eating disorder poems.

this is more of a depression but personally its to do with eating disorders aswel im not sure what you think.....

Take me to a better place,
this life is getting to hard,
this fierce strong feeling has overcome me,
i am living life in the dark.

everything around me,
seems so big and strong,
people are against me,
to this world i don't belong.

mum says I'm suicidal,
and i need some help quick,
but i don't think its really that bad,
when i make myself go sick.

covering shivering darkness,
swallows me up at night,
its laughing at my feeble fear,
leaving me no energy to fight.

days are flying past me,
its as if I'm standing still,
the worlds circling faster and faster,
making me feel really ill.

i stare up at the white ceiling,
as i lay silent in the bath,
i feel that if i should die now,
then it will have the last laugh.

'IT' is a term i use,
for a word i solemnly do fear,
this evil word is depression,
it makes death feel near.

depression is more than a emotion,
it is an evil twisted person,
it bullies people and makes them ill by giving them depression.

Control.
by ŘÅÇĦ♥

She goes another day
without eating
Her parents
just stop telling her
when supper is ready
She's never hungry.
She's starving for control
These silent tears
are falling so loudly.
But again she goes unnoticed
she turns to no one
sometimes telling herself
everything is in her head
all she ever wanted was to be in
control

This might be the girl
you sit right next to in class
the one you make fun of
maybe your best friend.
and you'll never know
the battles within herself..
the cuts aren't from that
"stupid cat"
And all she wanted was
to be in control

Perfection's Only Flaw [Lyrics]

[Verse 1]
Swallow these tears,
that strangle your soul.
You can light the fire
but you'll always be cold.
The day is the night's accomplice,
To make this disaster.
Carve your name into hope
But you'll just die faster.

[Chorus]
Withered skin and starving flesh
The beauty of a wh**e,
Hunger, the control took over
You're Perfection's Only Flaw.

[Verse 2]
The acid fills your mouth,
Spilling through your teeth.
Infected your own life
From what you kept beneath.
Your bones rip through
Your sick, pasty skin.
You wanted control
But you'll never win.

[Chorus]
Withered skin and starving flesh
The beauty of a wh**e,
Hunger, the control took over
You're Perfection's Only Flaw.

[Bridge]
Lost in your lies.
Created your demise.
In beauty's deception,
You've lost perfection.

[Chorus]
Withered skin and starving flesh
The beauty of a wh**e,
Hunger, the control took over
You're Perfection's Only Flaw.

Crime That Should Not Be Committed
by ♥ Jєѕѕу ♥

How can she do this?
Doesn't she understand?
It is killing her body..
And it is destroying her spirit..

If she is feeling sad or angry
She quickly runs upstairs
And dutifully sticks her finger
Down her sore throat..
Vomiting up all her problems
Hoping that this will get rid of them..

Why, oh why does she do this?
It makes me feel so angry
So helpless..
I cannot help her..
For she will not listen to me
She does not seem to understand
She does not seem to care..

I cannot watch her do this to herself..
But I don't know how to stop her..
She knows that it is wrong
But she can just not seem to end it..

As everyday passes by
She loses more and more weight
Her skin, hair, and soul
Lose every goodness within them..
All because of this stupid habit
This crime that should not be committed..

How can she do this?
Doesn't she understand?
It is killing her body..
And it is destroying her spirit..
_______________________

hehe.. i know its not as good, but i hope you like it!

Octoberlifeguard should put up "Skipping a Meal"... that one's a good poem 4 this topic..

I wrote this a while ago. It is one of my old submitted poems called:

Ana told me: If I was a beauty Queen

It seems I have an issue
That stabs me in the back
Your stories: always filled with lies,
And my puzzles; with cracks

The mirror I couldn't avoid
And I screamed at what I've seen
I noticed that why you're not here
Is because I'm not your dream

I did not have that body
That I knew you always craved
Maybe I knew you were leaving
But I admit that I stood brave

And I knew what you were hiding
At a club most every night
Sleeping with perfect glamour wh0res
While I broke down in fright

With tears falling down my ugly face
Yesterday, I looked at magazines
Saw beautiful girls, skinny and all
Their eyes sparkled and gleamed

And there I knew with a frown
What my heart wanted to do
I will change myself in any way
To get you back or impress you

