Nothing seems to go right anymore

Just like the title nothing seems to be going right anymore everything's just been going in a downward spiral and Im stuck in the middle watching my entire world crumble around me. My friends seem to forget about me when Im quiet and trying to figure things out but come bolting out of the woodwork when I lose it and start crying.. I dont really consider anyone as a true friend anymore now that I've seen all of this. The only person i did consider a friend turned out to be a hypoctite who hasnt done anything the past mont or two but made me feel worse. I seriously hate the school I'm at no one understands me and no one pays any attention to me unless Im upset, I hate pittty seriously but of course thats all I get now.. Depression sucks I can barely go 2 days without crying at some point, I've become hypersensitive to everything, and my first scars are starting to show up.. Seriously nothing has gone right for me in so long

I've been through what you're going through, & trust me, things will get better. I know it seems & feels like it won't, but it will.

People told me just to hang in there and everything would start to go right for a change, and I couldn't believe them. I honestly thought I was NEVER going to be happy again.

But I'm now slowly getting out of depression. I still have my bad days and I'll cry. But I am starting to feel happy again slowly.

So just hang in there, kay hun? If you need to talk. I'm all ears. :]

I go to my griefshare meetings. I thought when my wife died that my whole world collapsed. I keep finding these things we call triggers that start the crying fits. Recently it was a box of porcelain dolls that she had wrapped individualy with tissue paper. I took them to my mom. I took all the angels but one that is on a unicorn and gave them to my sisters. I just have the love letters to deal with. I can look at the pictures today. It gets bitter sometimes before it gets better. Hang in there.

Roy

Angelina, There's a difference between teenage hormones and depression.

1 verbally abusive and alcoholic dad thats never home and when hes home i walk on eggshells not to make him mad (who has conviently come home now because he needs to see a doctor)
2 no real friends who really understand anything i try to tell them about me and just seem to always pop up only when im upset
3 one bad event after another and another and anther and another for oh the past 2 months