How do you get when you're depressed?

I feel like there is this mountain of burden on my chest, I like to keep myself alone, and I'm less social like when I'm happy. I get lazy, and I sorta stop taking care of myself. What happens to ya'll?

I feel like everything I have done and ever will do is for nothing. Like the fact that I hurt means nothing to others and I am just hurting myself by breathing. I feel like that one girl that you would die for will never look twice at me, will never be more than friends. I feel like I'm holding others back, like by living I am hurting my friends. I remember how my dad beat me and my mum didn't do crap and I feel worthless. I remember how my sister betrayed me and I feel like I'm only good as a scapegoat.

I feel like a huge black cloud has parked itself above my head and absorbed all the good things and feelings from me and filled my insides with the tears it rains.. It takes away all the happiness, love, joy, excitement and my will to live and replaces it with sadness and despair... I'm so glad that it doesn't happen much anymore and when it does it doesn't last like it used to :]

I cry and take pills...

Nothing's special anymore, life's lost its luster, it gets harder to sleep, never hungry anymore, like nothing's left for you in this world anymore

i halusinate horrible things, and have breathless panik attacks...to stop this i take a bunch off pills every night to help me sleep "normal"....it feels like im trapped in someone elses nightmare and that i cant get out, i keep running but never seem to get anywere..dont really eat much anymore, and dont really have any energy to do anything...anything but scream in my head..my friends dont seem to understand me which makes living even more pointless...

...i feel like the dying rose in beauty and the beast, sparkle on the outside but dying on the inside...

sometimes i think im surrounded by evil beings and lash out, then realising they are actually people who care for me, this makes me feel useless, broken, and dead inside.

october xx

I just feel right down. I feel down on everything, especialy my friends. I start feeling like I've got no one here when I know I do. I feel like someone's going to steal all my friends away from me. When I get really stressed, mixed with anger, frustration and sadness, I can have pannick attacks. 1 time I was actualy on the verge on my sanity and I had to snap myself back into it.

Im like so use to it, i dont even notect anymore :)
Maybe yes making me think no one cares n i cry to sleep...

when i get depressed.. i eat. lmao i'm a comfort eater.. oh yeah.. and when i get SUPER depressed. i forget to eat.. which just reminds me.. i haven't eaten in two days.. you know what that means?? I'M SUPER DUPER HUNGRY! no, not depressed. i'm in a blissful state, cuz when i don't get enough food or sleep in my system, i get all funny and stuff, like i'm drunk or something.. and then there's the cutting.. and the crying, and the poem writing.. which i haven't posted in forever.. so yeah, i gotta get on that when i get time to go online outside of school... i want to do it now, but sadly, i don't have my journal... so i'm waiting patiently... and yeah i think i've turned this comment into a blog entry.. when in reality, it was supposed to start with what i do with depression.. well to get back on subject.. i start getting violent and stuff.. i break things, i'm cranky, i don't want anyone near me.. so my depression con incides with my anger... basically my emotions all become one thing... so yeah.. thats me and depression... :(

I like the room dark, I eat less (which is good!), I excercise to feel better.

...and I sleep a lot...as much as I can get away with!