I jus need someone to talk to!!!!

Why does it seem like everything in my life is jus goin down the damn hole right now.....
shyts gettin hella hard for me...
bein a single mom and goin to school full time..is fuckin hard...
than im havin problems wit ma baby daddy now...
i have a feeling we bout to hate the fuck out of eachother..
are friendship is down to almost nothing...
im sick of all the shyt!!!!
and for some reason i feel like im not doin to well wit ma self...
i been feelin really sick lately...
havin really bad pains and shyt...
i don kno if its from stress or wa..
but i don kno...
i jus keep tellin myself.. i can do it.. im stronger than this..
that i gotta do it for my son!
but lately....shyts been gettin to me more..
lifes gettin so much harder....
i been non stop crying lately.... my son starts crying and i don even kno why hes crying....
he jus got shots yesterday...and has the flu now.. so now hes not only teethin but sick now too!!
iv been gettin NO sleep wat so ever..
than i got to get up for school hella early...and go back and fourth with hella shyt everyday.. jus to get to school and back..
i havent had a baby sitter but maybe twice since hes been born..
i dont get breaks....
i have no help.... it seems like nobody jus doesn wanna help me..
but all this HAS to be for a reason.. it jus has to be...
im a good person....i do everything and anything for my son.. NO matter wat...hes alwayz came first....
ima good friend.... for the most part...
iv done nothing but be there for people wen they need me....
and on top of all this.. my momz.. not doin good at all...
she tellz me so much that shes {dying} inside... like i really wanna hear that..
damn man.. thatz the last damn thing i wanna hear..!!
i lost one that i loved.... very much.... he meant so much to me.. but he moved on...im SOOO happy for him.. to be happy ya.. wheather everybody wants to believe that or not....
but the problem was..is i fell to hard..... but FINALLY that wound is healing....!! slowly.. it took awhile... but its better...
ALL THIS... man i don kno wat i did to deserve all of it..
i jus hope it means that one day somethin real good will happen to me...
somethin i would never imagine.....
ill find that one..that i can spend the rest of my life with.. that will exept my son... and ill be going to college....and my momma will be alright.. and i jus wont have to stress bout everything and anything...
God knows i pray.. God knows i deserve better... but God doesnt put us through NOTHING we cant handle..
CUZ WAT DOESN KILL YOU... CAN ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER....!!
RIGHT?!?!

I'm afraid that is the life with a child. You should expect to find him crying all night. It's what babies do.
Stop worrying about finding a guy and finish school.

I agree.

U r very brave and strong to be a single mother at 18. Im sure u can get help and stuff for that tho. Good luck x

Hey, it's great that you still have a spark of hope! That's very good. It means that you will fall, and feel bad, but when you're ready you will grasp that hope and climb back up out of your pit of despair.
Babies sometimes cry for no reason, and especially when they are teething.
I think that perhaps you should stop worrying about the whole guy thing... I do, and, well, at the end, I shouldn't. I have too many other better things to do than wait around for Mr. Perfect.
Take care, and I'm glad that you vented.

//T.L.//