Hardest time in your life

my hardest time was on oct 31 2002 ..

was the day they pulled life support on my bro and declared him dead.He waas 13 and had committed suicide.He was on life support maybe 3 days or so just waitin 4 ppl out of state to arrive to remove certain organs cause he was a organ donor.We were best friends and im haunted by the image of what i saw every single day and im sure i will b til teh day we are together again.I have wriiten 2 poems about him .. "that call" and "in memory".

I actually have two hardest times. Losing my mother 3 times. I lost her the second time when I was forced to move to tenn with my father (Who is mentally and technically phycically abusive since he doesn't give me the meds I need and I've near died from it.) and my new stepmother (Who we knew for about... 4 months.). It was the middle of the school year and we didn't have time to say goodbye to anyone. He picked us up from Christmas dinner and we were off to Tenn that night. Everything was left here.

The Last time I lost my mother was for good. She had cancer that had spread and it killed her. This happened January 27, 2004. Nearly 9 months ago. I had just moved back here and she left me. We had just finally gotten close to each other and she meant the world to me and now she is gone forever. I still sometimes think that if I hadn't moved here that day (Same day she found out she had cancer) that she would have never gotten it and she would still be with us right now. True I wouldn't be living here and would prolly be dead, but she would still be alive. I know its not true but I still think it some times. But my stepdad is the one who is here for me now. He means the world to me and is the dad my real father never was. I would have killed myself not long after my mom died if I didn't have him.

But yeah... those are the hardest times I've ever been through.

I really dont know what mine could be

It was hard for me to let one of my older brothers go (died)
I was only a little kid no more then 6 i hardly new him and I hardly new his side of the family.

I probly didnt yet under stand what happen then.

A van rolled over him two times
50% of his bones for insatanisly crushed he did about 5-10 later on the way to the hospital.

-Josiah

Just after my dad died my mom got the genius idea to move to Oklahoma. Yeeeah, not a smart move. Everybody there hated me but my mom just refused to leave. I was absolutly miserable.

--Bryce~

My hardest time was Feb. 02, 2003 at 2 in the morning.

That was when I got the call that my mother had died. I had just talked to her two days before. I knew she was sick and dying and I just called to tell her l loved her. The next day she slipped into a coma, and the day after that she died. I am very thankful that I could tell her I loved her that last time, but that night when I got the call was the worst time ever. She died of cancer and she was only 43. She was just starting to be happy after years of sadness. She was bi-polar and had just starting taking meds to make her better, then she died. I miss her so very much.

Wow...you all have such sad stories...I wish you all the best of luck...xxxx

My worst time...Eas probably August 16th 03...I was raped by my boyfriend at the time, behind a wal-mart by my house...it is what mainly turned me the way i am (suicidal, depressed) but also with the touch of being abused all my childhood by my mother...no one i know in real life (besides my boyfriend) knows...so it's really hard for me...Thanks for listening if you read this...xxxx

-Mortalidaga / The-Pain-Within
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hey ppl.. my worst time is right now... let me explain

my dad is abusive, physicaly and emotionally. He always goes to bars with his friends, not coming back until 2 in the morning and drunk. I'm almost positive he cheats on my mom, but he calls her and me a slut all the time..he beats us and makes us work like dogs. my mom would divorse him, were it not for my little sister. My mom wants her to grow up with two parents. And if we do finaly leave him, we would be afraid that he would hunt us down and kill us.. he's crazy and power hungry. seriously, i do think that he is losing his mind... i don't know what to do.... i want to turn him in so badly... but i cant..

The hardest times of my life were probably when my boyfriend tried to rape me when i was 13 and he was 17. I have insomnia now and don't sleep much, also have had bulimia and anorexia on and off.

The other hardest time would be when my best friend died, she had apendicitus which developed into peritonitus. She died in the middle of the night when she could have been treated! Thats the thing that really haunts me to this day.

Also bad family life hav made me depressed+suicidal n i hav tried to kill myself 5 times. A few weeks ago i managed to pluck up the courage to tell my mum about what happened :-)

Good luck to you all

Love Toni

I would have to say.. the hardest time in my life would be from the age of 10 to now...
I had been abused by my mom from the age of 6-14 before i had become strong enough to fight her back.
I had been abused by my brothers who were always getting drunk and by my sister.... dunno why guess shes just cruel.
I started selfharm when i was 11. Recently ive devoloped a eating disorder because i didnt feel like eating for along time and now everytime i eat something my stomach hurts.
My life is pretty messed up right now, im taking zoloft but its not helping its just making me tiried..... I have been think a lot about suiciding lately.
I guess thats that hardest time in my life

OMG you're just like me, the eating thing and everything except I'm not on zoloft....I actually refused to take anything for my Bipolar/Manic depression Issue....as far as I'm concerned I won't take some pills so I can stay in this world even longer because to be honest I already crave my ending and wouldn't want it any other way....soon I know I won't be here and to be honest It really doesn't bother me. I eat 1 time and day and even that sometimes is a (maybe), I'm been abused from age 5 to age 15 (I'm 17) I moved and went to live with my brother and even he once abused me physically but he didn't really hit me hit me he only lifted me by my neck with one arm and pushed my head to the wall and threaten to hit me...and he pushed me a few times to the floor but he hasn't done things like that in like 2 years because well I'm older and I'll hit him back and won't back down to him. Basically no one in my family cares or likes me on an emotional level...I've even asked them and they said no....it's okay I'm used to it......I'll be dead soon anyway, so it wont matter.

From age 5 to now you could honestly say was my hardest

since i was 10

Im sorry to all of you that have had a bad childhood or r suffering from depression i know its really bad i know how it feels

The hardest time of my life was when my boyfriend died he was in a car accident and died of injurys i was with him for almost two years the person that was driving the car was a good friend of his he crossed the center line on accident and another car hit him on purpose(i kno who the other person is) this accident happened 8-31-04 my boyfriend had a broken back and bad swelling in the brain the next day the doctors did a bunch of test and they said that he didnt have any brain activity left so they let him go it is still very hard to this day to live without him i still love him very much and ill never forget him!!!

My hardest time is going on right now...

my boyfriend just broke up with me again.
and i still love him, i dont want to, but i do
and he keeps telling me he loves me.
thts not helping at all...
im trying to not show how uncomfortable i am
when he's around other girls...
and at the same time, im trying to control myself...
im trying to not break a promise i made to him
to stop cutting, but it's just so hard
cause of everything thats going on between us and other stuff...

so yea... that's pretty much it (condensed version)

Form me it was when I was about 8 or 9....when I woke up and my mind realized that all my nightmares were true......

The hardest part wouldve been my childhood.
I have erased part of my life and seriously cant remember years of my life, seriously it scares me sometimes.
it must of been really bad for me to block it out,
Its sad and i wish I could remember or find out
PM me if u wanna talk about it
id appreciate it
k thanx
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When i lost my favourate cousin, and when my bf moved 4 hours away from me and we didnt see each other striaght for 9 mounths but he is back now weve been going out for 2 years and 3 days