A Need, A Want... Hormones??

Okay, so this is weird... lately it is as though I have felt perhaps the need to be closer to boys... sudden and random attractions, and most of my writings involve seeking love... so is it the age? Do humans come to a point where they instinctively start seeking to come into the first stages of contact with their future partner...??

Also, I have been telling most people that I feel that I could never be loved, or find anyone.. but is that the truth? I'm not sure if I'm lying to myself or not. Sometimes I do feel like no one could possibly like me, because I do not like myself. Other times, if the lighting is good, I look in the mirror and I seem pretty... then I seem horrible. Then I look at gestures that I have given to people, and I think "hey, you're not so bad..." then I look at all the things that are wrong with me, and I think "you're horrible."

I am not sure what I'm looking for now. Maybe suggestions, recommendations, just an answer to make me feel less alone right now. I don't know. It's just so hard to try to explain this.

//T.L.//

I know exactly what you mean. You've just had a good night with a guy you like (even though you may not be dating) and you feel really pretty. The next thing you know, all of these doubts start to come in your mind and it's like "Oh my gosh, I'm such an idiot". Haha I dunno it's really weird hey? It could be hormones I guess, but then we must have the same hormones because I feel the same thing sometimes. Actually, most days. But i think the big issue is, is that I have to love myself first. Someday a handsome prince made just for you will come your way and fall head over heels for you, but it's not going to happen overnight. Just focus on everyday life right now, not necessarily boyfriends or anything like that, even though it's one of the hardest things to do. But I guess just learning to love yourself and respect yourself and others. Just let who you are shine through. That's how I get through it. There's more to life than boys, and you have lots of time for that m'dear =)

I know how you are feeling T.L. i feel that too. And i think what Lovely Bones said is definately right. I have been having ups and downs lately too. I'd have a good night with a guy friend, and i'd feel good, then something would go wrong and i feel like crap again. I hate it, so i can relate and i know how you feel. Just keep your head high, that's what i'm trying to do. I just keep telling myself that one day, the right person for me will come along and like me for who i am, not making me change myself for anyone. That's just my opinion. So yeah.. hope your alright hun.

What you're feeling is natural. Every teen goes through it at some point. Sometimes you think you look okay, and other times you hate the way you look. It is also very natural to want to attract guys. You don't need to worry about it at all. A guy will come along. You just can't think so much about it. Appearance isn't everything, and the weird thing is, the way you see yourself, is not always how other people see you.

It's normal to feel an attraction to the opposite sex. I started out really young, I just never really paid attention to it, until I felt I was ready. There were people I had crushes on when I was around 10, I just never really started dating til a few years later. It's normal, but control those feelings and emotions. And also.. enjoy your youth :P

Hey, thanks... I'm trying to get over someone who I know doesn't like me the way I like him.
I will be okay.
Tomorrow is a new day.

//T.L.//