I wan to be an annorexic!!!

Well not really...but now that I've got your attention...

I mean I eat and all, but I feel really bad when I do. I never throw it back up...but I wish I could. I eat because people tell me to and because I know that's just what people do. I wish I could just stop. I'm not over weight or anything 5" 1' 100lbs, but...I have tried to stop eating before but I just couldn't. I wish I had the strength to stop. It makes me feel all icky inside when I eat.

I know exactly what You mean, I eat because I have to.. If I could survive on eating nothing I would. I never want to have an eating disorder though which is why I do eat.. But like You it makes me feel sick.. If I could stay at the weight I am now and be healthy without eating, I'd definitely not eat

The thing is with me thatI don't care if I loose weight...although I know it wouldn't be good for me to do so.

I'm a healthy size and happy with the way I look [kinda] I always got the mickey taken out of me when I was younger for being too skinny, even though I ate I never put weight on.. I have had friends who have been anorexic, and one that died from it the beginning of this year. I know how bad not eating can affect people and have put my family through enough pain over the years without making them go through that too. I force myself to eat and always will.. However I very rarely eat more than one meal a day

I eat 3 meals a day...sometimes 2...but one time I tried to eat 3 meals just 3 very small meals...and it didn't work out so well...I guess I'm just used to eating a lot...even though I really don't want to.

Darling, you are not over weight at all and feeling this way about food is not healthy!
You know you're here for a good time, not a long time so get rid of your guilt and start enjoying life including your food. I know its easier said than done but have what you want in a balanced moderated diet, combined with exercise and never feel bad about what you choose to indulge in. If you do express that guilt healthily by maybe, eating more healthy the next day or walking an extra ten mins. But don't try to starve yourself...

Eat good, gain weight :o)

Umm..you better stop thinking that way. It's not a good feeling to have an eating disorder. You are at a good weight for your height, don't go any lower. You shouldn't feel guilty about food. If you don't eat right, your body doesn't get the nutrients it needs to work properly. That's why eating disorders often lead to death. The body slowly starts to shut down. It's scary, so be careful. Eat 3 good meals a day, and snacks in between, and you won't have to worry.

ok... err... i am overweight ^^'' haha. funny... haha... -_- '' not really. i eat cuz im bored. i try not to be bored, but after everyone annoying me and taking my food @ lunch, i get hungry when i get home. a lotta times i wish there was a pill to eat with all of the daily nutrients, and then i could stay home all day ^^ and eat ice. haha. then i could paint all day ^^ sadly, i have school... i still wish i were thinner bc people make fun of me for being different... but ive begun to accept myself. and you should too ^^

accept yourself, not for the number on the scale, but how you act... looks aren't everything! i believe you have to sacrifice something to get what you want... i'd rather sacrifice my looks for more inner strength than my brains for my looks :P same should go for you..

bye!

^ Okay, bloody tears, you're underweight. I'm 5'2", and they say 103 lbs is a healthy weight for my height. What is wrong with you people? It shouldn't be about being skinny, it should be about being healthy. We're supposed to be thankful for food. It's meant to be enjoyed.

I know food is meant to be enjoyed...I just can't seem to enjoy it...The thing is no matter what I eat or how much I'm usually between 97-108lbs. Although when I'm really sick and can't really eat...I'll drop like 5lbs in 3 days. I don't know why but I just wish I could not eat all the time...I just don't because I know it wouldn't be good for me...even though I really wish it would.

I'm going to be honest with you. It sounds like you're on the path to some sort of eating disorder. The way you feel about food, is not healthy.

Hmmm somebody pass me a cheeseburger all this anorexia chat is making a girl hungry...

....actually make that a quarter pounder with cheese

....and yes Ill upsize my fries and drink with that

*drools*

Get help. Food is good and healthy. I couldn't live without food..........

Having an eating disorder would never be something to be proud of, and it would never be fun. I eat pretty much when people tell me too. It has nothing to do with what I think of my body or anything like that. Personally, I don't get hungry that many times a day... and when I do, for some reason, I either don't realize it or it just doesn't bother me... I force myself to eat all the time because I don't want to end up really skinny or anything like that. I don't think really skinny people look any better than really fat people, honestly. Eating disorders are the kinds of thing you don't want to get yourself into, because when you're doing it you might not care and stuff, but when you do start to care about what you're doing to yourself, you won't be able to start eating very easily.

Ok, im bulimic. Im trying to recover so i joined this forum. On the forum i found this story which im copying and pasting on this thread. Ive allready put it in the poetry club, Eating Disorders: Looking for perfection... So please please please read it hunny because you dont want to have an ED.

The Guide to Being Anorexic (a parable)
by Eva Joy Musick

I met Heather, a 13-year-old girl that wanted to become anorexic. Naturally being 17 and having dealt with it in my past I was all too happy to lend her my advice. So this is the story of how I taught a girl to become anorexic.

"Give me a day with her." I told the mother. She was worried sick about her daughter who wanted to become an anorexic. So she agreed to send her daughter with me for just one day. "I hear you want to become anorexic." I said as we drove to my place. "Yeah, so what? Don't try to tell me all the bad things about it and how it will kill me and...." "Oh no you got me all wrong. I'm here to welcome you into the club!" She looked at me shocked and overwhelmed. "What are you talking about?" "I said I'm here to welcome you to the club. I was anorexic once. Now I just recruit new girls." She seemed amazed and stunned.

