An attempt of suicide

I have tried it, killing myself, but I find it hard to get the blade deep enough instead it brushes me skin... I wish to die I really do so does it make me a chicken?Not being able to use the knife?
Help me

To Broken Reflection...please don't do that.If you need to talk to someone...I have been down the same road you have and I would love to talk to you.I may not have all the words you need but I do know what it is like to want to die.But please stay here...for the ones that love you...that's me...and I don't even know you.

my email is luvU4alwayz@hotmail.com

Use something sharper. I really have no sympathy for people who "attempt to commit suicide". It's weak.

ok.. I think just because you don't wont to live, because it's seems life's not worth the pain or whatever, that doesn't neccasserily meen you want to die, or at least kill yourself. Even if you do really think you can't go on subconciously something's stopping you. Also, I think, even though you think you would be better off dead you are scared of death, and the pain of suicide and the knife ect... and the only way I can see people can rightfully say the are going to comit suicide is if the pain they are going through living is so great that they are not scared in the least of death and think and phisical pain is worth the emotional pain they are in. If you are posting a comment like that on this website you obviously are questioning it and therefore not in that situation. My advice??? Talk to one friend you can trust (over msn or writing down what you want to say is genrally easier) and try and get it sorted. if it's something you can't stop try and get through it, one day it will get better.

please don't commit suicide. There are plenty of people who would love to be in your shoes and just have another chance of living. Think twice.

haha knives suck. they won't get anywhere unless you push hard enough... razors, cutters... those are sharper. better. do it if you want. i dare you.. cuz you know it's stupid if you do. i'd just like to see how stupid you feel after everything you thought would bring the end of the world ends up just blowing over.. stupid..

Darkness, that was a tad un necessary. If she is on the brink, don't push her closer to destruction. And yes, most will argue with me and say if she's talking bout it she must wanna do it. But don't. Hunn, find something else. Don't cut, don't think to kill yourself, you will regret it someday...

thx to evry1 who is trying to help... its nice to see that there is decency out there. I am trying you know I've lasted the past 15 years whats another two gonna do... and yes sharper blades do work beta but I am slowly learning how to deal with it...
Finding things to do away from home is my cure
xoxoxoxo thanku to those who care for those who have not even met, broken_reflection, slowly seeing the better side

No matter how hard your life may get, you should never try to give it up. Everyone has there time to go, and it's not through suicide. Obviously if you were meant to die, it would have happened. You have so many years left ahead of you. Don't give up so quickly on life. I'm not going to criticize, but i am going to say that the choices we make in life are important. You reallly need to think long and hard about the life you have, and people who care about you. Would you really leave that behind because of the problems you face? Everyone faces problems in life. Nobody has a "perfect life". There are several people who have it 10 times harder than you, who aren't trying to commit suicide. Be grateful for the life you have. If you need to talk, email me. punksunite24@yahoo.com
I know what you're going through. I went through it myself two years ago.

"I wish to die I really do so"

You really dont seem to.

1. If you were actually trying to kill yourself, I'm sure you would have "got the blade in deep enough" and it wouldn't just "brush your skin".

2. Even if you failed to "get the blade in deep enough", there are plenty of other ways to commit suicide - not that I'm trying to give you ideas.

3. And lastly you wouldnt be sitting here talking to us lot about it, you'd be out there doing it.

Sorry to be blunt, but your post leaves me of any sympathy I might have had for you if you had simply said you were feeling suicidal instead of going into all that rubbish. You're just going through a phase.

