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hey. i suffer from it to..i been depressed for four years now...i been cutting for one year....its gotten pretty bad.....there was ppl i thought i could open up to but they stabbed me on mah back....so i dnt tell no one what i do anymore.....but ya i suffer from that...i dont tell no one shit......dont trust them

i've been in depression for three years and i cant talk to anyone either. the cuts on my arm, no one notices because i hide them. not one person has seen me cry. heck i dont think i have! but a few times when i tried talking to someone, they just stabbed me in the back. and i felt alot worse. and just like lizzy, i dont trust anyone. i cant, its like something in me that tells me not trust a person. but its different on this site. i can sorta open up a little bit, but i mean when you go to school and see the person everyday. my pain is just silent. i cant confide in anyone, its like i have a double life.

I think that most people who experience feelings of deep inner turmoil and depression don't disclose it to others, even though talking about it usually helps to lessen the pain. It's often difficult and rarely productive to talk to a parent about it. During a very bleak time I moved back in with my parents for nearly 2 years. I mainly just wanted to isolate myself then. I always enjoyed the relationship I have with my father but I never felt like discussing deeply personal feelings with him. And with my mother, her answer to everything is always the same ... "just stay busy and get your mind off of it." Well that's not exactly effective when you are mired down in pain and anguish because your life has just been shattered. I've had a friend or two over the years that I've confided with but the rest of the world will never really know what I felt. Ultimately, however, I did find the road to healing and recovery and I became a stronger person.

Well, i don't think anyone can honestly be totally themselves with society today. Theres something everyone has to hide. I have highs and lows like any person, sometimes i'd like to think mine are worse, even though thats not true. Do i suffer from depression? No, but when i'm low i'm really low. Don't feel like ur the only one out there feeling the way you do, everyone should, it's just normal.

I hide myself. I have for about... 7 years now. Which was when I became clinically depressed. It was when I moved to Tenn with my dad and stepmom. No one knew about me cutting myself for the longest time. I still do it now and then. I think its fun and that it helps, but no one sees that. I am now being forced to go to a psychitrist about "Everything that has happened over the last year"... heh.. Yeah my mom died But I don't need help. I have all the help I can get from my friends. But they still don't really know who I am. All I know about me is that I'm wild and crazy and I want to be set free from what is holding me back.

But believe me.. Many suffer from the same thing. People are afriad to be who they want and who they are because they are being held back in different ways..

I have been suffering from depression for 10 years. Doctors give me meds, but I still revert back to the feeling that I want to kill myself. I just tried about two weeks ago. They had to pump my stomach and they told me later that I almost slipped into a coma. I keep thinking, I failed, but NEXT time, I will succeed. I know how you feel, you aren't the only one.

I haven't been suffering w/ depression for nearly as long as you guys have., but i still hide it. My sister is my best mate in the entire world and she doesn't know. And, up until a few days ago, only my two closest friends knew - only by accident. But the other day our chaplain/counsellor did this thing on cutting in chapel and all my other friends figured out, and i think a lot of people know now, including one of the guy i likes best mates.

Yeah I hide it from most people.. Only my two best friends and boyfriend know that I've been cutting for 2 years.. my parents and sisters have no idea, because I hide it from them because I know how much it would hurt them. I've had to lie to my little sister once or twice when she's seen my cuts and I felt terrible doing it but I know I had to, just to protect her. God, I can't imagine my parents reactions if they knew... they'd probably yell and cry and take me straight to a psychiatrist, and maybe that's a good thing but I never ever want them to know... ever....
Anyways, know I'm rambling on. If anyone wants to talk bout it, I know how you feel and I'm here.
Much love, Tanya xoxo

I've been suicidal for over a year now, like...almost 15 months...and in march 2004 people found out and I went through this thing and was suppose to get a shrink but something happened and i didn't and no one has talked about it since then...so a out 2 weeks after no one said anything I started again...and just last night I cut really, really bad and I told my boyfriend, because he knows I cut...and he said some things that really made me think, and I'm going to get help really soon...I know I need it, and I just hope all of you realize you need help too and I hope you all find it....btw, thank you Claire for mentioning me :)...I'm not getting a shrink, I can't open up to anyone, barely Claire or my boyfriend...I'm not used to it, I'm just going to try and get to some re-hab place......No one but my boyfriend, Claire and people who read my poetry and read this comment know I cut...My sister might too, btu she doesn't say anything...but I'm getting help soon...I hope you all get help soon also...Everything will be okay...xxxxxxx

-Mortalidaga
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Love you all....xxx