I Wish...I Had...

You Guys... I Need...Help...I Don't Know What To Do... The Guy I Like...I Thought He Liked Me Backed...Has Been Ignoring Me Latley..Now That He Has A Girlfriend...Ummm And My Friend... I Don't Know If Anyone Remember's This But Derek Johnson...Died..In May And I Miss Him Terribly...They Had A Concert At My School Last Night For Him...But I Didn't Go Because I Didn't Think I Could Take...It And Now I'm Regretting Not Going...They Had A Slideshow Of Him And Tons OF Sad Songs...For Him..It's Not That I Didn't Want To Go It's Just That I Didn't Think I Could Handle It Considering He Was My Boyfriend At One Point...And I Kinda Still Loved...Him...And We Were Best Friends Other Wise....Ugh...I Miss Him So Much...And I Should've Went...I Should've And They Are Going To Seel The Dvd's Of Last Night Show And Of Course I'm Gonna Get One Because...You Know I Want To See How It Was....And Then Tomorrow Is His Birthday...Tomorrow He Was Suppose To Turn 17...Ugh..I Miss Him So Much...And I Still Haven't Got The Courage To Go To His Grave Yet...I'm Such A Loser...I Don't Know What To Do...I Find Myself Crying A Lot About Him...Ugh...How Can I Try To Get Rid Of Thinking About Him All The Time? Or Excepting That He's Dead...Or Something...Because It's Making Me Depressed...All The Time....
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Steph

Oh Hunny!!I'm soooo sorry!! That is sooo sad! I know it's hard for you to deal with. Don't think of yourself as a loser, because you aren't. Everyone deals with losses differently. You will go to his grave when you feel that you can come to terms with his death. I hope that you can learn to love again... I'm soo sorry hun!
with love, hugs, *&&* smiles...
CiaO*ღ

Thanks...And Yea...It's Very Hard To Deal With The Loss Of Him...But Idk...Thanks Very Much..
And No It's Not Hard To Type Like This...It's Kinda Of A Habit...lol
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Steph

Thanks..That Helped...Ya They Are Giving Away Dvd's Of A Slideshow Of Him From When He Was Born Till He Died...And I'm Getting One There's No Doubt About It No Matter...How Hard It's Going To Be To See Him On T.v Like That...Then I Was Going To See His Grave Tomorrow With A Friend For The First Time Since May....But I Don't Think I Can/Have The Time And It Hurts Me To Know That I Can't...Cause..I Actually Was Willing To Go Up There And See Him And Stuff..But I Guess I Gotta Wait Just A Lil Longer....Ugh..I Miss Him So Much Though Ya Know...And I Still Feel Like He'll Be Back Tomorrow..From A Long Vacation...Ya Know But He Isn't Back...Oh...But Thanks ....I'll Try To Remember The Good Times...
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Steph