And so I ate but did not settle
Walked straight to my porcelain sink
And everything came out that night
I never stopped to think

One recurring thought challenged my mind
As I fought in labored breaths
Ana forced me to continue on
Its love or then comes death

You left me, it is all so clear
Picture perfect in every way
Maybe if I was a beauty queen
Ana said you would have stayed

Sarah~

Mirror, Mirror

Mirror, mirror speak to me
Bring truth to my lost eyes
Tell me I am not ugly, fat
Help me ignore Ana's lies

"But you are sweetie, look at you
So insecure, ugly...alone
You are foolish if you've ever thought
Life is better on your own"

Ana, I have not any choice
My figure is beyond any repair
Yet I know about all that you do
To follow you I will not dare

"Each day will bring you better proof
As you cry alone in vein
So tell me young girl, tell me
What can you lose in my fun game?
I promise you I'll be your friend
I'll devour every taste
To perfection and to beauty
I will help you in great haste

The vomit will fill up to your lips
All you must do is kneel
Let it all out for indigestion
And great happiness you'll feel
As food comes on your table
Eat a small amount or none
You will be a model, be a star
You will have perfection all will love!

I will be there with you I promise
Every hard step of the way
Beauty is waiting on my side
So come on now, it'll be great!
Oh ugly girl so apprehensive
Please, let me be your friend
I'll comfort you until you think
Your insecurities reached end!"

Mirror, mirror now I see
Who holds the truth and who, the lies
It is Ana who I must believe
My damned soul in disguise

Sarah~

Destiny

I can see now, what's happened to me.
I chose everyone's praise, over my ecstasy.
they all laughed at me, and i could do nothing.
for i was real timid, and as weak as a spring.

i would run home each day, afraid of the bus.
afraid of the torment, from those who are flawless.
and to put myself to sleep, i'd cry ever night.
and I'd lay there and cry, until there was no light.

i can't stand it anymore, the teasing, the pain.
i must make it stop, or no more will i be sain.
i had nothing for dinner, nor lunch the next day.
all i did was drink water, and wash pills my way.

and this i kept up, for a very long time.
hardly ate anything, soon was as thin as a mime.
but i always had headaches, and never could sleep
yet i'd still wash down pills, and i never did weep

i am so weak now, that i can hardly stand.
it's as if, over my body, i have lost command.
but i feel accepted now, so it doesn't matter.
i can remove the pain, with a pill and water.

and with a couple more pills, the day comes closer.
as my unkown destiny aproaches nearer.
and i go lay to rest, with the last pill i take.
for from this fatal sleep, i shall not awake.

Oscar

All For the Sake of a Cataogue

Go ahead,
You skinny catastrophe
Ruin yourself...

Puke your guts up
Please the eyes of a pig
Pour out your heart
And have them eat it -
Up in the media bleachers.

Up in the societical chimera sky.

Diminish.
Die .
Dishearten yourself.

All for the sake of a catalogue.

Another five minute anti-masterpiece. I didn't enjoy it, but I hope you do.

come on people some more i want to find out the results xxx alex xxx

Lol, maybe you should shorten your expectations to about 20?

It doesn't seem that anyone's interested.

To be honest, you're lucky that I entered, for I wouldn't normally have done so.

--Rumor

You'd never know what the words and rumors you speak of will do. Of how you point, laugh and tease, of every ounce of fat I have.

Your words, pull at my thoughts, constantly lingering in my head. How my pants are so loose, and my shirts so baggy, but you never notice.

You laugh and joke, about how I look and the hand me downs I own. About what I do, and how I act, the way my skin is and the color of my hair.

I push myself, to not eat a single crumb of food, nor drink anything but water.Yet I find that's still to much to consume, to place into my widening frame.

It started as a joke, a laugh, a disgusted glare, and a hateful rumor.But now, it's more serious then anyone could have pictured.

By Megan.

can i enter two ?? please ??

whoops just realised you said we can enter two ... sowi

^ Haha!

Wow, how responsive the P&Q community is....

Haha, ripped the words right out of my mouth Jordan. >=/

^
Sorry....that must've been painful. :D

Ripped pages lay scattered on the floor,
pictures of those you wish to be,
a collage of pain, a collage of a war,
and when you look into the mirror, we know what you see.

