I'm cursed

I'm cursed I swear, Things were finally starting to get better for me or so I thought. I was finally semi happy, I'd stopped cutting, I hadn't cried for weeks, I'd found some insperation in trying to clear my mind, then my dad comes in. I literally hate my dad, He is an alcoholic with the temper the size of a pea. I always prayed for my parents to get a divorce so they would stop fighting and I could have some peace and not be afraid of him finally snapping anymore then my dad came in to get his retirement crap but he was only supposed to come in for a week or 2 he's been here for 7. And i started to get used to it by just thinking this might be the last time, but I'm really freaked out now becuase it looks like my parents are trying to work things out and I dont know if I can take that anymore because I'm tired of being afraid of him and he was talking about getting a job here too. Idk what's going to happen if he starts to stay here all the time becuase i'm crying at just the fact that they wont get a divorce even though my mom knows how much i want them to

Why would you pray for them to get a divorce? Stay out of his way. Don't get on his nerves. Hunnie, never pray for your parents to get a divorce. Be careful what you pray for.

-Jenna.

Personny person, what you pray for will come round to haunt you!! Jusy ignore him, stay ot of his way or if you think your in real danger then tell your mum, tel her how you feel about this man and how if she got back together with him you would live the next few years of your life in fear something which can harm you emotionally as well as phisically!

i cant blame you feeling that way ide be doin everything i could to keep him away once an abuser always an abuser trust me i kno if ur under 18 ya gotta stik it out if ur not ide get outta there i mean obviously ur mom isnt listening to you...my father used to drink he got very mean he would cuss and scream i dont remember much after that but pleeze dont put up with it it will only break you down....

"Why would you pray for them to get a divorce? Stay out of his way. Don't get on his nerves. Hunnie, never pray for your parents to get a divorce. Be careful what you pray for.

-Jenna."

--But sometimes it's what's best...my parents were married for 7 years and around the 4th year, they couldn't stand each other. They bickered nonstop for years on end, blamed me for their issues. Basically, since they couldn't control each other's lives, they took that out on me and grabbed full control of mine and made life a living hell for ME simply because they were so unhappy with each other.

And all that time, I prayed so desperately for a divorce. It's what they NEEDED. To spend any more time together, tormenting me, and I would have blown my brains out. But luckily for me, I moved out of that house and moved in with my real dad. And 6 months later, they're now divorced and my mom regrets ever making me leave. She's a much happier person and the clouds have cleared.

On the OTHER hand, the first divorce I went through with my REAL mom and my dad, it was terribly depressing and devastating for quite some time as a little girl. But I've come to understand it and move on. Divorce is never the end of the world.

Yeah, my parents are going through the same thing right now, and I do feel it is because last year I prayed for them to get a divorce. Hence why I advised to be careful what you wish for. It hurts me thinking that could be a major part of the reason, among other things as well but it still is to me. I am superficial and believe in these things.

-Jenna.

It sounds like he's trying to clean himself up, give it a little chance. If he's trying to find a job and work things out, things might take a turn for the better.

i understand.............my stepdad ................did bad thing and was a drunk...............i was so tried of it all................i wanted my mom to leave him......................but i understud how much she loved him..................so i left and went to live with my grandparents...............maybe u kould do that if it is really that bad

~~~~cheer up~~~~
~~~~~angel~~~~~

^^^Kind of the same with me.

Except I moved in with my dad and my stepmom. Really religious family and I'm not at all religious. So it didn't seem like a good match but moving here was the smartest choice that I ever made. And I, technically, didn't make it since my mom TOLD me to leave her house because my stepdad poisoned her against me, to hate me because I was sad a lot of the time and because I was going through the whole teenage suicidal stage.

Which is why I never want to have kids. Blehh.

So yes...if you have anywhere else to go, you should probably go there. Just from experience...

starting over is pretty hard, but once you have a clean slate, new friends, a new school, and a healthier environment, you'll start to see yourself unintentionally changing for the better. Maybe a change in environment is exactly what you need since the issues between your parents, they should have nothing to do with you. They're not your fault and you don't have to be around to hear them.

it is a good ideal turst me and that person ^^^