ANYONE HERE ANOREXIC???

........I ADMIT I'M BECOMING ONE...MY LIFE JUST SUCKS EVERYWHERE I LOOK THERE IS ONE OF THOSE PRETTY THIN GIRLS...AND THEN I LOOK AT MYSELF AND SEE A BIG FAT BLOB OF FAT...I HATE MYSELF...IMAGINE LIVING YOUR WHOLE LIFE IN A BODY LIKE MINE'S.....

every time I look at paper-thin waifs, I get this weird feeling... all those super-thin girls are nervous, weak wrecks. I will be honest, at times, I want to be thin too... But if I spent my whole life obsessing about food, I couldn't concentrate on my self-defense classes, my dancing, my pets, my dear friends... I love those things more than I love myself.

//T.L.//

girl, how much do you weigh? im going to be blunt about it, and this is the way anyone can ever make someone NOT feel fat...

im 13 and i weigh 158.

i should be 30 pounds skinnier. happy?

:) but i dont feel bad about it... i actually lost weight without becoming anorexic... i used to weigh 170 - i just ate healthy! u should try it...

Well, I am not. Everyone calls me Ana though. My friends and family. Because they never see me eat. And I am a recovering Bulimic. So it is hard for me to eat and not throw up. Even thinking about some foods makes me sick and ruins my entire appetite. I was 12 and 230 pounds. By 13, I went up to 236 pounds. Then, I started to realize, it was time to do something. I'm very active, and I mean it. I'm in pretty much all of the sports teams at school, all the ones I can, I walk lots, I eat healthy, and I exercise.

I went down to around 195 by the time I was 14-15 from all of those. After that, it was taking to long to lose it is what my mind was telling me. So I turned to bulimia (Which took me down to 140 pounds, my current weight, which isn't very noticeable because of the way I had went about losing it. It does nothing but ruin all your work; seriously). A very horrible bulimia. I couldn't stop, even when I wouldn't be eating, I would be walking the dog or something, I would start to feel so fat, I would stop, lean over, and force myself to puke. These eating disorders are hard. And I don't eat as often as I should. But I still eat, it is hard for me to eat. And I push myself to eat way more than I should.

I am sorry for the rambling session, but I hope that I was of at least some help to you. If you ever need any help, or you just need someone to talk to, email me. ( Sun.shiine-@hotmail.com ). I will be glad to talk to you, help you, and get to know you better. I have been there, in a different way, but to the same low as you are at now.

-Jenna.

I too have suffered with both Anorexia and Bulimia for as long as can remember and its a hard habit to break - but realise its for the best.

I knoww its a struggle in todays society to keep up with there definition of beauty and style but being rake thin, and flawlessly gorgeous. But in reality hun, there is so much editing and work done on those pics you see in magazines that it wouldnt suprise me if the models didnt recognise themselves! A quote I find hopeful and helpful when I feel down about my appearance is "To dream of the person you would like to be, is wasting the beautiful person you are"

Your special and gorgeous in your own way, dont let anybody tell you any different. Live a healthy lifestyle, eat well exercise and be happy and your beauty will radiate and touch everyone regardless.

i have no idea what its like to be fat. i've been skinny all my life and i eat mcdonalds everyday. one thing i do know is that, if you are becoming anorexic, there is one thing to stop you from continuing your destructive ways. and its a book. i cannot remember the author but its called 'Life in the Fat Lane' and it stopped me from being anorexic. theres another book called 'even if it kills me' but it didnt help me as much. im 15 and i weigh 107.

It's not something that should be announced, but i can understand what you're going through. My mom, and doctor are considering having me hospitalized..and it sucks, and i don't understand why. I never tell my friends about it because i don't think they would understand. We used to look at people who were too thin, and say they were anorexic. Now i never say it because i've learned a lot about it, and what the symptoms are, and what some causes are.

heyy

i was bulimic (still am) and trust me hun you never want to go down the lane yor about to start walking on
its so hard to break those habits once you've dont them and it ruins your life. when i was 11 i was anorexic and was actually also called ana! its not fun to have people think your fat but trust me, it feels even worse for them to know you have a problem like that! so dont become anorexic, or anything else having to do with eating disorders. just exercise and eat healthy girl. im 14 and way 107 because i am a athlete and eat healthy. now you dont have to become a athlete but just running is great. and even though you can eat mc.donalds and everything try to eat a sald there instead!

lyl

jinx

Looks aren't everything...whats wrong with young girls now a days wanting to be thin and look like models?? First off, those girls who look so beautiful on the magazine covers...a lot of that is air brush! If you had someone assisting your needs 24/7...hair...make-up..etc...you would probably look just as fine...

If you want to be thin for health reasons...more power to you...but if you want to be thin just so you can feel pretty...then you should start fixing what's going on inside of you before you get to the outside....

