you now new
and than laughed at all my pain
the secrets of my past

you asked me why
i never told you
so i laughed straight back at you
and watched you standing. staring
you new the secrets of my past

i asked you back
would you tell me if you wanted to die?
would you tell me that you can't help but cry?
would you tell me that you constantly cut
you watch the blood to focus you're pain?
and would you tell me, the secrets of your past?

see the secrets of my past
still hurt me every day
they never seem to fade away
i feel i should explain

when i was 14
i was raped you see
by a guy, i used to call a friend
i told my sister, she told the cops
they told my parents, the pain never stops!

you see he hit me, to get me down
pillow on my face, to muffle the sound
it felt like forever, until he walked away "That's all you're good for, you ugly *****"

he left me there on my own
my clothes just piled on top of me
than i walked home
pitch black, nothing left
nothing left for me

please keep my secret
my secret from the past
i still can't help but cut myself
don't cry for me now, I'm fading fast!

ok todays is it so i will keep it open a little longer and then it will be closed for judging

I can barely wait, almost falling out of my chair:P again...

cannot wait, this is so exciting!

OK CLOSED FOR NOW IN VOTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok for the first time ever i have a TIE i couldnt choose between them so they both got it....
THE WINNERS ARE:
1st is SARAH WHITE with Upon a lovers ideal
2nd is DARK SUICIDE AND KEVIN KERBZ
3rd is WINGS OF AN ANGEL
4th is TARA-KAY

EXCELLENT CONTEST AND CONGRATS TO THE WINNERS AND ALSO TO THE OTHER CONTESTANTS ALL THE POEMS WERE WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!! PRIZES WILL BE GIVEN WHEN I GIVE THEM CONGRATS AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!!!

Yay! Thank you!

Yeah, I won 3rd:) Tabby, you should open another contest!!

LOL yeah maybe later right now i have to give out the prizes which will be soon i am really busy so you guys will get them as soon as i can.

-Tuns to Kevin and shakes his hand- Good job, mate.

And great job to the rest of you! Thanks for 2nd place!

xDarkSuicidex