Needing some support...

ok well I have been depressed for a long time. I remember first realizing that I was depressed in eigth grade and I'm now in tenth. I have been cutting and burning myself since Januaray...I finally had enough of the deep darkness of depression. I want to be happy and enjoy life...So today I told my best friend. She said that she thought I was cutting but never said anything...Now tomorrow I'm going to see the counselor to get some help. this means that my parents are going to find out and I'm so scared. I'm not sure if I made the right thing by telling her. I'm afraid about how my parents will react. My friend, Kelsey, already said that she was disappointed in me hurting myself. I know that when my mom finds out that she'll blame herself and be upset. I don't want her to be like that. Did I make the right choice in trying to get help? I know what the only other choice is and I'm still not sure I want to do it. I have thought about it so much about it but there are some reasons that I do want to live. I'm so confused and scared. I just need to be told if I did the right thing or not. I just want it to stop and I want to be happy. I'm just afraid it will take so long and not worth it. thanks for the help. It means alot to get some advice.

You've made the right choice, it is quite brave. Wish I could have. :] It's a start of a new life. Just remember their is going to be hard times. Nothing can prevent them. But you friends and family can help bring you threw them.

Rachel

Your mum would have been more upset if thiis was a year or two later and things had taken a turn for the worse

even though I don't know you, I'm still proud of you for making this brave choice. It's really tough to tell your parents or friends what has been really going on with you in the past time. I'm very happy that you decided to come out with everything and to give the happy life a shot, so I definitely think that you made a very good choice by trying to get some help. It's really good that you thought at last that finding help would be the best way out for you. Even though it might get a bit hard for you now, with the counselor, and your parents and stuff, but you'll make it. You're brave and strong, keep that up. :)
good luck

x

i had to go to the guidence office 2 time iv been able to lie my way out it is terrifieing
you are brave and strong

*huggs*

bob

Wow...thanks so much...It really does help to talk to people on here...anyway I know now that I did make the right choice....about why I'm depressed...truthfully I'm not really sure like I always told myself my life was fine but talking with my friend made me change that thought. even she said I have been though alot of shit. My mom has always been paranoid and crazy when it came to school work and rules so I grew up as the smart kid that never did anything wrong. My dad is an acoholic and him and my mom separated like four years ago. I don't know but that may have done it. Thanks for the support. I know I'll be asking for more when it all comes out. I still didn't get to talk to the counselor so my parents don't know yet but I'll need all the support i can get when that happens. Thanks again.

-Sally

its good that youi told. atleast i hope it is. im sorry to say. things may get worse. but eventually thell get better. ur mother may blame herself. and then get amd at you. ur friends may ditch you spread rumors. and call u a freak. teachers will look at you different. some may be concerned, others scared. some may believe they couldve done something.. ur dad-hes an alcoholic. ill pray for you there. he might hate you. think your going to ruin his life.

on the other hand, maybe you family will suposrt you. and help you..

it all depends on them.. im sorry if i sound all mean or w/e im not trying to be.. uck im just in a rought SOM(state of mind)

i hope things work out.. -i really do..

x.x:Lauren

it /could/ happen. so dont tell me to be quiet! how the hell do you KNOW what will happen? and what the hell they aint my fears!! dont act like you know me, or anythign about me and u sure as hell shouldnt be telling me what to not not to say.

My Friends Know., atleast my close ones do! and they HAVE been supportive. but i was just saying what bad could happen b/c all everyone else did was say all was gonna get better. YEA it will eventually but i was warning her it prolly will get worse first.!

Umm no i wasnt talking about my life or what happened to me.

Quote-My Friends Know., atleast my close ones do! and they HAVE been supportive-
not one hates me cause im depressed and cut. if i tell someone mayeb they will be. but i dont care!

=]

Grow Up.

~ and i respect your opinion. =]