Nobody ever understands why I do things...

i cut and drink a lot. occasionally i'll do some drugs if i'm really feeling depressed. nobody knows about my past because i can't tell them...they wouldn't get it anyways, but when people find out stuff about me they just criticize me, they dont even TRY to understand me. i've been to hospitals before but its never done me any good. people find things out because i'm athletic. i play sports, soccer all year round and basketball and track. its hard to hide the cuts with all the sports. i try to stop cutting but its just so hard because it's such a bad addiction and it helps me get through things. i just wish my friends would try to understand me. everyone gives up on me too easily and i dont konw what to do anymore! someone please help!

SOMEONE PLEEEEEEASE HELP MEE!!!

Are you sure you want to let people in, and let them understand you?

You didn't even give us your reasons for cutting/drinking/smoking. If you were afraid it'd be to long, you should see my post some where around here, I typed it up and it was three pages on word font size 12 before and then I added more to it before I posted...

So, do you want anyone to really understand you?

hey! seein as i dnt no y its hard 2 help. its useless sayin just stop-because its near impossible-ive tried n i cnt. u hav 2 WANT 2 stop. which u do...so try doin things which don't leave scars-like putting ice on ur skin-hurts-doesnt leave a scar. try screaming in a pillow, biting hard on fabric, write down ur feelings. also if u wanna hurt urself try flickin elastic bands on ur wrist, hurts (not as much-but still) n leaves a purple mark wwich fades. hope i helped!
lizzie
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well my mom died, i watched her, my dad raped me when i was 3, i also got raped when i was 14 by these guys...one of them was my friends brother. i always get flashbacks of all of that. i hate it. my dad comes home drunk all the time and he's a druggy. my dad also hits me. not all the time, just occasionally. i fear losing the people close to me because my grandfather, uncle, and 2 of my friends aslo died. lets not even get started with my brother...he's just so mean to me. he makes fun of me and makes me feel soo bad about myself to the point where i feel like i dont belong in this world and i want to commit suicide. other times, i just get depressed. i dont konw why, i just feel like crapp. i dont know why i'm even still here..

OMG sweetie, you only 15 and been through hell and back. Is there no one you can turn to who can help you?? Have you tried a counselor or Social Services. There must be someone who can help you!! Go to the police if you have to! Have you told anyone that your dad raped you?? How about those boys?? You need to talk to someone about this. You can't go on like this, it will eventually ruin your life!

dammit angelina... why is it you always beat me to a post..? with everything i wanna say..? hmm... now i have to think of something else to say..
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okay what you should do, is slap your father, slap your friend's brother, look in the mirror and slap yourself. no seriously, what you're doing is stupid [not you, angelina] and you need to get a grip on yourself. don't say all those other things that other people say like... you don't know what i've gone through! or you don't understand!.. cuz that's BS. ^_^ seriously, drinking won't help, since the problems come back anyways after you're drunk... which makes you want to drink more.. eventually causing worse health problems. the cutting... you COULD get tetanus... haha seriously.. and all those other things that disgust me. you don't disgust me though, just take your pain out on something else.. sports is enough, isn't it?? if not, write it out. goodness...

"Nobody will understand anyway"

Have you ever tried? You're doing stupid things to take away temporary problems that you can get over in the long run. What is a scar on your arm doing for you? Nothing.

well find someone tht is close to you then let them in and tell them tht u need to stop all theese things.....