Don't wish to die. really. you may feel alone right now, but 2 of my friends killed themselves this summer

Ok to the original poster and to all others out there TALKING about committing suicide: those who talk about dont do it! People who really wanna commit sucide just hide in their own hole and when they think the time is right to leave their problems behind then they will do it without telling anyone. They just hide away by themselves and slowly self destruct. Then when they can't self destruct any more they just leave!
Not saying this to the original poster or anything buht most people that talk about it are just attention seekers!

yeaaa...i agree with most people on here if u wanted to do it bad enough it wouldnt just brush ur skin...i cut and ive used metal ends of pencils and did more than brush the skin...and suicide is the most selfish thing some one can do... u leave ur whole family and ur friends to pick up the pieces u left

Alicia

ur not a chiken i picked up a pair of scisors last night and held it accross my skin but i cannot actually cut myself. look i wish 2 die 2 so mayb u can send me a PM and we can talk mayb we have the same problems

I AINT I SAID MAYB WE CAN TALK AND SORT IT OUT I WOULD NEVA ENCOURAGE SUM1 2 KILL THEMSELVES

thanku those who r blunt, and those who r helpin me... i am glad that u post back but to those unsure i am NOT advertising my suicide i am advertising my soul... something that should be valued but isn't, i write things on :discussion boards: and such because its easier to talk people i don't know... I don't hav to face them today or tomorow, im sorry if anybody has got any wrong ideas and i forgive you, don't forgive me

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Broken

Your selfish and gutless.

You may not give a crap about yourself - fine who cares? Your family, friends and loved ones do - its them your hurting the most - how could you?

And what about all those sick children and people in hospital beds, bedridden and plagued by illness holding onto to each and every last breath - each single tiny ray of hope, of light, of life that never get the chance to see tomorrow? Your stealing from people like who don't have the choice...

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem Broken...for real, you have one life make the most of it, if you dont love yourself - LEARN TO

when i feel so down i was thinking about suicide but im scared to do that,,, and i think what be gonna happen to me if i will kill my self this is a very big mistake and this is not the best way to solve our problems...

pls dont think about suicide if u are feel depressed this is not good. ok thanks

It is harder to live than to die but life can be its own reward.

no it shows that thats not for you too do

First off, some people here are too fast to judge...who is anyone to say what the easy way out is...Every situation is different!

Are your problems to the point where you don't think you can work them out? I don't think negatively of people who have committed or attempted suicide, but I do feel as though it's a mistake and the situation could've been handled differently. Don't think you're chicken because you can't kill yourself!! Come onnn!! Obviously, you know better than to end your life if you can't do it...If you need to talk...you can email me anytime you would like...

juliealeksanyan@hotmail.com

Keep your head up! This too shall pass...

I have been talking to people, but some things I feel to selfish to discuss... I don't like talking about myself beacause it seems like I have a big ego.
So instead I pretend to be happy around my friends so they don't worry and the same with my family.

That does not seem to help.

I'm sure that your friends and family would rather worry, and at least be given the chance to try and help, than suddenly wake up and find you gone.

That would be selfish.

Kalika

The way I see is they'd be better off without me, that's not selfish... I am thinking for them.

Wrong,

Guilt will play a role in your death if you committed suicide. Think about it.

How would your family feel if you committed suicide? They would probably be in shock and could never forgive themselves. You are not thinking FOR them, because you are not them.

My family would be better off without me, I know they are happier when I am gone so...
And my friends will part their sperate ways in a few years and forget about eachother

Why do you believe this?

Kalika

attention seeker

True that tear stained angel...

Life is pain so why attempt to live or love. why even go one. i mean yesterday i stoped my b/f from killing himself and today i just cut myself and now i feel like an idiot. so why do we go back?

I was once told that if I were to commit suicide, I would have to come back and live the same life over and over again until I got it right.. That kind of put me off.. Although I attempted in the past, I am so glad now that it didn't work.. I would have gone never having felt the happiness that is with me now, nor would I be seeing my children grow into fine young teeneagers, if I had succeeded they would probably have went through even more trauma than I did, and so would my family and friends.. just as Yours would if You were to succeed.. You really never know when things will get better, it might just be round the corner, but it will happen.. Even if it is just the fact that You realise You are here in it for the long haul, so start to try and make the best of a bad situation..

i've been there. if she was going to commit suicide, she'd have done it, she wouldn't be writing about whether or not to do it. read my poetry its all about SUICIDE. i've been put in treatment just because of my poems. but i realised i thought i would do it, but really i wouldnt do it because if i was going to do it, i'd have done it and not wasted my time writing 200 poems about doing it.

don't think of it like that, i do not promote suicide or anything, but please just talk to some one you trust and get it sorted out that is the best way to fix the entire situation, it takes alot of guts to ask for help focus on your dreams and goals in life, create something to hold onto no matter what. Also the way people here are just trashing some one for admiting something which is hard to say don't make people feel worse than they already do have a heart for this ok it is a hard subject to approach.

