Feeling

my feelings are not as I write I have always wrote bout how I feel, the thing is I am happy and I am well I would not say in love but I am really happy with this guy I just started dateing! Well, I write bout the past still, but its dark and sad and bout pain, when I try to write bout how I really feel its really bad its crap! How can write bout hurt and hate and darkness, but not happiness and love? I can only write bout lost love and death! How can I write bout happyness and love and have it be great?!

My feeling is that you have embraced your sadness or darkness

Make a mental effort to embrace that desired love you wish to write about
You may then begin to feel it with your heart and soul then write what you feel

i have the same problem when i was in love with this guy i managed on poem to sound ok and show i was happy but it was like i had writeres block i meen i could write on old expiriences but they were sad but then he did something horibble and it was like bam wrighteres block gone and i wrote sad things i don't know why but sometimes you just have to spend monthes writing the same line over and over till something really happy comes to you and turns into a poem

Keep writing, especially in the areas you feel you are weakest. Your present situation is an area you're not used to writing about. As long as you learn with each poem you're doing what you should be doing, becoming a poet.