My dad is dead. and my mom thinks i'm physco.

Well my parents split in 1998. And my mom met my step father. 1999 my little sister was born. My dad was an alchoholic and had bi-polar, which my brother,16, also inherited. My dad lost visitation of my brother and i around 2002. But in Febuary 2005 my mom started letting my brother and i visit him on sundays because he was sober and was gaining control of his life. He lived just a few streets away. But April 2 2005 he didnt pick my brother and i up. We were supposed 2 go 2 an amusement park because it was his birthday. 10a.m. was wen we were supposed 2 leave. About 6p.m. my mom, step dad, and sister came home. My mom was pissed and called my dad. No answer. The next day my mom called him and he said he couldnt pick us up because the "pope died" on his birthday. lol! so we no longer spoke to him or visited him. Then MARCH 6 2006, almost a year later, at 8p..m the phone rang. it was my uncle, my dads brother. He had horrible news. my dad was found dead, inside his car in his garage. SUICIDE. i was horrified. That friday my brother, 15 and i, 13 were to burry our father. I was screwed up. 2weeks later i was in the hospital for dehydration and lack of sleep. anyways....5months later....i stay in my room all day. and eat at night. i try and stay out of everyones way. and yesterday i was just having a bad day. so my mom thinks i am physco and wants 2 take me to a mental doctor to see if i am deaply depressed. and truthfully i think i am, but i dont want everyone to know. i just don't know what to do anymore. i cant stand life. and i no longer have any friends on the street because they all turned on me, for a reason i am unaware of. i am sick of the life i live and the people i know. and i just dont know what to do...i'm only 14 and i've been thru so much..

That's tough .. I don't really know where to start with saying something responsive because I can't possibly know how it feels ... but .. I just hope things improve for you!

that is pretty tough, like already said..I dont know how you feel but your not alone my good friend Tres, her father commited suicide and also was a acholic. the difference is she found his body after school. She had alot of people there for her and got help but she still felt like the only one going through it. She got help, I think it was the best thing for her to do, her brother also went with her because as much as he hid the fact he was sad and didnt have the guts to tell anyone he needed help. Well if you want to talk Im a good listener and just PM me through the site if you need anything kay?

Julie ♥

Well.. My Father's not dead, nor is my Mother. They spilt up November of 2005 and got back together around my Birthdya of 2006. It's alright now I guess. But when it happend, I being an already shy child, became more anti-social and didn't even leave my room beside to go to the restroom or get food.. And when I had to cook and clean and get things for my Father. I felt like a Slave.. for nearly 4 months.. I cooked cleaned and did everything and ADULT or the ADULT should be doing not me.. Anyway. I don't have and friends in real either, mine ditched me after my Father pulled me out of Public school. I guess they thought they where to go for me or something.

And I can't say I'm in a worse situation cause obviously I'm not. I mean I have both my parents, and I am greatful. I'm really sorry that, that happened to you. And what you are going through. I'm usre your mother isn't trying to be rude and stuff. Maybe she doesn't know any other way to help you. Just like my parents don't know how to help me which relates to them calling me a freak or, other hurtful names. I usually shrug it off..

But honestly, maybe you should see or get help.. Your mother loves you and is only trying to do what she knows is best. Anyway. I hope everything works out.

Yeah you sound like you're depressed. should go to a doctor. get on some kind of medication maybe. therapy definitely. but medication always helped me more. anyway, um, that's rough. I have a friend who's going through the same kind of thing.

your friends haven't abandoned you. more likely they don't notice your pain because they're too busy dealing with their own.

ok ...............my PU's aint dead..............but they might as well be...............and havin depression aint all that bad..............but if they put u in the behavoral health make sure they dont put u in a long time program...............i live with my grands caz my PU's never cared for me...........and as for ur friends let them be if they are ur real friends they will help u through ur pain........... or they dont understand...............i dk know wad to tell u.......... so........ i think u should see where ur life is going................i was 14 last year and by that time i was defently goin through alot........ but i decide that i was the only one who can help me

i hoped that help if not i am srry

~~~~~~~~angel

when i read that story it makes my cry

my father was also dead but he left us when im just 4 month old i can see his face and i dont know what he looks like yeah im also tired of living this lies
my mother tried to give all his best support for us for us to not remember my father and he always ask me if i miss his i just said no yeah no really coz i didnt saw him ever so why do i miss him.

there are so many times when i saw other child with their father and how i wish isee my father also even though he was already dead the hard thing of it was im the only one who didnt know my father and i didnt feel his love and care for me

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Honestly i woudn't take it that bad. Doctors aren't that bad unless you look at it that way. There jsut someone to talk too. And i wouldn't really call them a mental doctor lol. THere jsut a therapist or something. And most of 'em are ok. Some aren't but alot are. And if the one you see you don't conect with jsut tell your mom you'd rather see another. Trust me from wut I've learned. Therapists don't make much money... Phcyatrist do.. the ones who give you meds... But if your willing to not make much money and just help kids... You really just wanna help people. I've been there and been afraid to get help. I've hated therapist and Phsciatrist but somettimes you jsut have to deal, and learn to help yourself even if you wish you could do it in a different way,

~peace~ and best of luk to you

Your not a pyscho hun, it's depression and it's totally understandable after what you've been through.
Just remember your not alone with this depression, lots of people have it and manage to live normal lives. I'm one of them =)
I'm truely sorry for your loss and i wish i had the words to make you feel better.
All i can tell you is time will heal the pain and you have people on this site which are thinking of you.
*Gem* xxx

Jenna:

I know you think that just because there is no one for you, it means you should waste your life. I believe that you are strong, if you have all this bad energy coming at you, and you let it wash over you rather than trouble you.

oh gosh.. all i can say is try to stay positive.

my best wishes.

you should talk to your mom about how you are feeling, or record a journal about it just to tell somone will help, also if you are depressed you should talk to your mom beacause depression is really bad if it takes hold of you.

feel better
xoxo
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