i really need some advice

Well im sry to hear ur home life is not a good situation mine wasnt eitehr growing up my dad hit me on a daily baiss over nehting just the slighteste thing spilled dribnk to ne other small crap.I also left and moved in with my grandmother.Old ppl do not take stress and extreme measures well so maybe teh fact that u sneak out and disappear is really hurting her and driving her crazy and maybe she even suspects ur back on drugs which is why she may lash oiut and hit u maybe u shoudl try talkign to her.You say noone loves u but i bet ur bf does if he didnt u woudlnt b worried bout how he would feel if u were gone.Ppl do care they really do.I lost my bro to suicide when he was 13 cause of the shit at home its been nearly 2 yr s and thers not a day my father isnt on the florr screaming and crying i also spend every day crying 4 teh loss of my bro and best freind.The ppl u leave behind r affected in such extreme ways and think how permant suicide is jsut 4 one second.Ther has to b thing sin life u enjoy even if there small things writing .. music.. books the ocoean .. teh sun upon ur face runiinng thru the rain.. teh moments u share with ur bf the hugs the kisses the love u express .. are those things u wnat to give up cause life presents itsself obstacles.Think about ur future it can b so much better than it is now.I alwasy felt my lif e was a daed end road but now im married and have a son if i would have done what i felt a million times i wouldnt have all taht i have now and nothing makes me sadder than thinking all i would have missed out now so all the pain ive endured doenst even matter nemore cause of what ive gained.So hold on just a lil things can get so much better even if u thinbk u have one person who cares cherish taht look i dont even know u and i care and i think u shoudl give ur self a chance to experienece happiness.You can email me if u ever want its goblincleaver@hotmail.com

good luck
xoxo

No one should hit you, no one. Inform someone, school counselor or neighbor, your bf...someone!! As for your life, God has a use for everyone, even if you don't believe in God. We all leave this life in our own time, don't make yours sooner than it has to be. You're so young to want to take your life!! People do care about you, look how many have responded to your thread!! If you need someone to talk to or just to get frustration out on, email me.
ssmith2063@woh.rr.com...I'm here anytime! You are special and worth living for! Never doubt yourself worth...take care.

No one should hit you, no one. Inform someone, school counselor or neighbor, your bf...someone!! As for your life, God has a use for everyone, even if you don't believe in God. We all leave this life in our own time, don't make yours sooner than it has to be. You're so young to want to take your life!! People do care about you, look how many have responded to your thread!! If you need someone to talk to or just to get frustration out on, email me.
ssmith2063@woh.rr.com...I'm here anytime! You are special and worth living for! Never doubt yourself worth...take care.