I'm 21, 5'6 & I weigh 115 lbs...I try to eat healthy and do some exercise once in awhile, but mostly I eat whenever I want and whatever I want...You don't need to throw up or not eat to have a nice body....What's the point of having a nice body if you're going to get it by throwing up and starving yourself??? It's not healthy girls, you guys are slowly killing yourselves...

Uh, I have a question... what does lbs stand for ... like, how much is that in, say, kilos?

//T.L.//

I am almost 15 years old.
I suppose theres a mad crazy part of me that is anoerexic/bulimic(it's not frequent).
Sometimes I'll pig out and feel so disgusted with myself that I won't eat till the next day or just sick it up. My friends have begun to twig but my family are none the wiser

I weigh 107 pounds (^that's 48 kilos and 7.56 stone)

i am anorexic kinda sorta... and yeah it sux so really dont do it.. i mean when i do eat more i feeel so fatt and i jus wana throw up wut i ate.. ne ways jus dont do it.. its an awful road to go down and u will regret it no joke.. im 15 5'9" and i weigh around 120 which im underweight but sitll feel fat.. jus eat healthy and exercise.. please odnt do sumthin u will regret.. its not funn .. i hope i helpd in some way

OMG i am going through that
okay this is what i mean
I don't want to be anorexic but i kinda haven't been eating
I have lost 6 pounds in the last 2 weeks i know that isn't as bad as it could be but it still is bad
anyway
people deal with stress differently
well i deal by not eating i don't try not to eat but stress gets my stomach in nots and i can't eat i have aklot of stress in my life
from my friends
family
and now i have a drama including my ex and i don't know what to do about it
well i gotta go but just telling you i am anorexic kinda
i really have to disagree with not telling your friends i told three people and they have stuck by my side and tryed to make me eat

I haven't been eating properly recently, and when i do eat i make myself throw up. I'm not proud of it, it's something i use as a coping mechanism for the other things going wrong in my life, because even though i can't control those i can control this. But i'm not naive and stupid enough to believe it is doing me any favours, i know that it isn't. A friend walked in on me making myself throw up last night, she wasn't to happy and now we aren't talking.
My advice is to eat healthly, excercise five times a week for around 30 minutes to an hour each time and you'll be fine.
That's what i intend to sart doing anyway.
I wont let this ruin my life, and no one else should either.

hey, here's something i wrote once, read it before you make any kind of decision:

I am sick. I know that. But this sickness really isn't different from any other illness. No one with cancer or the flu says, "Hmm, I COULD get better, but, nah, I like cancer/flu too much". I wish I was normal. I wish I could eat like other people. But, surrounded by chaos, all I have is this. I can't rely on people, people change, people move, people lie. I can't rely on family or friends, they're people. I can't rely on myself, either. But I know I can always rely on my Eddie. I know that she's always there. I can rely on that. Even if they force feed me, I know that inside, I could, by myself, not eat.

I don't know. It's fucked up. I'm fucked up.

My mother thinks it's all because of a boyfriend I had, or because I may have been molested as a kid, or anything but herself and her Chloe. Everyone blames everyone else, but not me. I'm not blamed. They think I'm too "fragile" to have guilt. But I know it's my fault. Others survive all sorts of things and don't want to weigh 90 pounds. Other people can eat a sandwich and not get sick. But I'm just fucked up.

I remember always having problems with eating and my body. I didn't act on it 'til the middle of 6th grade, when I hit puberty. I grew curves and my drastically thin child body turned into a young woman's body with breasts and a big ass. I thought that I was horribly fat. Fuck . . . I was fat. I am fat. I got down to 87 pounds near the end of the school year, and I stopped doing my homework. Just sat in class and drew stick figures. What I wanted to be.

I then got shipped off to the hospital. Supposedly, I got better, they force fed me through kind of a tube shoved down my throat. It was painful as hell. I don't want to go to the hospital again. But I don't want to weigh this much. I want to be little and tiny. I just want to disappear.

I write this because I know someone will stumble across all this stuff out there and think of Ana and Mia and Eddies as "diets". No. Go to Weight Watchers. This isn't a diet. This is life. This is being sick until you die. Slow suicide.

To mari: I know how you feel, I want to loose weight but I could never sacrifice FOOD... I blame the way I look on many thing's and I find it hard to look in a mirror, my butt is the size of an elephant's :P but then I just tell myself to just be healthy on the inside, rather than waste away as a stick! I hope this will just be a faze for you, remember stick-like girls aren't human, and they could never enjoy life as much as you could!!!! *hugs*

Stick-like girls are human. All of us are human. They just have problems, as does everyone.

-Jenna.

I get called that all the time because i never seem to eat in front of people and the only reason i'm an okay shape is cos i burn off a lot of energey with all the running around i do.
But no one is ever happy with how they look.
I always think girls are way prettier than me, it's just self esteem.
I've grown more confident with myself and my body now since i started college last year simply cos i stopped caring how people saw me. I think the 'pretty' girls had way more problems in life than me =)
Anerexia is hard to deal with alone. So talk to people.
Good luck hun