any words of comfort or help please

Basically i can't do this anymore, i just can't live anymore each day just causes more pain for me, it is driving me mad. I feel like I'm never good enough, that I'm not worth living. I seriously have no one I can really talk to about this all. My life has been going down hill for years, I seriously can't live anymore cause it's just killing me, I am alone sure I know alot of people but every time I'm some what close to some one or I ask for help they always abandon me or forget about it all. I just really need some words of advice. I have felt like this for almost four years, every morning I wake up and regret that I even woke up, for me I hold no joy in anything really only art but that is not saving me any more nor is music, I am numb I hate the fact that all I feel is pain I hate that I'm never good enough and people think they understand me when they don't also they always fall for the fake mask that I force on my face everyday. I can't handle living anymore, basically I am wishing I am dead, never to be born. Everyday my life just falls apart more I can't control this I can't stop it. Suicide has always had a part in my life for a few years. I can't take this all anymore my past is haunting me and it won't leave me alone.

ok, so i kinda dont know what to say after that... I dont know you but after what you wrote you sound EXACTLY the same as me. I cant say how many times I've thought about suicide, how many nights I've planned how I could kill my self...all I can say is I've been holding on to the hope that one day, in a few years it will be allright. Meanwhile I'm, we''l like you going through each day wishing it was the last one. My advice? Hold on, to whatever you've got, and try not to hurt to many other people in the process, people care about you, no matter how it might seem. If you want to talk my msn is donkeyland_dizzily@hotmail.com (random I know, dont ask) and I'll try and help.
Keep trying, Beth ~xBx~

I went through severe depression for 9yrs, all I can say is it does get easier. I'm so glad my attempts of suicide didn't work, and going through all that sh*t for so long has made me a much stronger person and really makes me appreciate the little things in life a lot more. The way I see things now, is yeah life may be bad at times but I'm here for the long haul and am planning on making the most of every moment I have now.. For 9yrs I missed out on so much because all I focused on was not wanting to be here.. As soon as I started seeing things in a different light, I realised I may have depression but I am not going to miss out on the rest of my kids lives and I am not going to mope around all the time. A year ago I wasn't strong enough to take a stand against it.. But there was a turning point and there will be for You too.. Hang in there, happiness may be just around the corner x :]

Let's get something straight before I make a remark..

Are you looking for someone to give you REAL (make a note of that word) advice..

OR

Do you want the kind of post that says "Ah hun, poor u, i feel the same"

Please tell me so I can make a comment.

Gees Louise seriously someone else always has it worse off that you do...grow up face your problems and deal with your shit and move on.

Yeah I am constantly having people "abandom" me. I get over it. I don't feel that I am worthless because of them. Seriously look at people with real problems.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Snap out of it and smell the roses. It is hard, but that's life, Life is hard. We all have to live it. Look at the things you do have rather than focusing on the negative.

same....but the only thing keeping me here is my 3 year old niece...i dont want what happened to me happen to her, i did try and kill my self twice but in the end i couldnt do it as i looked at her photograph and saw so much happiness in her eyes...so i figuered id be her guardian angel wether she like it or not and protect her from the beast and his torture devices..

..she alone is the one keeping me here and she doesnt even know-she just looks at me with her sweet innocent face and smiles..

october xx

Well thanks to some people who seem to think about what they say before the type it. I would like to say that the people who seem to have a comment on almost every post on this section well your words on get over it and everything, they don't really help just make it worse than it already is. If you don't have anything of use to say then why bother wasting your time posting and looking on this if your just going to make things worse and try to make what seems like a big deal for some one like nothing to you saying you have had the same. In no way can two situations be the same, you do not know the whole story so please do not make such claims if you do not know the true depth of such situations.

Anyway thanks to the people that actually post some words of advice, they do help.

You have to find something that means a lot to you.
For me it is martial arts, and cats.
I'm not naturally active, so martial arts is very exhausting for me, but with every new accomplishment it is like I am born again.
I also dance to live. My preferences are flamenco and irish dancing, and not irish step-dance, either, the real stuff, that you see on Lord of the Dance :-P
I'm only in my second year, and my third year in flamenco, but it has made a difference to my life.

Sometimes it helps to get busy and active. I had what I thought was a best friend, but she hit the mark of 16 (I am 13) and she just...well, disappeared out of my life. She barely acknowledges me, she doesn't include me in any conversations... she isn't worth my worry and my sadness. I won't cry because of her, because she doesn't deserve my tears, so to speak. She thinks a lot of herself, and is pretty popular, but sometimes there is just a gentle, sweet satisfaction, in knowing that she couldn't break a plank of wood with a kick, she couldn't do 70+ abdominals or even two push-ups...

You have to jump head-first into life. Perhaps you are lucky, in that you aren't afraid of death because you don't think life is quite worth it. That makes you tough, in a way.
Do what you love, and do it well. Let nothing nor anyone get in your way, not even your depression.

//T.L.//

just as beth said, my thoughts about suicide have been going on and off. sometimes i'm happy, sometimes so depressed, it really depends. you never really stated what makes you sad or whats happening to you thats causing this depression, but i understand if you left that out for a reason.

my helpful thing:
okay, i know this sounds stupid, but my best friend isn't a human. it's this huge teddy bear that one of my really close friends bought for me for christmas. I tell this bear, named Ben, or Big Ben, everything. He's my best friend BECAUSE he doesn't spill my secrets and he is the ONLY living thing on this earth i trust. I hold him when i cry, i sleep with him every night, tell him my problems, and guess what?!?!? it ACTUALLY HELPS ME!!!

i think that to start, you should get yourself a big teddy bear because their hugable and come in big sizes,and yo should tell this teddy bear everything you're feeling right now. you should cry with this teddy and trust it, he or she will listen no matter what! and they won't forget about you and ditch you like people. THATS THE WHOLE POINT!! =) believe me, it will help you. good luck, and find that teddy, mines half my size and was like $20. it's worth the money! =)

Hey people, have you ever gone through depression on your life times? Most of you I bet have wonderful lives and some of you don't. Depression is not something people can help. But having people tell them that they are pathetic and should "get over it" is NOT going to help!! Ok sympathy wont do it either....but there is a median!!
If you're this sad Louise, was it??, get help...it may be a really hard thing to do but proffessional help is whats needed. If you want outside help talk to an agency like The Samaritans (www.samaritains.org) and phone one of the people there.
I hope you feel better soon.
:)