to all that dont cut

most of you look at us like we have caused you physical pain. but if you just understood what we have to go through you wouldn't be so quick to judge. if you knew that we pray every night that god would be so kind and not let us wake, we would be his most devoted angel. or that the only comfort we get is from a blade and that fact it shows us that we are still alive, for now.

i just thought if you knew you wouldnt be so angry when i die next week

I am not a cutter so I dont know how you feel but that doesnt mean I dont live through the pain...My life is hanging on the edge by a thread but I keep pulling myself through...I just think that when you think of a blade as your only comfort then that is some f**ked up sh*t...if you pray to God not to let you wake and you end up waking God wanted you to wake up for some reason or another so why do you say it like it is his fault for not letting you die!! God gave you life as a test! If you kill yourself then you failed...You may have problems but other people have problems too...You might feel alone but your not! If only you opened your eyes and start to live again then you would be happy...I want to die but killing myself is a sign of failure and cowardness! So when you say that you thought telling everyone on this website that you are going to die next week, commiting sucide, then yes I am angry! Because no matter how much you want to kill yourself you can never come back and see tomorrow and what good could of happened...My life is like living h*ll but I look to the future for support and comfort...I hold on for what might happen in the furture that will change everything making me a happier person...I live for God, not for myself! He made me and if he wanted me to die then he would of killed me already! But I am still living so I want to see what God has planned beyond today!

i may not kill myself next week but what does it matter? nothing is going to change. if i live out my life i will wear a reminder of what happend on my arms. i truely believe i have lived as long as i am meant to. its like going to a party, you dont want to out stay your welcome.

i have a friend taht cuts herself and it scares me to death! i am not kidding.....it is the scariest thing in the world. i dont know anyone who would judge a cutter....

wel i cut and burn , but reasently i found out 3 ofer peps in my class do it n it gave me such a shock i feel soz for my mom wen she finds out i do it , it scary but i still cant stop. umm im bt stuck on da scarin bit aswell love lid xxXxx

i'm a cutter and still cutting myself.. but only when the pain is too intense and i can't handle it.. i don't know how it started but it just do.. haven't cut for 2-3 weeks.. there's no need for it now.. i don't know why at this point of time this is my way of dealing with pain.. i know it's wrong in someway but yeah.. people just can't see it.. even if they do they can't feel it.. the pain was so intense that you are so rage because you don't know what it is and how does it happen to you.. about judging us, i dont care.. it doesnt really matter to me~

yeah i still do occasionally, but i hate the scars. they r there to remind me everyday of the pain i felt, and still do. i know its not the way to help anything, but its soo addictive!
ill stop for a while, then something will happen to get me started again... its like a never ending cycle.
but in some strange way i feel like it does help me... and its only skin after all, skin heals...

"yah but so does the pain. You don't NEED to physically harm yourself just because you may feel extreme pain right now. It will all go away in a while won't it?"

this is the part that some non-cutters don't see the way the cutters do.. eventhough you're actually adding an external pain but this visible pain can distract your mind from the internal pain you felt.. so, in a few minutes, hours or even days, you get distracted by this physical pain rather than emotional pain.. looking at this way it does help
a few years back i too disagree with cutting as i cant really see how it works.. and now when i do, i can really see how it actually works~

that's why we cut..

I completely know what you are saying. I also burn myself and hit my head on the wall if I dont' have a razor. I have given myself many bruises. But I have stopped, and if you need someone to talk to, I am here. Just remember there ARE others who feel like you do.