Lifei s beautiful... Life is so friggen Beautiful!!!! ... i dk... why don't u see that? i no ididn't see it in the past... but y can't u? i no thats a dum question.... please stare out side a minute... wut do u see... Is it raining.. i love rain... cuz i can dance in it... and wen it's nite time... i can run in it... I love sun cuz it warms my body wen I'm cold... I love snow... because It's a way to put an angel on the earth...

Look outside your window and tell me wut you see??? Is it beautiful? Because It's beautiful to me...

Maybe life sux rite now.. But I'm sure Your young... I'm sure you have time to make up for this "sukyness." minus your years of life... by 80 (the average life spane) thats how long you ahve to be happy... TO go sky diving.. and dancing inthe rain...And mountain climbing... and go to Europe... and Asia... ANd travel the whole friggen world!... you ahve time... Your lfie sux... Your house mite suk... But life isn't in your house... Life is everything you touch.... SO touch it with Beauty...

~peace~... and i really hope you live happily... Because I no I'm going to...

Why frown when you can smile? Why Cry when yo u can laugh?

She is not an attention seeker, and if that's what you think she is, then don't post in here giving her attention, it's that simple. And Angelina, "stoopid" = "stupid". And she is not narrow minded either, she is simply going through a rough time in her life right now and none of us are helping her like we should. I agree with her, it is easier to talk to people that you don't know because you won't have to deal with the pressure and jokes afterwards. This discussion isn't going to help her any if all you do is judge her. If you were in the same situation that she is in right now, how would you feel about what you guys are posting? And if you have been in this situation she is in right now, you would understand, hence why I understand what it is like to be there, and have to deal with judgemental people like most of you. And if you haven't been there, then don't judge!

I know a few people who have commited suicide before, they did the same thing, they reached out for help any way that they could. And people did this, they called them stupid and gave them tips on how to do it, thinking it was some kind of joke and laughing away at other people's pain. Some were friends and they just simply didn't "have the time" to talk to them about their problems, next day he was found with a bullet in his brain. So think before you speak, and put yourself in their situation before you judge.

This is not a joke, and it is not to be fooled around with. Life is fragile, and that goes to the original poster too. You were given the gift of life, now live it! Pain is so temporary, it comes on and off, but if God didn't think we could deal with it, he wouldn't stop us from killing ourselves or getting killed. I hope you can find some glimpse of hope to keep hanging on. And if you ever need someone to talk to, my email address is sun.shiine-@hotmail.com . I have helped many people get out of this before, and I hope I can help one more.

-Jenna.

I was just going to send that link as well.

And for all others who m ay be clicking on this discussion maybe hoping to find some hope as is the original poster, but only finding what I don't even wish to think about what has been said in here, go there. It has helped me. It has helped Dougy, and only God knows who it could help next. And if it doesn't help you at first read, read it a few more. I think between the course of 3 years, I read that at least 150 times.

-Jenna.

To broken reflection,

The fact that you're posting on here and struggling to do it is a good thing, keep that in mind, it means that there is some doubt in your head. Something there is willing you to stay alive, deep down.

I've been there, it's a scary place but you can ge out if it, you can.

There's a difference in wanting to die and not wanting to live anymore.

The reason you can't cope anymore is because the pain outweighs your coping strategies. If you can increase your coping strategies you can get though the pain.

Please don't do anything you can't mend, this is a choice you can't undo if you go through with it.

Em@il me if you want to talk more:
buckfunny86@yahoo.co.uk

Hope you manage to get through this.

Broken we haven't heard from you in a while since this thread was posted...did you get the blade deep enough - is that why?