Relying On Him...To Much.

Ok. In all honesty, I think I have depression, or atleast I'm going through quite the bout of it at the moment. However, as long as I'm being honest, I hate ranting too much on this thing; I never rant to my friends or family, because I don't want them worrying - so I usually come here to do that...

I just want to know what you guys think about my little pickle of a situation here: My boyfriend also has a little bit of a depression thing I think. He doesn't tell me much when something is bothering him; and that's because he knows that I worry - and I don't tell him either. So you know, I can't expect him to do things I won't. But anyway... It seems I'm even more emotionally weak than I used to be. He came to see me this summer (we have a very long distance relationship: Him in london, me in Canada.) and ever since he's left I've missed him, and wanted so bad to tell him that. Let him know I love him every day...But it just brings us both kind of down knowing that we can't be with eachother physically for quite some time.
But anyway, to get on with it. Whenever he's down, it makes me so upset. I want him to be happy more than anything in the world... I can deal with myself being down without crying or losing control of my emotional state... but then as soon as he gets down aswell, I'm no longer able to stay 'strong' like that. I cry. I worry. I get anxious. I can't take care of him.

I think I'm relying on him way too much. I mean, I'm relying on him to always be happy. And that's just not fair because having bad days happens... But I want him to be stronger than he is, emotionally. I want him to hold his ground in a way I can't even do. That's not fair of me...
Does anyone know what I'm talking about?

yeah, your in love. i know how you feel. i was in a long distance relationship for almost two years. it was really hard.

i think you should show him what you wrote, it's always best to let eachother know how you feel.

Thanks guys... I thought maybe there was another reason to my maddness. Never thought love was sooo painful even when you're still stuck in it...Well a part of me did. But... Well I'm not sure. lol. Anyway...Thanks. I don't think I'll show him any time soon, but maybe one day I'll muster up the courage.

yuppers your in love and sadly love is sometimes soooooo painful...i'm in that same situation right now...i feel the same way about my b/f but me and my b/f live in the same town and we see eachother a lot but its hard cuz im 14 almost 15 and he's 17 almost 18 and its scary explaing how i feel.....but good luck & keep strong!!!

*Undercover Angel*

Thanks Angel...
I don't know what really to say except that I hope you're doing ok too, and remind you to keep strong aswell...But you probably have that down eh :p...
Thanks again... Best wishes.