Models so thin, smiles so fake,
faces so plastic, lives so bleak,
with every camera flash, my heart does ache,
and the truth, no one does speak.

You think that's how you wanna be,
and all of the words are hurting you,
and i just wish that i could make you see,
that letting them get to you, is not the thing to do.

The tears roll down your cheeks in the still of the night,
hugging the porcelain with your finger down your throat,
looking into the mirror, "what a ridiculous sight."
and written to yourself in blood is the note.

'You hurt me once, you hurt me twice,
treated me like dust on an old shelf,
and now, i am paying the price,
and remember; sticks and stones may break my bones..but words might make me starve myself.'

**Kinda sucks but meh i tried lol.**

Perfection is a Diaster

Her eyes are getting baggy
along with her clothes and skin
Her nails are becoming brittle
She thinks this is one big sin

Knowing she needs help
but to afriad to say a word
She always blows it off
with a few made up words

People are starting to notice
Starting to see her ribs
she hides them like she hides
the scars upon her wrists

She knows she can help herself
but many days that is hard
She cant help but think
Where in the world is God?

Food is her worst enermy
Perfection is what she seeks
Life as she knows
has a cost of being thin and weak

Water takes the place of soda
Lettuce takes the place of meat
When she looks in the mirror
She knows she is a mistake

She finally get so weak
She cant even stand up
So she lies in her bed
without a single sound

As she lies there a single tear
rolls
rolls
down

You Need to Eat

Baggy, blood-shot eyes,
Stains from tears cried.
Sore throat, messed up mouth,
But let’s take our gaze south.

Skinny tummy, nothing there,
People always point and stare.
“You need to eat,” they say,
Food goes in, but doesn’t stay.

Goes out with friends, eats a lot,
Comes home, loses all she’s got.
Looking in the mirror, put to shame,
“I’m so fat!” is said, screaming in vain.

Counselors try and help, no avail,
Barred in her prison with no bail.
“You need to eat!” is all that’s heard,
Now can’t stop the mutiny that’s occurred.

Only 98 pounds, but still trying to lose,
Clear to all this girl has issue.
She slits her wrists and writes a note,
Dies right there next to her final quote:

“Here I am, no longer for you to see,
‘You need to eat’ 4 words that describe me.
I’m sick of you all, caring too much,
Now you’ll never again feel my soft touch”

~*Who Cares?*~
Hope this is ok..

when are the answers going to be posted?

[edit]

Perfectionism

You know I can't be everything you want
I know you hate when I make a mistake
But through my crimson colored glass
I will never be perfect for your sake

Yet For years I try so hard to gain your smile
but in the end, my efforts strike me back
Rivers of tears have been shed for you
Cause you said it was intelligence I lack

Once I tried to be in the perfect body
starving myself to look "good" in your eyes
But instead I became an extreme anorexic
Lying on the hospital bed, wishing to die

Chopsticks became my name
Bones popping here and there
Barely able to lift a thing
But like you, you didn't care

Watching models strut around
Tight stomaches, perfect look
Long legs, dashing charm
Stop eating, that's all it took

Eyes too glossy and dark
Energy worn away
Staring now at my face
Still pouting in dismay

"You" Was actually myself
Obsessed with high fashion
Though I tried to change again
I hated food with passion

:D tomorrow is the end of august. EEK! my best friends bday too..haha:D

You didn't hug me,
So I ate chocolate.

You didn't kiss me,
So I ate cake.

You didn't love me,
So I ate ice-cream.

You didn't look at me,
So I ate the whole packet
Of cookies.
I wasn't hungry.
I ate them anyway.

I couldn't cry,
So I ordered a pizza,
Sat down to eat my pain
Away.
Never has worked,
Never will,
Still,
I eat my worries away.

//T.L.//

*waits*lol

hmm i wonder...

It says August 4th, so i'm assuming tomorrow.

We're in September... a month is enough.. no?

//T.L.//

Haha oh yeah! Oh wow, i thought it said September fourth since it's September. I dunno, maybe they're busy.

Sweet. Thanks Breanna.

-Rachel

Yay, i see my name up there! Lol. =D

oh well. congrats 2 the winners

Yay, thanks B!

:)

I don't win ANY contests, so I appreciate it. Lol.

Yay, I just checked this today...Kinda forgot about. Heh, I feel happy. =)