When we got to my place I gave her a pen and paper. "Now write down everything you enjoy and love in life." She looked at me blankly. "Go ahead." She did as I told her. While she was writing the phone rang. It was Shawna. She and Nikki were going out for pizza and wanted to know if I would come. I told them about Heather and that I wanted her to come too. They said fine and so I got stuff ready to go. "All done." She said laying down the pen. "Let's see. you've got friends, family, and guys. Is that all? Let's put down life and your future too. Ok?" She nodded. "Ok now we're going out with some of my friends to eat pizza. I hope you don't mind." "No not at all." She said smiling. I slipped the paper into my purse and we left for the pizza place.

When we arrived Shawna and Nikki were waiting with the pizza already on the table. We sat down and I reached for a slice. Heather also reached for one. "You can't do that remember? You're anorexic." I said to her pushing back her hand. "But you're eating!" She exclaimed. "That's beside the point. Besides I just recruit anorexics now, I'm not one." "UH!!!!" She slouched back in her chair. In a few more minutes five young teens walked into the pizza place. They all seemed to recognize Heather and came over. "Hey!" She exclaimed. "Oh hi are you Heathers friends?" I asked them. "Yeah. You wanna sit with us Heather?" one of the girls asked. Heather started to get up but I held her arm. "I'm sorry but she can't hang out with you anymore." I said returning to my pizza. "Why?" One of the others exclaimed. "Because she's anorexic now and she can't have friends." I said. "What are you talking about?" Heather shouted. "No need to get upset. You may as well start out right. Anorexics don't have time for friends. Do they Nikki?" I said. "No you didn't have time for us." She agreed. "Sorry Heather but anorexia is your only friend now. You want to stay thin don't you?" She lowered her head. "Sorry guys, maybe some other time."

On the drive home I went very slowly. We passed a couple on a bridge kissing softly. "You see that Heather?" I asked. "Yeah." "Well mark guys off your list because you won't have any now." I said. "Don't anorexics have boyfriends?" She asked. "Some do. But they don't really have time for love. They're too busy thinking about their weight." Then we passed an old woman sitting on her front porch. "Look at that Heather. At least you won't have to worry about being like that." I said. "But she looks happy." Heather said upset. "True but you won't be happy or old." I said. "What do you mean?" She asked. "You'll die before your old enough to even have a future. Speaking of which get that piece of paper out of my purse, will you?" She did as I asked. "Ok now take the pen in the dashboard and mark off friends, guys, life, and future." She looked up at me. "All that's left is family." I looked toward her. "Mark that off too." "WHAT!" She screamed. "Well you can't expect to love them can you?" I said. "I love my family ok? And if you can't deal with that I don't care!" She began screaming and banged her fist into the door. By that time I had stopped in front of her house. "But you won't have time for..." "Don't tell me that because I will! I will have time and you know why? Because you're crazy! Being thin isn't worth all that!" She screamed as she got out of the car and slammed the door.

That's the story of how Heather found out about anorexia. I'm not anorexic now. All I do is to help girls know how to become the perfect anorexic and all they will have to give up.

Sometines when I have nothing better to do my mind just wanders to food for a minute but then I'm like "no way...I could never be bored enough to eat" but other times I just sit down and grab some food to eat when I'm bored. It all depends on my mood. But even when I do eat like that I feel really guilty after and I feel I have go eat twice as little the next day to make up for it...so I don't know. But also when I am doing something either very interesting or very important I will just like forget to eat...and my mother always reminds me, but I just tell her that I can't eat because I am very busy or interested in what I'm doing or whatever...She lets me get away with that for a while and it makes me feel good that I am doing stuff that I'm doing and that it is keeping me busy enough to not think about food...although she always comes back a little later to remind me again about eating although she does go away when I yell at her and tell her to leave me alone about it or else.

Umm..hun..you need to get help. That's not normal. Do you want to end up like a skeleton, and have your body start shutting down? You will wind up being hospitalized. You shouldn't feel guilty because that's a ajor sign of an eating disorder. It sounds like you want to be anorexic, and that's not normal.

^yeah, it isn't normal at all^

I know its not normal. I never said I'd just stop eating (even though I wish I could..and have it be ok) because I know its not ok. Its just something I have to work on.

No...You don't

^^^ I don't what???

As long as you know it's not normal and want to work on it, that's all that matters. I hope you can start feeling better about it.

i know wot u mean too. when i eat something i feel dishusting, my stomach feels unclean and my TEETH eurgh i just wanna go and brush them n get all the disgusting taste out. i dont have enough will power to stop eating, and iv tried throwing it up, i used to do it all the time, but for some reason i cant ne more. i just get dizzy and pass out.

^ What is wrong with you? You're encouraging an eating disorder. You need help. Stop giving people the impression that it's good to feel disgusted after eating. You're supposed to be helping her..geezz

so true!

i no what you mean when i feel really depressed, i can just see everything bad about myself and being fat is one of them
im definetly NOT fat and i know that at the moment but i dont all the time
so when your feeling happy eat then ( and stay alive )
hope you feel happy
mwah X

I do feel happy at the moment. I have 2 partys to go to tomorrow and I will eat at both of them (concidering one of them is my birthday party and the other one is my friend's halloween party). I'll just try not to think about it and have a good time.

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